The Serenity Prayer

... is a prayer written by Confessing Church figure and Union Theological Seminary professor Reinhold Niebuhr in 1926 or 1932, according to records from Alcoholics Anonymous as the ending to a longer prayer. It is used in Alcoholics Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous and other Twelve-step programs.
The version used by Alcoholics Anonymous et al leaves out the overtly religious material and may be more acceptable to Freethinkers.
The short version that most people are familiar with goes as follows:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

One criticism of this prayer is over what the word 'accept' means. Some argue that while it is impossible to change the fact that crimes such as rape and murder happen, it would be inhumanly callous to accept them. Supporters of the prayer sometimes counter by saying that 'accept' does not mean 'condone', which satisfies some critics but not others.

The Serenity Prayer has often been attributed to others, including St. Francis of Assisi but without sources. Though similar prayers may have existed, the work seems to be Reinhold Niebuhr's. He never copyrighted the prayer and it has been used in many variants.
Alternate versions of the Serenity Prayer exist. Some are parodies and some are serious. The most commonly encountered complete prayer is as follows:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.

External links
- Serenity Prayer full text from www.recoveryresources.org
- Grant Me The Serenity... The Serenity Prayer includes a history of its origin
- Wikiquote has a collection of quotations by or about: Serenity Prayer

Reinhold Niebuhr: Contents From Wikiquote (Redirected from Serenity Prayer)

• 1 Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)
• 2 Irony of American History
• 3 Moral Man Immoral Society
• 4 The Natural and Destiny of Man
• 5 The Serenity Prayer

"Man's capacity for justice makes democracy possible, but man's inclination to injustice makes democracy necessary." - Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

Astrology Transit for Reconciliation

"Self-inquiry" Sun in the 12th House, approx. 3 weeks
WEEKS: At this time you have to get in touch with your own subconscious mind, to find out how it directs your life in ways that you aren’t aware of. Try to see how your actions may run counter to your conscious intentions. We all broadcast two kinds of signals to the outer world. One kind is what we think we are trying to do. The other kind, unconscious signals, tell people what we are really trying to do. If these two sets of signals do not coincide, it is not because you are intentionally trying to deceive, but you may confuse people or even worse, cause them to lose faith in what you are trying to do. This is not a time to be wrapped up in your ego. You must be prepared to acknowledge your faults and your virtues without fear or self-recrimination.

"The need for reconciliation" Chiron Opposition Med. Coeli, year-long ***
MANY MONTHS: Under this influence you will probably come to scrutinize family matters in more detail. You are likely to become aware that childhood experiences continue to influence your present relationships with parents and other family members. Some event could trigger feelings of helplessness, shame or humiliation that stem from childhood. You should now pay attention to feelings which are buried in your unconscious which nevertheless continue to powerfully influence your present need for emotional security. If problems with one of your parents made you decide to break off all contact at some point, you will now have to confront the deeper causes of this conflict. You may sense the need for reconciliation, recognizing that keeping your distance will not solve the problem. The relationship with our parents reflects the relation between the masculine and feminine parts within our own psyche. We can only create a stable and secure inner basis that will help us to cope with the outside world if we can achieve an inner state of harmony between these influences within us. You will waste a considerable amount of precious physical and mental energy if you are unable to rid yourself of the feelings of guilt and resentment associated with painful past events. You desperately need this energy to cope with present circumstances so that you can live in a way which truly reflects your unique abilities and character. For this reason it is important that you try to rid yourself of such feelings, or at the very least to become more conscious of their existence so that your behavior is less determined by them.

"Some obstacle" Uranus-R Square Sun, over one and 1/2 years long ***
MANY MONTHS: During this time sudden, unexpected events will test your ability to withstand change and to stay on the path you have chosen. Each of us sets forth certain objectives that we must accomplish in order to successfully maintain our sense of being a unique and strong individual. This influence seems to ask the question, "Do you really believe in what you are doing? Can you perform your tasks in the face of upsets and challenges from the outside world and even from psychological forces within yourself?" How well you withstand this challenge will determine how well your life will go during the next several years. On one hand you may suddenly realize that because of circumstances that have developed over the last several years you can no longer do what you want without making a lot of changes. It may be necessary to struggle and break free from circumstances that you encounter in your work or with authorities, such as employers or government agencies. There may even be limiting circumstances in your personal life, such as a bad love relationship or parental domination. At any rate some obstacle is preventing you from doing what you have to do, and you want to rebel against it. On the other hand, you may be doing perfectly well in all of these matters. Your job may be perfectly satisfactory, and your personal life may be fulfilling, a real expression of who you are. But something comes along, some unexpected incident that forces you to reevaluate what you are doing. For example, at work someone may throw you a "curve ball," such as an employer suddenly questioning your effectiveness in work or a similar disruption. You may have to reevaluate your relationships to the various groups you belong to. If you are doing what you should in terms of your life and experience, these disruptive events will only be a test that you will withstand successfully. But if you find the energies of this period destructive beyond your control, you should consider what changes must be made either to minimize these effects or to turn them into positive ones.

Transformation, Mars in the 8th House, approx. half a year long *
MANY MONTHS: Basically your ego drives will create a confrontation with something, which will force a transformation of some kind in your life. For example, you may encounter someone who has a powerful effect upon you and causes you to change. This may happen through a conflict with this person, or he or she may gain influence over you and thereby affect you strongly. In a marriage or love relationship, the two of you may disagree strongly on the management of jointly held resources. It is also quite likely that the two of you will use your joint resources, particularly money, rather foolishly and wastefully. The sum total of all of your experiences at this time will lead to either great or small ways of transforming the ways in which you assert yourself in the world.

The Astrology Transit that Epitomizes my Values

“Pure faith”
Neptune Sextile Jupiter, lasting approx. 2 years **

This influence creates a strong desire for a very special kind of knowledge. You are interested in what the rational mind can tell you, but you also want very much to understand the subtler spiritual truths that give your life dimension and meaning. You may want to learn more about metaphysics and spiritual teachings through studying the occult. Or you may become involved with a religious group that gives you greater insight into the meaning of your life. You may also throw over all human knowledge for the way of pure faith. In any case you will eventually discover that all these paths have precisely the same goal.

On a slightly more mundane level, this influence may stimulate your interest in faraway places that seem completely different from your everyday world. You may want to travel, and this is a good time to do so because your sense of awe about the unknown makes your discoveries through traveling all the more fascinating. This is usually a very optimistic time when you feel that nothing can go wrong, which may be so, but it would be foolish to tempt fate with wild and ill-considered actions. The effects of this influence are not so strong that you can get away with living dangerously. But on the other hand, your optimistic and positive frame of mind can help to ensure that your plans work out as you want them to.

You enjoy the company of friends at this time, and you feel sufficiently secure and magnanimous that you don't need to bother with the silly ego games that people often play with their friends. In fact you are much more inclined to take a back seat to other people's ego games and let them have way. Conflicts with others aren’t worth it to you now. You are very giving and generous during this time, because you genuinely want to help others, and you make it quite evident.

Daily Affirmations to Ease the Way

''The Wonder of It All''


''Positive Pause''


''The Goodness of Life''

i ching - oct 30

Question: i'm going drumming but did not prepare
After a thunderstorm, or any period of extreme tension, a period of new clarity and fresh opportunity follows. The storm has the effect of clearing the air and suddenly reducing atmospheric tension. Deliverance is at hand. In the wake of a storm on land, deliverance appears in the form of new color and life, which bursts forth in all the fields and flowers. In the wake of a storm at sea, deliverance takes the form of land itself.
In the field of human relations, the rain of forgiveness washes the human landscape clean after a period of enmity and error. Great clarity of purpose and renewed vigor can follow the healing of old wounds. But care must be taken not to re-open these old wounds by moving too quickly. In the same way, it is important to return to normalcy first before moving ahead with new plans after periods of stress.
Following the resolution of a difficult situation, your first priority, should be to return to normal conditions as quickly as possible. Breathe a sigh of relief, but don't relax completely. It would be a mistake to re-awaken the sleeping dogs of the immediate past before the new situation has crystallized. Look ahead. Attend to any residual matters that need resolution, and do so as quickly as possible. Make a clean sweep of the past, move deliberately, and the future will bring good fortune.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 1:
Few words are needed - the recent obstacles have clearly been overcome. Now there is peace; so just recuperate, and relax. It is a good time to let your mind wander, and dream.
The second changing line is Line 2:
Success stems from your integrity, in contrast to the cunning and deceit of those around you. It may be time to take a careful look at those you are considering working with. In light of objective performance standards, do they measure up? Be wary of working with those who do not truly share your vision, or your standards. Upholding your ethics and standards of performance brings good fortune in the long arc of a professional career or vocation.

Future: 51 Shock
One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpened, clearer vision. Recall a close brush with danger - a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents first arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock - the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, business failure and so on.
The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's inner strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to become immune to fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.
When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths, in order to face the world with courage. Courage often means daring to take the unexpected path - to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failure, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.
We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension which comes with unexpected success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with "true north", that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:00 PM
Present: 06 Conflict
Question: evening with peter and my doggie friends
Conflict arises when a person who is convinced he or she is entitled to something meets with opposition. In such cases, the wiser choice is not to push things to the bitter end, because knocking heads only perpetuates bad will. Creative solutions which meet others halfway are more valuable and longer lasting than victories achieved through force.
Conflicts in which one party is not sincere inevitably lead to subterfuge and distortions. In such situations, those of strong character keep a clear head, protect their own integrity and look out for their own interests, even while seeking compromise. Often this means finding a fair-minded mediator who can settle matters.
In these times of conflict and turmoil, new ventures and new initiatives are to be avoided.
This is a good time to examine the sincerity of your own beliefs and those around you. Seek advice or arbitration from an impartial and mature person. Consider everything carefully before making any major decisions. It may be time to compromise. Try to clarify the roles and responsibilities of those you work and live with so as to avoid conflict in the future.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 2:
When challenging a superior force, retreat is merely a tactic, not a disgrace. In the face of insurmountable obstacles, misplaced valor - perhaps fueled by a sense of personal pride - is not only stupid, it's dangerous to those around you - your allies, your friends and your community. If an adversary with a loaded rifle has you in his gunsights, it furthers you to duck.
The second changing line is Line 4:
Winning isn't everything. In situations in life where you face a weaker opponent, winning is not always even the strategic thing, particularly if you are not sure of the rightness of your position. Remember that all conflict, no matter how much the odds favor you, carries a price. Learn to demonstrate good will when you hold the upper hand, and you will find that in the long run your position will be strengthened.
The third changing line is Line 6:
When success over others is achieved through sheer force of authority or superior position, the victory will not last. Those who can win only by the sword are condemned to carry shields with them everywhere. Beware of hollow victories.

Future: 08 Holding Together
Holding together brings success. But high-level teamwork is achieved only when a clear goal is shared by the right players on the right team at the right time. A team forms its relationships in a delicate manner; chemistry is brewed in the vat of shared experiences. Late-comers cannot share the same depth of union as earlier members. Whole-hearted commitment is required for team success.
All successful teams have a shared vision and a leader. If a team's leadership is up to the challenge, the team will prosper. In political and business affairs, just as in basketball, it is hard to win without a strong center.
Accept the structure of the team if you wish to receive its benefits - otherwise go off on your own. In holding together with others, cling to your own principles, but be willing to subordinate your personal desires for the good of the group. Perhaps you are contemplating becoming a leader of a group; remember that to become the center of influence binding people together is a considerable challenge and a serious responsibility. Assess yourself carefully first to see if you qualify for this role. If not, it would be better that the group not be formed than for you to lead it without proper preparation.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:05 PM.
Present: 14 Affluence
Question: preparing for drum lesson - i did no peronsal care
Supreme success! Like the proverbial pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, a person whose fortunes have turned for the better shines brightly. At the core of this success lies unselfishness and modesty, for it is the tendency of a flexible or yielding nature to bind powerful forces to it, particularly when prosperity begins to manifest. When power is wielded with grace and dignity, there is supreme success and great abundance!
Ah, but be careful. Along with any accumulation of wealth or influence may come an accumulation of pride and arrogance. Fight this tendency if you intend to continue prospering. Stay attentive enough to manage your affairs well. And remember that while material prosperity certainly beats the alternative, it is only one of many elements of a satisfying life.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 3:
Philanthropy is the obligation of those in possession of mature wealth. Only by donating a portion of his wealth to the service of a greater good can a man become free of the prison of his possessions. Those who lack great possessions should feel no shame in taking assistance, for all wealth is but a passing trust, to be administered by any one person only for a short time.
The second changing line is Line 6:
You are blessed by Providence and enjoy good fortune. You experience improvement in every way. Remember that supreme success goes to those who are in the world, but not of it - who, in the fullness of possession and at the height of power, remain modest and wink often toward heaven. Providence helps those who live with faith and gratitude, while people help the person who is true. To he who has, more will be given.

Future: 54 Careful Affection
Affection is the basis of all lasting relationships, but must be channeled properly in order to bring satisfaction and support the self-esteem of both parties. For example, a married person's lover would necessarily have conflicted feelings: affection coupled with insecurity. Relationships based mainly on personal attraction, especially those which are outside the mainstream, require special caution and tactful reserve.
If you assert yourself too much, or try to make yourself indispensable, you will only incur misfortune. It is never easier to make disastrous mistakes than when you venture outside the bounds of propriety. If you are in doubt as to whether you should follow your heart or your head, allow for some time to pass, and perhaps the answer will become clear. Initiating any action could bring misfortune. Do not attempt to be too creative or attract favorable attention at this time.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:09 PM.
Present: 39 Temporary Obstacles
Question: I don't care - just to do the will of God if I can
Have temporary obstacles been blocking your way? In the course of trying to reach a goal or fulfill a personal ambition, obstructions inevitably present themselves. This is not always a bad thing. Obstacles, difficulties and even setbacks which are eventually overcome often become assets. Without irritating grains of sand, oysters would never make pearls.
The obstacles pointed to here are not permanent, yet they are in the way. As when a large boulder falls in the road, the best course of action is usually to go around it, rather than to try to move it out of the way. Temporary obstacles must be seen for what they are - temporary - and should not be allowed to take on too much significance.
A positive aspect of even the most difficult obstacle is that it may cause a person to turn inward, and gain greater depth and character. While the ignorant bemoan their fate and seek to blame their problems on others, the wise seek the cause of the problem within themselves. Through this type of introspection, obstacles become a means for personal growth and self-discovery.
Without air resistance, no plane would ever fly.
If you are facing temporary obstacles, try not to be overly concerned. Obstacles are a part of achieving every goal and furthering every undertaking. Setbacks and reverses can affect morale, but keeping up your self-confidence in the face of obstacles is part of a successful solution to many of life's problems. Obstacles of short duration are best handled with a yielding attitude. Go around the rock, don't put your shoulder to it.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:15 PM.
Present: 37 Community
Question: i'm out of practise and didn't self-care due to my cold virus - I'm still attending music lesson
A close-knit community that is really fulfilling is one where healthy interdependence is supported. Leadership is essential, but strong bonds of membership are dependent upon every member of the group. Trust, shared responsibilities and good communication are essential. Each member must be encouraged to find his or her appropriate expression, and contribution.
The functional family is a team which symbolizes the ideal of human interdependence, and has long provided a firm foundation for society. The healthy family is a microcosm of society and the native soil in which ethical values take root and grow. Fertilize this soil, and the whole of society benefits.
The power which bonds a family, or a tribe of any kind, together is the feminine principle Ñ gentleness and receptivity. Teamwork can be improved through cultivation of these qualities. Learn to accept both advice and aid from others, and be willing to assume an appropriate activve role in any group you join. A good team player is extremely valuable to others. The best way to get what you want is always to help others get what they want.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 3:
Corrective measures should be firm but not excessive - although it is better to be too firm than too lax. While it is important not to over-indulge those in your charge, it's also important not to come down too hard on them when things go awry. Excessive severity would cause regret. The best thing is to set up firm limits within which group members are allowed total freedom of movement.
An unwillingness on the part of those in positions of authority to tolerate bad habits brings good fortune.
The second changing line is Line 6:
You are confident and your work commands respect. This is a time of reward and recognition for you. Remember that the leader of a circle of influence (a group of friends, teammates, or family group) has a responsibility to set a good example, for it is only through developing your own character that you can influence others and create order.
Future: 03 Difficulty at the Beginning
Difficulty at the beginning. The birth of anything - including any new venture or relationship - is an entry into the realm of the unknown. At the same time, new things seem to be rushing upon you, and confusion can easily take over. But chaos is a powerful force if you harness it properly. Just don't rush things. Do not let events overwhelm you. Stay calm and persevering, but do take the first step. And get whatever help you can.
Challenges lie ahead. Gain strength; find courage. Like a new born fawn, the opportunity for rapid development is real, but only by being determined can the fawn rise to its feet and survive to grow to full stature. Keep going despite difficulties and you will find the success you desire. Your primary challenge is maintaining personal clarity. Avoid lunging at solutions; wait until a good course of action becomes clear. Do not start a new venture before thinking it through. A careless step in the beginning can easily cause events to get out of control later. Enlist the aid of experienced people.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:19 PM.
Present: 57 Gentle Penetration
Question: I haven't dyed my hair and have a cold to stop my song - now what?
The general situation suggests a subtle penetration. Reeds bend softly in the wind, symbolizing flexibility and endurance. Here we see quiet, relaxed effectiveness in action. A gentle influence is at work, but just as the wind is ceaseless in its efforts, so too small forces can persist to produce lasting results.
Gentle penetration bodes well for new relationships. Just as a summer breeze slowly penetrates the woods to cool the forest, the ideas of gifted leaders slowly reach the minds and sink into the hearts of the people. In personal relationships, a gentle beginning is often linked to a long-lasting union.
When employing a force that is weak but persistent, careful aim is necessary, for only when a small force continually moves in the same direction can it have much effect. In human affairs, this kind of influence comes more through strength of character than by any direct confrontation or seduction. It's important to have, and stick to, clearly defined goals. Maintaining a strong vision and following a steady course of least resistance often brings good fortune.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 4:
If gentleness, modesty and energy are combined, the effects can be endearing. When approaching difficult situations which require sustained effort to achieved the desired goal, keep these three virtues in mind.
Future: 44 Liaison
The attraction is strong. But the relationship is not destined to last. Be careful - the coming together of disparate forces may not be what it seems. An apparently harmless, but potentially dangerous, element has attracted attention to itself and is pulling on a stronger one. One ancient image is of a bold but immature young girl who uses her charms to gain influence with a powerful man. The man dallies with her, thinking that it can do him no harm. Ha, famous last thoughts! When power shifts into the hands of those unprepared for it, harm comes to all parties.
Still, you need not fear meetings with those whose positions are widely different from your own, so long as you know you are free of ulterior motives.
Be especially wary of temptations which arise because of your position, or your connection to someone in an important position. Generally, it is best to combat such temptations by snipping them in the bud before they can flower. As soon as a dangerous liaison presents itself is the time to speak up. On the other hand, there are times when the meeting of the yielding and the strong turn out to have been opportunities for truly positive and constructive relationships. The difference between careless connection and a relationship of depth lies in the motives of the heart. How sincere are you?

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 10:26 PM.
Present: 60 Limits and Connections
Question: my motives
Limits are necessary to give purpose and direction to life. Swimming in a sea of boundless opportunity would soon lead to exhaustion. Winging it alone in a sky of boundless opportunity would lead to being lost. In human affairs, the making of choices, and alliances, implies limitation, for in choosing one path another must be abandoned.
One key to a successful life is to select your limits consciously and carefully - to be discriminating in the setting of personal boundaries and knowing when to join in formation. Thrift, for example, often precedes prosperity; just as the letting go of selfish interests often leads to greater personal reward. Only by consciously accepting useful limits can one's energy be channeled to good purpose, and lead to lasting accomplishment.
Point yourself toward a middle way, the mean between discipline and freedom of spirit. Limits will come of their own accord; but to be able to consciously select your own affiliations in life - that's knowing how to fly! At the same time, do not go overboard on discipline. Even limitation must be limited, so that in attempting to bring order and direction into your life you do not choke off vital sources of enthusiasm and spontaneity.
Similarly, in groups and organizations, the rules and regulations should strike a balance between being too strict and too soft. If too strict, they build frustration among people, and ultimately become destructive. If too lenient, sloppiness becomes acceptable, and energy is soon dissipated. The best path is one which allows for the fulfillment of individual potential, while encouraging self-discipline and focus.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Friday, October 28, 2005 at 11:37 PM.
Present: 46 Pushing Upward
Question: any change to shadow will be my sign
Advancement is represented by the forces of growth in springtime, when new plant life pushes upward through the earth's crust. The emphasis is on upward motion, from obscurity to influence, with growth fostered by adaptability and the absence of opposition. Constant, flexible growth is the key attribute of a plant pushing upwards. This reading suggests a period of promotion and prosperity in your life.
A wise person, in harmony with fate, is sensitive but determined. Make a sincere effort to apply resolute effort against the forces of inertia, and good fortune will follow. By remaining tolerant and flexible, you will be able to retain the kind of conscious innocence which fuels growth and advancement. Will power and self-control are necessary to manage this growth properly, but an inner enthusiasm for life is what nurtures it.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Saturday, October 29, 2005 at 12:02 AM
Present: 60 Limits and Connections
Question: too shy to show retreat or remorse
Limits are necessary to give purpose and direction to life. Swimming in a sea of boundless opportunity would soon lead to exhaustion. Winging it alone in a sky of boundless opportunity would lead to being lost. In human affairs, the making of choices, and alliances, implies limitation, for in choosing one path another must be abandoned.
One key to a successful life is to select your limits consciously and carefully - to be discriminating in the setting of personal boundaries and knowing when to join in formation. Thrift, for example, often precedes prosperity; just as the letting go of selfish interests often leads to greater personal reward. Only by consciously accepting useful limits can one's energy be channeled to good purpose, and lead to lasting accomplishment.
Point yourself toward a middle way, the mean between discipline and freedom of spirit. Limits will come of their own accord; but to be able to consciously select your own affiliations in life - that's knowing how to fly! At the same time, do not go overboard on discipline. Even limitation must be limited, so that in attempting to bring order and direction into your life you do not choke off vital sources of enthusiasm and spontaneity.
Similarly, in groups and organizations, the rules and regulations should strike a balance between being too strict and too soft. If too strict, they build frustration among people, and ultimately become destructive. If too lenient, sloppiness becomes acceptable, and energy is soon dissipated. The best path is one which allows for the fulfillment of individual potential, while encouraging self-discipline and focus.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 5:
Do not ask others to wear a yoke you yourself would be unwilling to carry. Impose no rules you yourself could not live by. This is especially true, if you are in a position of leadership. If you are able to impose limits on others which truly fit the circumstance, and do not overly limit their freedom, greater success is possible.
Future: 19 Approach of Spring
Spring is approaching. Good times ahead seems inevitable; there is vitality in the air. This is a most auspicious time. Like a snake emerging from hibernation, negative forces are only just beginning to stir, and can be effectively controlled. This is a time of hopeful progress, and must be used to best advantage. When approaching good fortune, conscientious work pays great dividends. A clear road lies ahead.
Act now, for at some point this ripe opportunity for advancement will be reversed. No spring lasts forever. It's always wise to stay alert and note the changing signs of the times.
Spring is always the season of new relationships. In the bounty of good times, new bonds are formed effortlessly. Relationships born in spring can serve well to warm the following autumn and winter.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:50 PM.
Present: 23 Disintegration
Question: God, help me!
In every life, all is not what it seems. At this time, things are on the decline and reality seems like a hall of mirrors, or a house with a collapsing roof. Intrigues are multiplying like flies, and there are rumors of discontent. It is the time of illusion, deception, distrust and disintegration.
When you find yourself about to become trapped in situation that is falling apart, it is necessary to retrace your steps. Return to the familiar; take solace in what is firm and secure. Gather up your energy and do not confront the source of the problem directly. There is no blame in holding back; indeed, it is your responsibility to keep your strength intact for the period of resurrection, which follows the period of disintegration as surely as dawn follows the night.
Discretion is the better part of valor Ñ and good timing is important too. Learn to choose the proper moments for action, thereby avoiding futile effort. Be particularly attentive at such a time as this for changes that signal a time to retreat.
In the realm of personal relations, discovering illusion is always painful, and confusing. When in the midst of such a period, it is wise to avoid undertaking any bold new moves or competing with inferiors; it is especially important not to jump to conclusions too quickly.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 1:
Slander and intrigue abound: the image of rats scurrying about, undermining the foundation of a house. At such moments, any action at all can provide new ammunition for the inferior forces at work. Only by doing nothing can you hasten the end. Be patient. And brave.
Future: 27 Nourishment
Nourishment refers to much more than a healthy diet. It is the care-giving function. Eating properly implies care for oneself; providing healthy meals in the home is a sign of caring for the family. The writer of a great book or composer of an inspiring piece of music also provides nourishment - to humanity in general, by caring deeply about his or her work and offering the fruits of it to the world.
You can know people by observing what they choose to nourish in their own lives. Do they feed and develop their own bodies? Do they cultivate their spirits, their intellects, their moral values? Do they nourish and care for those around them? If so, to whom do they devote their energies? The most successful people are temperate in eating and drinking, thinking and dreaming. They strengthen the world by nurturing the higher nature in man.
Pay heed to your inner thoughts and impulses, ignoring thoughts which undermine a healthy and persevering attitude. A wise person is temperate in the consumption of food and drink, because to be otherwise only leads to discomfort; the fact that temporary pleasure may precede the discomfort does not influence the person of mature character. In the same way, be discriminating in your words and actions, lest a desire for temporary advantage lead you to cause pain for yourself or others. Enrich your own character and you will naturally nourish everyone around you.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:52 PM.
Present: 37 Community
Question: may i nourish all given me by God
A close-knit community that is really fulfilling is one where healthy interdependence is supported. Leadership is essential, but strong bonds of membership are dependent upon every member of the group. Trust, shared responsibilities and good communication are essential. Each member must be encouraged to find his or her appropriate expression, and contribution.
The functional family is a team which symbolizes the ideal of human interdependence, and has long provided a firm foundation for society. The healthy family is a microcosm of society and the native soil in which ethical values take root and grow. Fertilize this soil, and the whole of society benefits.
The power which bonds a family, or a tribe of any kind, together is the feminine principle Ñ gentleness and receptivity. Teamwork can be improved through cultivation of these qualities. Learn to accept both advice and aid from others, and be willing to assume an appropriate activve role in any group you join. A good team player is extremely valuable to others. The best way to get what you want is always to help others get what they want.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 1:
Every group must establish strict guidelines in order to succeed. When beginning any activity or project which requires the exercise of authority, it is vital to exercise power firmly and evenly. This may cause problems at first, but it is the only way to create a stable situation from which positive results can emanate. Dissatisfaction soon vanishes and things start to go well, particularly if kindness remains an element of authority. Remember, that training or leading others requires that you embody both integrity and consistency.
Another aspect of this particular line has to do with not spoiling children. Structure your family sensibly and all will be well. Within either a family or a team, you owe it to those for whom you are responsible to respond appropriately to their egos (including temper tantrums and other emotional demands) with inner calm. If you are lenient with a child who marks on the furniture one time, can you blame the child for doing it again? If you have spoiled someone by yielding to childish demands, you are faced sooner or later with having to reform an errant rascal - not an easy task.
The second changing line is Line 6:
You are confident and your work commands respect. This is a time of reward and recognition for you. Remember that the leader of a circle of influence (a group of friends, teammates, or family group) has a responsibility to set a good example, for it is only through developing your own character that you can influence others and create order.
Future: 39 Temporary Obstacles
Have temporary obstacles been blocking your way? In the course of trying to reach a goal or fulfill a personal ambition, obstructions inevitably present themselves. This is not always a bad thing. Obstacles, difficulties and even setbacks which are eventually overcome often become assets. Without irritating grains of sand, oysters would never make pearls.
The obstacles pointed to here are not permanent, yet they are in the way. As when a large boulder falls in the road, the best course of action is usually to go around it, rather than to try to move it out of the way. Temporary obstacles must be seen for what they are - temporary - and should not be allowed to take on too much significance.
A positive aspect of even the most difficult obstacle is that it may cause a person to turn inward, and gain greater depth and character. While the ignorant bemoan their fate and seek to blame their problems on others, the wise seek the cause of the problem within themselves. Through this type of introspection, obstacles become a means for personal growth and self-discovery.
Without air resistance, no plane would ever fly.
If you are facing temporary obstacles, try not to be overly concerned. Obstacles are a part of achieving every goal and furthering every undertaking. Setbacks and reverses can affect morale, but keeping up your self-confidence in the face of obstacles is part of a successful solution to many of life's problems. Obstacles of short duration are best handled with a yielding attitude. Go around the rock, don't put your shoulder to it.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:54 PM.
Present: 25 Innocence
Question: re temporary obstacles and attending afrika drum
Innocence implies a natural harmlessness, openness and pure intentions which are unsullied by ulterior motives. The state of innocence has less to do with age than attitude; innocence springs from a heart which remains open to joy and wonder. Innocence, when guided by a firm faith in what is right, brings supreme success. Naivete unanchored by an ability to discern right from wrong, on the other hand, brings misfortune.
The hallmark of innocence is a willingness to treat all creatures with compassion and respect.
Those who possess a pure heart are best guided by their instincts and intuition. Thinking too much severs links with the guidance of the heart: namely, a clear intuition and strong guiding instincts. Be wary of courses of action which require too much cleverness.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 1:
The first impulses of the heart are almost always pure and good. It is safe to follow them confidently, provided your conscience is not offended. When you reach an impasse in tangled affairs, it is often helpful to review the original impulse for that action, to examine the original purpose.
Future: 12 Standstill
In a state of standstill and decline, confusion and disorder prevail. Inferior forces are on the rise, while the powers of clarity and creativity are on the decline. In such times, the wise take shelter in their own integrity and quietly remain faithful to their principles. Retreat from public activities and common exchanges until the times once again favor forthright action.
During periods of stagnation, inferior elements in society prevail. When the inmates are overrunning the asylum, summon up your fortitude, hide your worth and withdraw. Concentrate on your personal affairs with a quiet dignity, even if that means forfeiting short-term rewards.
Desiring to change a situation too quickly often creates extra conflict. By accepting hardship, while striving to maintain integrity, you are preparing for future growth. "A seed of prosperity is often hidden inside the husk of misfortune."

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:56 PM.
Present: 20 Overview
Question: do my unchanging values and objectives support tonight's drum?
Overview is a time for composure and contemplation. As a result of profound contemplation, a hidden force emanates from us, influencing others without their being aware of it. Do not underestimate the power of this force. Like the wind blowing across the tree tops, its presence is perceived through the effect it has on everything it touches.
Shallow wells rarely strike water, and shallow minds often come up empty. The ability to keep still and simply observe deepens resolve, and attracts good fortune. Discern the difference between what is deep and what is surface within yourself - and you will be able to distinguish between the two in the outer world as well.
During a period between events, the practice of stillness with awareness is a good idea. Only by observing and absorbing the true nature of things - by apprehending the rhythms and cycles which guide all creation - can we discover the laws which apply to our own individual lives. Examine yourself and the overall situation, not just with the thought of discovering truth, but with the idea of concentrating your personal power.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 5:
Self-examination is called for. Don't brood over your own shortcomings - that is a trap for the weak! Study the effect you have on people; and how events tend to unfold around you. Do not try to deny the obvious. Seek truth from experience, and keep your eyes unflinchingly upon the flame of reality, rather than the shadows of illusion.
Future: 23 Disintegration
In every life, all is not what it seems. At this time, things are on the decline and reality seems like a hall of mirrors, or a house with a collapsing roof. Intrigues are multiplying like flies, and there are rumors of discontent. It is the time of illusion, deception, distrust and disintegration.
When you find yourself about to become trapped in situation that is falling apart, it is necessary to retrace your steps. Return to the familiar; take solace in what is firm and secure. Gather up your energy and do not confront the source of the problem directly. There is no blame in holding back; indeed, it is your responsibility to keep your strength intact for the period of resurrection, which follows the period of disintegration as surely as dawn follows the night.
Discretion is the better part of valor Ñ and good timing is important too. Learn to choose the proper moments for action, thereby avoiding futile effort. Be particularly attentive at such a time as this for changes that signal a time to retreat.
In the realm of personal relations, discovering illusion is always painful, and confusing. When in the midst of such a period, it is wise to avoid undertaking any bold new moves or competing with inferiors; it is especially important not to jump to conclusions too quickly.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:57 PM.
Present: 09 Small Influences
Question: effect with peter
A gentle wind gathers the clouds, but still, no rain. Softer influences predominate as the power of the small accumulates. This is a time for smooth and friendly persuasion.
In the ebb and flow of events, there are always "low tides" - times when sweeping action is impossible or inappropriate, but when small matters can be attended to profitably, leading to bigger and better things later on. When the tide is rolling in, by all means, ride the wave; but when it is receding like it is now, focus on little things.
When the time is such that you cannot do much to affect large matters, persuasion and subtle influence can prepare the way for strength in the future. Use your intuition to chart your long-term course, but avoid bold actions for the moment - they are unlikely to work. This is an excellent time to refine existing abilities or develop new talents.
Be wary of others' intentions if they hold the upper hand in a situation. Examine their sources of power, so as to discover subtle influences you may be able to exert upon them.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 1:
When a strong person encounters an obstacle in his or her path, the first inclination is to press forward, to remove it or overcome it by force. In present circumstances, however, do not let yourself be drawn into direct action or conflict. Instead, stand back and take some time to assess the situation, and consider all your options.
The second changing line is Line 2:
When skating on thin ice, allow others to take the lead. There is no disgrace in learning from others, particularly when doing so avoids putting yourself in jeopardy.
Future: 53 A Steady Pace
Like an ancient old-growth forest - where the subtle play of light, texture and shadows is the product of a process measured in centuries and inches - most things of lasting value develop gradually, at their own pace. The ability to learn from experience - one of humanity's greatest treasures - implies constant yet gradual progress. The combination of stillness within and determination without are the essence of this condition. Good things sometimes sprout quickly; the truly delightful take much longer.
The principle of gradual development applies also to human relationships. For love, marriage and business relationships to endure, progress must be slow but steady: slow enough to allow for the bonds to knit properly; steady enough to move in the right direction.
You can't expect to have everything all at once. Development must be allowed to take its proper course; events must neither be rushed nor manipulated, but allowed to unfold in due course. In this way, you will come to enjoy long-lasting relationships, and achieve success in the world.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 6:59 PM.
Present: 13 Fellowship
Question: let God bless as many as possible in my time of blessing
Fellowship. When communal bonds unite a group of people, great success is possible. But such bonds can develop only when personal interests are subjugated to goals which carry in them the essential virtues of humanity. The broader the basis for action, the greater the good which can be achieved. And conversely, the greater the potential good, the more powerful the support behind it. A spirit of cooperation steadies the boat, but it helps to have a beautiful island to row towards.
Learn to respect the strength in diversity, for a community's true power lies not in its numbers, but in the diverse skills and resources of its members. Just as the stoutest walls are reinforced with many different materials, so the strongest groups allow differences to co-exist inside the whole.
With a unified group solidly behind you, even very difficult enterprises can be attempted without great risk.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 5:
The strongest bond on earth is that between two human hearts which have come to know and share each other's inmost thoughts and desires. Though separated by circumstances or fate; though divided by differences of opinion; though angered by each other's behavior, if the bond is true, nothing can break it. This type of union may cause some sadness and difficulty, but in the end brings the sweetest joy known to man.
Future: 30 Clinging Like Fire
Flames cling to their source of fuel in order to keep the fire burning. Likewise, in the human world, everything that radiates light or love is dependent upon something else. Through these dependencies we discover that everything is related, each thing to the other. Awareness of your own dependency on others is the key which unlocks the door to your true place in the world. No woman is an island.
Fire is also a symbol of liberation - crackling little molecules flying away from home. Paradoxically, by clinging to what is right and proper, we gain inner freedom.
Given perseverance on your part, this reading indicates success. In spite of challenges, cling to what is luminous in yourself, in others, and in life itself, never forsaking your belief in what is right. When events seem foreboding, or people seem oppressive, remember the good that has been and is yet to be. Holding to this idea is to cling to the power of the light, the force which enables inner darkness to be illuminated.

Consultation on Sunday, October 30, 2005 at 7:00 PM.
Present: 14 Affluence
Question: best attitude to approach tonight's events
Supreme success! Like the proverbial pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, a person whose fortunes have turned for the better shines brightly. At the core of this success lies unselfishness and modesty, for it is the tendency of a flexible or yielding nature to bind powerful forces to it, particularly when prosperity begins to manifest. When power is wielded with grace and dignity, there is supreme success and great abundance!
Ah, but be careful. Along with any accumulation of wealth or influence may come an accumulation of pride and arrogance. Fight this tendency if you intend to continue prospering. Stay attentive enough to manage your affairs well. And remember that while material prosperity certainly beats the alternative, it is only one of many elements of a satisfying life.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 6:
You are blessed by Providence and enjoy good fortune. You experience improvement in every way. Remember that supreme success goes to those who are in the world, but not of it - who, in the fullness of possession and at the height of power, remain modest and wink often toward heaven. Providence helps those who live with faith and gratitude, while people help the person who is true. To he who has, more will be given.
Future: 34 Great Vigor
Congratulations! There is strength and vigor in this situation - like a ram who has knocked down a fence to free himself from captivity. This points to a time when a strong force comes into its own and achieves power.
When a leader finally comes into power, his or her personal strength usually has peaked. Great strength has been required in climbing to the mountaintop, but once at the summit, the support of others is needed to maintain position. A shift in attitude becomes necessary. Raw strength must be tempered by wisdom; to maintain power, the strong leader must learn to give it away, to share it with others. Only then will his position be secure, for he will not only be the possessor of power, but the source of it as well.
If you find yourself in a powerful position, it is especially important to act responsibly and react with care. Power must not be allowed to degenerate into raw force which rides roughshod over everything in its path. A strong sense of responsibility to the collective good is the key to the successful exercise of power. By following what we intuitively know to be for the greater good, we avoid reckless abuses of power which in the end undermine the source of our strength. Arrogance contains the seeds of its own undoing.

Oct 23 - Tarot read

Tarot Reading
Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 12:02:21 PM
Time Line

1: History
You have come to possess uncommon understanding that can help you achieve your goals.
The Hierophant in this position suggests that your past provided you with a blueprint for your dreams and aspirations. You have apparently been exposed to a mother lode of sensitive and scientific thinking that attuned your awareness and can now clarify your current situation. The Hierophant is trained in the art of magical thinking, self affirmation and natural laws. Using this foundation, leverage those laws, putting them to work rather than being subjected to them. Trust your intuition and your hunches —you are receiving relevant information from a deep, instinctive, historical well.
2: Recent Events
Enact and embody those values from the past that can enrich your world today.
With the Six of Cups in this position, a recent experience is powerfully nostalgic. It draws your energy and attention away from current situations back to a memory that is still compelling. This inner image is strongly symbolic; it reminds you of what might have been. Although some elements of those cherished memories are worth bringing into your present life, don’t spend too much time on memories. If the experience nourishes you, then the best response is to generate more of the same kind energy and share it with those around you. Think of those past experiences as examples of ways you can choose to be in the present. Let proven ideals and attitudes energize you now, no matter how much circumstances may have changed.
3: The Present
Card: Ace of Wands
Position No. 1: Self
Stay attentive to your goal even as change accelerates.
With the Ace of Wands in this position, unified will, also known as point of focus, is the principal element. The nature of fire is to activate and accelerate change, chemical transformation, communication, realizations. Much to your benefit, change is ignited as you make the challenging transition from theory to action, but you must remain clear about your goal. An ace signifies the seed, the start point, a first step; if you handle yourself properly, if you take advantage of this opportunity, your situation can mature into a great success. Stay unified with your goal.
4: Near Future
Become more careful in your choices; don’t be so naive, opening yourself to unnecessary trauma.
With the Eight of Cups in this position, you will be lucky to get through an upcoming situation without being taken advantage of or even abused. Such experiences can humble us and destroy our feelings of security. This is a tough situation. Keep your eyes open; be vigilant; it is not a safe environment. For now be less open, less willing to just let things happen to you. Be protective of your boundaries. If you are about to put yourself in a challenging or unpredictable situation, take responsibility. Only foresight can provide you any safety. Once you are caught up, there will be no rescue and you will be forced to go through it alone. Forewarned is forearmed.
5: Far Future
Allow your heart to lead you to fulfilling friendships that can help you achieve your best.
With the Three of Cups in this position, there is potential for discovering some truly wonderful, emotionally nourishing people, if you follow your heart into relationships opening for you now. These new contacts make all the difference in your quality of life. This card illustrates the phrase “Do what you love, the money will follow.” You are attracted to the best people, doing your best work, and expressing your highest ideals because you are in a supportive environment. Think of it as psychological money in the bank. Remember, however, the art of friendship is an experience that is cultivated by repetition and refinement. Make sure you spend enough time with those wonderful people who make up your family and friends. They are essential in ways that you will see in retrospect.

Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 12:19:34 PM
Question: I studied about trauma, lived it, trained and worked as mentor for trauma victims, been treated for trauma. Is this the focus of knowledge for me? I just prepared some Google searches and, sure enough, post 9-11 there was a burgeoning of knowledge re trauma. Yet, we remain completely vulnerable to environmental upheaval and remain disassociated re dealing with everyday pain-causing situations, like the 6 o’clock news.

Horoscope Spread
The Eight of Swords, often called "The Test," usually pictures a warrior running a gauntlet, subjected to harsh examination, who finds out just how tough he is or isn't in the process. Life provides us with plenty of experiences that put us in situations of close scrutiny, whether it's an entrance exam for college, a decisive job interview, or even the tough conversations that follow upon a breech of trust in a primary relationship.
Sometimes the challenge or obstacle course has nothing to do with other people, as when an inventor has to face the question "Does it really work?" This card shows what happens to that good idea in real time, where the rubber meets the road. The Test represents your chance to vindicate the time and energy spent in getting ready for this big moment. In most cases, you will either pass or fail, with little middle ground.

1: House of Identity
An uncommon individual has exceptional knowledge and deep understanding.
The Hierophant is someone who knows him or herself to be exceptional. Every circle includes the few who know and understand and the many who aspire to do so. This card acknowledges you as a person with inner knowledge above and beyond theory and scholarship, who is able to contact the spirit world on behalf of humanity. In ancient times shamans were the healers, astrologers and early fabricators of metals and medicines for tribal societies. Nowadays the Hierophant represents those who have specialized knowledge in their field. She or he speaks wisely from true and direct experience, and serves in a leadership role.
2: House of Work
The past holds clues to your immediate situation. Evaluate past feelings and compare them to what you feel now.
When the Six of Cups is in this position, the immediate circumstance may be powerfully reminiscent of the past. Your mind and heart hearken back to long forgotten places, faces and feelings. Much information is stored within these memories, and something about the present circumstance is triggering them. It’s worthwhile to compare what you feel now to what you felt so long ago. We can never be sure what memory will bring back, but we can trust it to connect things through emotional resonance, not logic. Asking yourself what is familiar in this situation will help you evaluate and understand the significance of your immediate experience.
3: House of Ideas
Make your decisions wisely because you will have to live with the consequences.
The Ace of Wands in this position encourages you to keep your focus through the inevitable changes that will emerge from the choice or decision you are currently making. Have the courage of your convictions. When you are in a position in which you can do things your own way, you have to be a leader, taking responsibility for all the consequences of this choice, which is now in your hands. Be sure you are willing to live with the outcome. This is the moment to adjust your thinking; once things are further set in motion, it may be too late.
4: House of the Family
When you assert inner wisdom and strength, you will not repeat patterns of victimization.
The Eight of Cups in this position suggests that lack of protection or boundaries caused you to be wounded in the past. Leaving aside the question of who is guilty and how scores might be settled, ask yourself if you are still expecting the worst. Do you continue to be passive, waiting for the ax to fall, for another’s actions to determine your fate? To the extent that your boundaries can still be violated, you continue to collude with victimizers, leaking power and self esteem. Summon up your courage to graduate from a chronically defensive posture in order to stop attracting traumatic experiences.
5: House of Magic
You know that the positive feelings you have for others are reciprocated.
With the Three of Cups in this position, you have the security and enjoyment of knowing that the people you care about most also care about you. This is a card of love returned — not in a sexual sense, but in a sisterly or brotherly, a close and friendly sense. Here there is no feeling of sibling rivalry. Instead, we have a chance for our needs to be met and our hearts and self esteem fulfilled. It’s such a blessing when times as uncomplicated as these happen for us. Even though the moment may be brief, cherish the memory and if you can, write it in your journal before it fades. You deserve to preserve this reminder and keep it available to you so you remember the times in your life when everything was working well.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Examining the continuum of your life experiences renews you and clarifies your mission.
When the Ten of Wands falls in this position you are being asked to contemplate the continuity in your life, to review decisions you made when you were inexperienced and naive, then appreciate the stream of choices and realizations that led you to your present level of maturity. This continuum illuminates the theme that has governed your life from the beginning until now. From this perspective, you can recognize yourself, forgive yourself and renew yourself in light of the constant external change that marks life in this world. Then you can rest secure, knowing what your long term mission is and the nature of the contributions you have come here to make.
7: House of Relationships
As you cultivate calm within yourself, you will gain a greater ability to see and understand.
When the King of Cups is in this position, you are ready to embrace a higher state of awareness and evoke a greater sensitivity to more subtle aspects of life. Rewards are coming for which you labored long and hard. They are not external or visible, however; they are emotional, psychic and spiritual rewards. As you enjoy their abundance, the resulting attunement can bring you into harmony and balance in a way that you once only fantasized about. Now it can truly be yours. Enjoy this upcoming experience of peace, and as you do so, take careful notice of it so you can learn to reproduce it.
8: House of Secrets
Unfinished personal development could undermine you.
When the Four of Coins falls in this position, some aspect of immaturity, naiveté or unfinished personal development could cause you problems. Although you have inherited something good, something abundant, the very receipt of this endowment may have prevented you from maturing as you need to. Perhaps you skipped some step to do with accomplishment or earning your right to be where you are. This can produce either insecurity or a false sense of entitlement, both of which need to be outgrown so you will understand what things like money, time and trust are really worth. There are qualities you lack which you must develop in yourself. For the time being, release yourself from all feelings of ownership or entitlement. You can return to the management of your assets when you have further developed yourself. Your soul will benefit by this temporary letting go.
9: House of Visions
An ally can test your opinions and otherwise help you evaluate your chosen path.
Justice in this position suggests there is someone in your life who is willing to serve as a sounding board and question you rigorously about incongruities in your thinking. He or she can role play your examiner, taking you through your paces intellectually. This gives you the opportunity to prove to yourself that you walk your talk, live up to your claims, that you are the person you profess to be. Trust this ally; do not resist or deny his or her feedback. You have a chance to illuminate blind spots that would otherwise make you vulnerable.
10: House of Reputation
Be confident that if you express your truth you won’t have to worry about undue consequences; you will be safe and sound.
The Queen of Coins in this position advises you to trust the forces that have taken care of you up to this point. Continue to express your truth without worrying that you are going to lose the roof over your head or the bed you sleep in. It is your destiny, your karma, to be safe and sound at this time in your life. Proceed with confidence and do what you feel so strongly must be done. Since the Queen of Coins is often the person with the best intuition in the crowd, you may feel like you are going against the grain only to find yourself becoming the leader of a new trend.
11: House of the Future
You can direct the situation without controlling it. Be creative and flexible.
With the Horseman of Swords in this position, change is afoot; no longer drifting with the currents, you are assertively directing the flow. Although we often wait until things happen to us, the Knight of Swords likes to be the prime mover in a situation. If you are respectful of natural timing, the innate enthusiasm of this horseman can facilitate change. Nevertheless, be careful not to try to control the outcome. You will serve the situation best by being receptive, so the finest ideas have a chance to emerge. Avoid second guessing what the highest and best outcome should look like. The best this horseman has to offer is creative intellect combined with mental resilience.
12: House of Surrender
Step forward, take responsibility and speak up for progress and higher expectations.
The Seven of Wands in this position requires that you risk the possible consequences of standing out in the crowd and revealing your formidable qualities. You could become a target of jealousy or even hostility, but the situation demands that you step forward, take responsibility, and advocate for higher standards. Although it would feel easier to hang back and keep your wisdom to yourself, avoiding the attention that could be focused on you, someone has to redefine the situation and raise the collective sights. Don’t resist; you and everyone around you will benefit if you accept this challenge. The consequences will sort themselves out later.

Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 12:36:15 PM
Question: We’ve had a Global Food Security Program at ready for years, yet whole countries starve. We have the human genome pattern recorded on a set of CDs and could rid it of accrued spam and restore it to its ’pre-Fall’ state, but we're still stuck on the ethics of stem-cell research. not done. knowledge. deep body wisdom integrated with mind-spirit needed but only when humanity ready to attain it. fear keeps us wounded, broken, making knowledge remain occult, hidden from eye by veil of maya. now what?

Horoscope Spread
The Queen of Cups is usually portrayed as a feminine, sensitive, vulnerable woman who understands supremely and love unconditionally. She is the classic “feeler”, sometimes to a fault. Her natural empathy and caring expose her to everybody else’s emotions and needs. But she occasionally has difficulty identifying her true self-interest in the midst of her responsiveness to others. So, sometimes she appears slightly unfocused or perhaps overwhelmed, filled as she is with emotions or “spirits”. She represents the Grail Queen, and the Goddess of the Family.

1: House of Identity
Card: Ace of Wands
Position No. 1: Self
Stay attentive to your goal even as change accelerates.
With the Ace of Wands in this position, unified will, also known as point of focus, is the principal element. The nature of fire is to activate and accelerate change, chemical transformation, communication, realizations. Much to your benefit, change is ignited as you make the challenging transition from theory to action, but you must remain clear about your goal. An ace signifies the seed, the start point, a first step; if you handle yourself properly, if you take advantage of this opportunity, your situation can mature into a great success. Stay unified with your goal.
2: House of Work
You must accommodate an entire spectrum of experience as you move among the privileged.
The Ten of Coins in this position speaks of people who have a high degree of privilege. Both the negative and positive sides of these highly achieved, highly endowed individuals are revealed, and daily contacts require that you find your level in this culture. You have something important to learn by witnessing this exclusive mode of living. To become a true world citizen, you need to be able to move among all kinds of people, and in this case, that involves learning to feel natural in situations of great luxury and comfort, among people who take it totally for granted.
3: House of Ideas
Give attention to what is clearly positive.
With the Three of Cups in this position, you have an opportunity to support the best of what is happening around you and leave the rest. Focus and shine a warm and loving light on what is positive in this situation. Don’t waste time and energy — emotionally or mentally — on the negative. Appreciate that there is so much to be glad for, to capitalize upon, and to build on from the shared talents, interests and abilities of this group. Your job is to become an effective cheerleader so that the morale supports the potential. You will then see some wonderful results.
4: House of the Family
Your understanding of life’s ephemeral nature makes you a potential leader.
The Wheel of Fortune in this position suggests that you are familiar with the rhythmic rise and fall of all things. Perhaps you have spent a portion of your life studying this dynamic. This gives you the opportunity to determine patterns and be able to second guess them. You may have learned to be comfortable with the shadow of chaos as it repeatedly impinges on what you think should be orderly. You have come to terms with the truth of impermanence — everything shifts from under your feet just as you get your balance. This gives you a great advantage and makes you a stabilizing force in difficult times.
5: House of Magic
Successful experiments with telling your truth have shown you a way to be heard.
With the Queen of Swords in this position, you have just experienced the freedom and power of being completely candid. Social rules don’t always allow that to happen. Because we are thoroughly programmed to be polite and tactful, most humans are inhibited by direct talk. The fact that you said your piece may have been a breakthrough for you. Continue to meditate on this new approach, then follow up on it. As you do so, notice how keenly the truth can illuminate the essence of the issues. You’ve been given an inspiring glimpse into still to be developed powers of communication. Cherish the opportunity to develop these powers in your current and future life.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Because of your qualifications for service, it is your spiritual responsibility to take action.
When the Seven of Swords falls in this position, part of your mission in this lifetime is to be heroic under pressure. You now possess the humility necessary to be useful during difficult times. Because of your skill and good sense, you can be relied on as a leader or role model in your community. This confers a certain spiritual responsibility to shoulder some of the collective burden. Let your high moral sensibility and your natural, practical good sense guide others to do the right thing. When greater responsibility comes to you, don’t beg off or practice false modesty. Consider it a spiritual obligation to accept a position of leadership and don’t question why it is falling to you. It’s not just a matter of responsibility; the rewards will be great.
7: House of Relationships
Keep yourself open and receptive to the significant people you are about to encounter.
When the Four of Wands is in this position, the talent needed to complement a vision is beginning to converge. The process has been set in motion; future colleagues will be stepping forward so you can meet, trade notes and define the work you will share. Stay alert to them when they appear and welcome them. Don’t neglect this opportunity.
8: House of Secrets
A reversal can contain the seeds of blessings.
When the Queen of Coins falls in this position, it indicates a sense of loss or diminishment, perhaps the feeling of having fallen from a high station in life to a lower one. Painful as this might be, resolve to view setbacks as educational experiences rather than punishments and you will be better able to appreciate the value of these challenges.
Try to remember that in this life you are given the experiences necessary to shape you into who you need to be for the sake of the greater good. Whatever your losses, Nature and the material plane is still a splendid and beautiful place to be. Get back on track with your full-bodied participation with life and you will be able to rebuild, start fresh or simply find reason to go on whether your cash flow — or reputation — is up or down.
9: House of Visions
Someone with the power and influence to create change is interested in your abilities.
The Emperor in this position suggests that powerful interests have noticed you and want to take you under their wing. These influential people are positively disposed toward you. They are not only interested in and approve of you, they bring important resources and connections that will help advance your goals. Consider yourself fortunate if the Emperor is looking in on your endeavors. Try not to waste his time and energy. He is capable and energetic, and he is looking for like-minded people to align himself with. Make an effort to bring to the surface similar qualities from within yourself, so you and the Emperor can meet as equals.
10: House of Reputation
Don’t allow yourself to be coaxed into premature decisions or actions.
The Two of Coins in this position advises you to not do, say or choose anything definitive for the time being. Cut yourself a little slack— give yourself a little more time to sort out your feelings and any mixed messages you may be receiving from others. Don’t allow yourself to be goaded into premature decisions or actions. Act only when you can do so with a unified heart and mind.
11: House of the Future
When your leadership is unobtrusive, others are motivated to action.
When the Page of Wands is in this position, you have the potential to contribute the most by remaining humble, keeping a low profile and being a catalyst who helps others improve communication. You are not the overt agent of change; your unobtrusiveness leads others to think the good ideas were their own. When that happens, they lend passion to the ideas and are more easily roused to action. Unbeknownst to others, it is your leadership that is quietly at work.
12: House of Surrender
Give up on trying to be “normal” and relax into your eccentricities.
The Hermit in this position recommends that your unique experiences, the peculiar qualities of consciousness which you move through in a day, are not just the product of a skewed imagination. You are in some ways extra sensitive to the forces which move the weather, roll the tides, and speak through Nature. There is a purpose for your heightened awareness, and you must now determine the right use of these special skills of yours, without concern for the opinions of others. Pursue your studies or embark upon an apprenticeship. Forget about fitting in or even being understood.

Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 12:51:22 PM
Question: To be able to digest complicated knowledge, best to use KISS policy. The ancients used basic forms and functions in alchemy and such in medicine to heal individuals, and in communication to catalyze mediation between opposing parties—hugs, touch, music, beauty are sensory basics of powerful import. Folks can relate to them, be taught them to practice and carry them to next generation. We simply need to recall simple techniques.

Horoscope Spread
The Seven of Cups typically refers to works of the imagination, the use of dream and vision to invent a future different than the life one is currently living. This card reminds us that our outcomes are not set in stone. We can raise our hopes and expectations and upgrade our results. Do not be fooled by the title “Fantasy”—this card indicates the magical quality of the awakened imagination.

1: House of Identity
Clarify your motives before you get involved. Determine whether you are acting outside your role or not.
With the Page of Swords in this position, you are playing the part of a canny investigator who is quietly gathering intelligence, listening behind the scenes, perceiving unfolding trends and probabilities. Some call the Page the spy or the watchman. He can also be seen as a messenger. At his best, he faithfully transmits information that has been entrusted to him. The temptation to editorialize and color the message is great, however, making it important when this card appears in this position to know your motives. Know why you are getting involved so deeply. What’s driving your impulse to be part of the dialogue? Is there an urge to act beyond your mandate rather than function as a clear representative of truth? Be certain before you take on this role.
2: House of Work
Speak the truth from a position of neutrality and centeredness.
Don’t take the actions and reactions going on around you personally. Be grateful that you still possess a strong sense of objectivity. It takes willpower to resist an urge to form opinions, take sides, sit in judgment or develop a preference. Watch closely but hold your emotions in check; you will discover what’s really going on. You may be the only person in this situation capable of taking an objective view.
3: House of Ideas
When needs aren’t being met because of conflict and taking sides, someone has to step forward to clarify the issues.
When the Two of Swords presents in this position, you have an opportunity to elucidate conflicting issues in a current situation. Conflict arises to highlight needs that are not being met or communication efforts that are not being heard. Opposing groups need an outside party to help them see what is pulling them apart. If you are well positioned for such a task, you could possibly serve as a mediator or facilitator. Although certain risks are inherent in sponsoring a sensitive, diplomatic dialogue, you have the right approach for easing this transition. By taking part in the dialogue, you could make a difference. Often people feel much better just having talked out their differences. Sometimes the solution lies in the listening.
4: House of the Family
Take stock of your many blessings and honor your powerful roots.
The Four of Coins in this position suggests you are blessed with substantial gifts of one kind or another. Some families are culturally rich, some are spiritually rich, while some have financial wealth. All can be invaluable experiences. Take stock of your inheritance, your many blessings, and honor your powerful roots to maximize the natural resources granted to you through your lineage.
5: House of Magic
You know that the positive feelings you have for others are reciprocated.
With the Three of Cups in this position, you have the security and enjoyment of knowing that the people you care about most, also care about you. This is a card of love returned — not in a sexual sense, but in a sisterly or brotherly, a close and friendly sense. Here there is no feeling of sibling rivalry. Instead, we have a chance for our needs to be met and our hearts and self esteem fulfilled. It’s such a blessing when times as uncomplicated as these happen for us. Even though the moment may be brief, cherish the memory and if you can, write it in your journal before it fades. You deserve to preserve this reminder and keep it available to you so you remember the times in your life when everything was working well.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Accept the acknowledgement you deserve for your accomplishments.
When the Six of Wands falls in this position, it’s time to receive and accept public commendation for your successful accomplishments. Sometimes when we get caught up in the fast pace of our lives, we forget to stop and let some acknowledgement in. In this case, a Higher Power may arrange a way to generate proper recognition for your labors. Soften, relax and accept praise when it comes because you truly deserve it, and it makes others feel good to acknowledge your contributions.
7: House of Relationships
As a new path to the future opens up for you, leave conflict behind. Be harmonious.
With the Six of Swords in this position, an imminent opportunity for change will be presenting itself. Seize the chance to let go of your present situation and its conflicts for a realm that is free from problems of the past. Opportunities are opening in new directions; bring the best of your knowledge with you and leave contention behind. Detach your heart and mind from past friction as you put physical distance between yourself and the competitive, conflicting agendas of the past. You can start fresh in new circumstances if you change your way of thinking so as not to remain attached to old problems.
8: House of Secrets
Don’t fear getting involved; you would regret inaction later.
When the Page of Wands falls in this position, you are resisting your responsibility to mediate a situation and bring clarity to opposing groups. Your resistance may result from feelings of estrangement or disconnection from those involved; you may be understandably afraid of standing between such volatile parties. Fear, however, is not a justification for failing to do what you are called upon to do. If you don’t get involved you will regret your inaction later. Everyone will be grateful that you squared your shoulders and did what needed to be done rather than looked the other way.
9: House of Visions
Trusted allies carry on your work while you pursue new opportunities.
The Eight of Wands in this position suggests a need to gather people to you who are responsible, trustworthy and committed and have stamina that matches your own. Your creativity and capability can draw numerous opportunities to you, and you want to engage in some of them without losing your momentum. With your allies in your camp, you can take a break from your present work and start something new, knowing the continuity of your efforts will not be lost.
10: House of Reputation
Your time is better spent in reflection and spiritual pursuit.
The Star in this position advises that you increase your spiritual cultivation and meditation. Surrender to the greater good. Rededicate yourself to your higher values. Do whatever will increase your sense of oneness with the great chain of being, the evolutionary course that runs from the past through the present into the future. You know yourself as a creature of a larger realm. Don’t allow inconsequential routines to steal this communion from you.
11: House of the Future
Don’t underestimate your capabilities or trivialize what you do.
The Three of Coins in this position indicates that over time you are going to build a body of valuable works and make quite a name for yourself. Don’t underestimate yourself or diminish the value of what you do. Give priority to nurturing and further developing your vision and skills. Only you can contribute your unique gifts, which are amazing and masterful. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
12: House of Surrender
Although you may feel ready to rise in the world, it may be to your benefit to remain in a position of service for a bit longer.
The Page of Coins in this position requires that you linger in the position of apprentice longer than you may feel your skills already warrant. Something is going on that makes it necessary for you to delay the full bloom of your potential and continue performing as a junior partner or a student. You may have passed those beginner’s exercises long ago and feel capable of much more. Nevertheless, it might be that, in terms of the good of the whole, you serve a more important function by remaining in your current position for the time being. It is not tragic or sad to be in service, especially if you are working in a field that you care about. Consider this as a period of gestation. When you complete your service, a great birth will soon follow.

Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 1:01:03 PM
Question: Powerlessness in chaotic environment immobilizes, numbs us. We cope by separating ourselves, dissociation [fear, flight by Yin] and by self-destructive, self-sabotaging behavior [anger, fight by Yan]. Anorexia, ethnic cleansing—all head-banging, maladaptive coping mechanisms. OK for Darwinian survival but as humans with Free Will we can choose change to integrate, heal, make whole, join forces to superior, simpler control of selves and environs., ending self-hurt and war.

Horoscope Spread
9 The Hermit
The challenge of the Hermit card is to be able to recognize the Teacher in this humble disguise. He will not make it easy for the student to acquire his wisdom, as it takes time and long contemplation to fathom what he is illuminating. He often speaks wordlessly, or in ancient and barbaric tongues, communicating with the elements, the animals, the laws of Nature.
While the hourglass was an identifying feature of the earliest Hermit cards, more modern ones have shifted the metaphor, showing more or less light released from his lantern. But every Hermit card reminds us of the value of time away from the everyday hubbub of community life, to relax the ego and enjoin the mind of Nature.

1: House of Identity
Through self discipline you have honed new skills of observation and perception; now you know how to come out on top.
With the Seven of Swords in this position, you have cultivated the attitudes, habits and disposition of a winner. You have trained yourself to instinctively notice the opportunity, positive potential or advantage in a situation. Although this may not be a characteristic you originally possessed, you have disciplined yourself in such a way that you naturally seek out the openings in your life. You have learned to look past all the obstacles and setbacks you encounter as if they were already conquered.
2: House of Work
Card: The Magician
Allow genius to operate in this situation and creative solutions are sure to arise.
Involve yourself with a person of genius who can spontaneously and intuitively transform lemons into lemonade, chaos into a higher order. When a creative point of view prevails, solutions come easier; people become less judgmental or compulsive. The sense that one can figure out a novel solution makes this a fertile situation for quirky or unorthodox approaches. Don’t miss this boat; it will be a fun ride.
3: House of Ideas
Prepare yourself for the lightning strike coming your way.
The Tower challenges you to make yourself strong enough to channel a high voltage blast. When lightning strikes most people feel fearful of their ability to assimilate the impact of sudden, forceful change. A few others go into overdrive — they feel enlivened, creative, more intelligent and intuitive than usual. It all depends on your ability to sustain shock and carry the charge. Prepare yourself to ensure that you are well grounded, as well as psychologically open and flexible. In this way, you can leverage some of the positive force of this energy when it’s released and experience the least amount of negative kickback.
4: House of the Family
A warrior of peace is coming to the fore; the eternal seeker within you is responding to the call.
The Knight of Cups in this position suggests that it is your natural inheritance to be a pioneer. You actually strive for experiences that others only wonder about. Then you return from the front and describe new horizons of consciousness and understanding. You are a spiritual warrior, and you are striving to win the higher ground. In this situation, it is easy for you to call up the quality of energy that can send you on a crusade and numerous challenges for the sake of the greater good. Perhaps you are now being called to, or are preparing for, another great adventure of this kind.
5: House of Magic
When you give up thinking yours is the only reality, you can recognize and respect diversity of thought and experience.
When the Two of Swords is in this position, a rude awakening in a relationship or situation shook your assumption that everyone understood circumstances clearly. You thought you knew what to expect of others and what they were expecting of you. It is a shock to discover that a past agreement had distinctly different meanings for you and another party. Don’t assume that you have been set up or deceived, however. Use the situation as an opportunity to recognize the differences in peoples’ experience of reality, their priorities and their points of view. Rather than leap into blaming others for what are essentially differences of perception, you can begin to appreciate the rich diversity of this world and the importance of making clear understandings and agreements. Laxity in communication due to assumptions all too often results in arguments over differences instead of leading to celebrations over shared endeavors.
6: House of Apprenticeship
As core truths emerge, accept their influence and allow your life to be changed.
When the Queen of Swords comes up in this position, your inner grandmother is taking her throne. Male or female, we all have living within us a wise crone or powerful Queen of Heaven figure, a mature mother archetype. She is stepping forward now in your own psyche. Her higher reasoning is flowing into your consciousness, helping you see things in a broader way. This involves a peeling away of appearances to yield a clearer disclosure of core issues. She is trying to remind you about what is true, what works and what you can do to positively affect your situation. Don’t resist her; accept her influence.
7: House of Relationships
Be prepared for an upcoming decisive moment; know your will and be ready to implement it.
When the King of Wands appears in this position, an imminent leadership opportunity requires psychological and emotional preparation. Many of us have negative or mixed programming about success, achievement, striving and competition. Those mixed emotions keep us from fulfilling our true potential when opportunities arise. Circumstances now demand leadership and dynamic action, not introspection. Use your strength of will to make a decision and act on it; don’t equivocate.
8: House of Secrets
Under the circumstances you are inclined to hold yourself back, limiting your probability of success.
When the Page of Coins falls in this position, there will be a tendency to use your station in life, your craft or your occupation as an excuse to hold yourself back. In spite of this, your path of service is a platform for all kinds of growth if that’s what you want, but with a negative attitude you can certainly turn it into a dead end. Once you take that route, doors and windows begin to slam shut around you. So why slow yourself down with excuses? Why cling to limited thinking about yourself or your potential? When you answer these questions, you will break through what has been holding you back and your natural confidence will rise again.
9: House of Visions
The very thing you dream about is desired by all.
The World in this position suggests that physical creation, social creation and the entire spiritual hierarchy around you are happy to acknowledge, support and further your plans and intentions. The whole of creation is cooperating with your natural instincts. Let others love you and approve of you. Let them remind you how wonderful you are and how perfect you are for exactly what you are doing.
Allow that you are finally in the right place at the right time, doing the right thing with the right people. Nothing remains but to simply shine with what you do best and most naturally. As you relax with this idea, you will discover that people you thought were your betters are looking at you as a peer. You really have arrived.
10: House of Reputation
Rediscover the idealism and optimism of your youth to reinvigorate your vision.
The Ten of Wands in this position advises you to remember the true, simple heart of your youth and all the idealism it held. As you reach deep into yourself and identify your purest, most wholesome impulses, try to let that optimistic and honorable self help you to see what’s good about the world. Allow yourself to look beyond the challenges, setbacks, disappointments and frustrations you tend to see so easily. As you reawaken your high minded inner child, you will refresh your daily life by looking at it with a joyful purpose and a new optimism.
11: House of the Future
Be meticulous as you consider all the ramifications, then commit yourself whole-heartedly.
The Ace of Coins in this position indicates that you are locking your sights on a goal that will take you through many adventures. You may be on to something big; don’t fool yourself into thinking you are making a simple decision right now, or that it really doesn’t matter. In reality, the choices you make now are pivotal to your future, so think long and hard before you decide to commit. Then commit yourself fully. You’ll look back at this time in your life and think, “I had no idea I would get all the way here from there.” It’s quite likely you’ll be living with the consequences of the choices you make now for a long time to come. Be true to yourself.
12: House of Surrender
Make yourself invisible; do whatever you can to help, but make no demands.
The Page of Cups in this position requires that you let go of any grandiose fantasies you may indulge in. Be willing to be humble and give up special claims to power or fame. You are simply called upon to be the emissary or assistant of greater work right now. Stay faithful to the labor at hand, and concentrate on doing an exemplary job. Keep your attitude free of envy or resentment.

Oct 22 - Tarot Read

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 8:04:56 AM
Question: How far do I have to go until I’ve reconciled with my past and activate my future work? I’m so tired of self-transformation.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Summon creativity and resourcefulness from the depths of your being.
The Four of Swords in this position instructs you to seek a quiet place of contemplation, in particular a place linked to your own personal history. In this still, quiet place, meditate letting go of the distractions of the present so you can perceive the larger patterns that shape your life. You are part of a long, unbroken chain of souls that carries forth the wisdom of generations. Take time to examine whether you are successfully preserving what is good, true and beautiful from your lineage and transporting it intact to the future. Accomplishing this will do far more to heal your heart and further your goals than fame or fortune ever could. Make contact with your deep past so you will know how to carry its healthiest and most creative skills successfully forward.
2: Situation
An honorable individual must accept the responsibility of leadership.
The Strength card suggests that it is necessary that a sober and ethical person provide some direction. He or she will be called upon to help neutralize conflict and point everyone toward the greater good, and to live in harmony with all of creation. The situation calls out for an individual who can bridge the gap between different kinds of consciousness, including other species. Such a person projects a natural moral authority that stimulates others to rise to their highest selves, something that is sorely needed.
3: Challenges
You can depend on your creative resourcefulness to reveal opportunities unseen by others.
The Ace of Swords in this position challenges you to define your goals by manipulating current trends. There is a wind sweeping across this card that has an agenda of its own, but you have a map (your plan) and a sail (your mind). Using them both, you can use that wind to empower you on your chosen course. Knowing you can depend upon your own quick wits and adaptability frees you to see opportunities that might be as invisible as the wind to others. Because you hold the map that will help others understand how to sail from chaos to order, determine how you can serve both yourself and this situation creatively. This level of organization is more critical at the planning stages of an enterprise than most people generally realize or remember. You could be a hero by stating clearly what you see at this important stage. Don’t hold yourself back.
4: Foundation
A model of unwavering generosity and love provides you a source of strength and wisdom.
The Empress suggests that at some time in your life you were exposed to an inspiring model of female dignity, generosity and love — someone who was steady and supportive. How fortunate you were! This experience taught you to go within and find the source of right action and clear thinking within yourself. Even if this person is no longer available to you, the learning you received can continue to provide a strong, reliable foundation.
5: Recent Past
You have shaken off the need to lean on others. Your independence is blossoming.
With the Six of Coins in this position, you are just coming out of a position of dependence and are learning to carry your own weight. Where in the past you may have felt more comfortable taking your cues from strong forces around you, you are now outgrowing the need to be “helped.” From here you can build and expand until you, as opposed to others, are the strong force in your own life, maybe even modeling self sufficiency for others in time. As this process unfolds, it would be a good exercise for you to make careful notes on your evolving outlook and new experiences. In the future, this will help you guide others through similar transformations.
6: Higher Power
Embrace hidden parts of yourself; express your passionate nature.
The Devil card in this position advises you to be as authentically whole as possible. Explore what you truly feel, what your real needs are, what you can’t live with any longer. Expressing these hidden aspects of yourself may shock and upset some people, but it is much healthier than continually holding yourself in or confining yourself to limited territory. Your tremendous energy is searching for a way to express itself. If you can unravel the inner knot’s that are tying up your energy, you will be better able to enjoy the pleasures of life and more charismatically fulfill your destiny. Your Higher Power wants you to shed your bindings and return to your natural state. Remove the camouflage and the armor of denial. Allow your true nature to reveal and express itself, with a sense of humor.
7: Near Future
Don’t defeat yourself by being hasty and jumping to conclusions. Make sure others involved have contributed their insights too.
The Horseman of Swords in this position indicates that factions in your new situation are rapidly polarizing. People are expecting you to take sides and do battle, but don’t let yourself be goaded into other peoples’ conflicts. Ask yourself if you care enough to go through with it. If you aren’t wholeheartedly committed to taking a position, you will regret spending precious energy on a cause for which you have little passion. If this is really your issue, however, prepare yourself well; don’t be reckless. Because the Knight of Swords has a reputation for not clearly examining his motives, he often becomes a victim of his own spontaneity. Don’t allow that to happen. Just because you are being pushed out in front of others doesn’t mean everything depends on you. If you have team members, brainstorm your options and seek solutions. Focus on being an effective team coordinator.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Decide that you have done enough and take some time to rest.
When the Horseman of Coins presents in this position, you have lost the ability to say “No, this is not mine to do.” Ask yourself “Haven’t I done enough already? May I not allow myself to rest?” It is essential for you to ask these questions right now because the answers may affect your health and longevity.
9: Allies
Seek out others who can teach you empathy and mediation skills.
In this position, the Two of Swords suggests that receptivity and humility are especially helpful to you at this time. If these virtues don’t come naturally to you, then seek friends who are open minded and flexible and contemplate those qualities with them. You know at least one person, possibly several, who are masters of empathy. They can help you put yourself in another person’s shoes and envision approaches that benefit everyone. As you role play with them, take turns advocating for both sides of an issue or problem. Learn their harmonizing and balancing mediation skills so you can look through your adversary’s eyes.
10: Advice
The open-minded novice can look at a situation with fresh eyes and get to the essentials with confidence.
The Page of Coins in this position advises that you study your chosen field seriously and with passion, not just for intellectual knowledge but for whatever experiential learning you can pick up as well. Expose yourself to the stories of others, both successes and failures, and let yourself be inspired by their dedicated efforts. Leave no stone unturned. Try to figure out why their experiments went the way they did, and what you might try that could change the outcome. Passionately hunt for the missing piece overlooked by those who came before you. You may be humble or a newcomer, but a “beginners mind” is an open channel for genius. Let that magical openness lead you and you will instinctively penetrate to the heart of the matter.
11: Long-Term Potential
Set a reasonable pace in order to allay disappointment and failure.
With the Nine of Wands in this position, this is the time to set a reasonable pace and create a rhythm that can be sustained, rather than throwing yourself into a frenzy of overwork and stress. Pacing yourself is very different than toiling twenty four hours a day until you drop. Sometimes when a fast pace is continued without change, the potential for disappointment and failure increases, and noble aspirations and high ideals are lost along the way. Reconsider your strategy — you can still finish your tasks but you don’t have to proceed in a way that will exhaust your ability to appreciate the results when you finally achieve them.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 8:24:34 AM
Question: I’m learning to live a routine so I end my work and leave ’the office’. I watch TV with peter, play more with the doggies and eat something—finally! But my work is never given response so I have no idea who loves/hates me/my work, if they’re benefiting from it re pleasure, wisdom, humor. Nobody, absolutely nobody is talking to me, even those who used to...why?

Horoscope Spread
The Ace of Wands symbolizes a pivotal act, or fateful step, that will set loose the chain of events leading toward your desired goal. As such, it refers to a birth or new beginning, the inauguration of an endeavor, and the necessary commitment to see a project through. It embodies the aroused Will, one-pointed, aiming at the bulls-eye.

1: House of Identity
Feelings of renewal and idealism are arising in you, which will empower you to radiate the higher virtues to all around you.
The Two of Cups in this position is shouting “Love!” This isn’t necessarily about a traditional love affair. It could be a strong heart connection between yourself and someone you care greatly about. It could even be an attraction to an ideal or a vision that is as real to you as any interpersonal relationship. It can also represent reconciliation between your own masculine and feminine aspects. In any case, this card is referring to that aroused, emotionally sensitive space we enter when we are opening up at a deep level. This may be a sweet, adorable moment, but you can’t deduce from this immediate feeling what the ultimate outcome of the relationship will be. Nevertheless, this card does encourage the idealism that creates fidelity and trust, empathy and compassion — the very human virtues we need most in our lives and relationships. Your emotional, psychic and spiritual life are quickening like spring. Enjoy this wonderful feeling and bless the world with it, but don’t make any serious commitments at this time.
2: House of Work
To do your best work is pure pleasure.
When the Sun is in this position, you are in charmed company. The energy is right, and circumstances are such that you fit in and are a valued member of a creative, progressive team. This is an exciting time in your life. The projects coming your way are fascinating challenges, and they will elicit your best work. This is one of those periods when boundaries between work and play tend to disappear. Friends and family expand to include an entire community of like-minded souls. Enjoy this period for as long as it lasts.
3: House of Ideas
Protect all areas of your health to increase your vigor and self reliance.
The Nine of Coins in this position challenges you to stay healthy and fit — emotionally, physically and psychologically. Don’t let yourself become soft and out of shape. You can’t expect this period of relative abundance and support to last forever. Even in the best of situations there are fluctuations; no situation is immune to change. As you proceed on your way, be aware of maintaining your muscle tone as well as your intellectual and emotional vigor. Use this situation to improve yourself and prepare for whatever may come next.
4: House of the Family
You have an innate ability to draw people who willingly become part of your group.
The Three of Cups in this position suggests that in your background, you were imprinted with an unerring compass that helps you find the most loving, supportive and nurturing people in every environment you enter. Your magnetism attracts like-minded souls who know how to harmonize, cooperate and mutually support each other. When you locate these people, you begin to bond with them and become like a family. This regular feature in the cycles of your life is a remarkable blessing! It makes you a truly valued and cherished part of every team you become involved with. It’s time once again to look around for sympathetic souls you can join with in this situation.
5: House of Magic
Because significant differences have been mediated, you no longer need to doubt your path of action.
With the Two of Wands in this position, a recent deadlock, stalemate or blockage is breaking up, freeing you to feel optimistic and creative again. For a while it was unclear whether you had chosen a dead end path or were just temporarily detoured. But you reoriented yourself, reexamined and reframed your objectives, and it was an exercise that proved to be fruitful. Now you can get back into action with an updated outlook and attitude.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Let the blessings of heaven rain down upon you and rejoice.
The Star in this position is about being in tune with the spiritual dimension of life. The light you cast helps others awaken to their spiritual identity too. This is not necessarily a conscious. effort, if one simply lets the heart be the lodestone, the source of guidance. Things run smoothly for those who are on or influenced by this wavelength. Synchronicities crop up. People understand each other better. This card signifies all the blessings that flow to and through you from the heavens above. Realize that you are being spiritually cultivated by Life itself.
7: House of Relationships
As a new path to the future opens up for you, leave conflict behind. Be harmonious.
With the Six of Swords in this position, an imminent opportunity for change will be presenting itself. Seize the chance to let go of your present situation and its conflicts for a realm that is free from problems of the past. Opportunities are opening in new directions; bring the best of your knowledge with you and leave contention behind. Detach your heart and mind from past friction as you put physical distance between yourself and the competitive, conflicting agendas of the past. You can start fresh in new circumstances if you change your way of thinking so as not to remain attached to old problems.
8: House of Secrets
Wait out this time of uncertainty; make no moves until you are calm.
When the Lovers card appears in this position, you are practically immobilized by indecision. You are vacillating between options that appear equal. Perhaps you don’t have enough information to make a comfortable decision. Because of the uncertainty, you are afraid to make any choice, fearing that the wrong one would produce unpredictably negative consequences. You can turn this around if you regain trust in your instincts, intuition and clear-headed powers of reasoning. Otherwise, you run the risk of taking bad advice. Take some time, until you regain your poise.
9: House of Visions
Trusted allies carry on your work while you pursue new opportunities.
The Eight of Wands in this position suggests a need to gather people to you who are responsible, trustworthy and committed and have stamina that matches your own. Your creativity and capability can draw numerous opportunities to you, and you want to engage in some of them without losing your momentum. With your allies in your camp, you can take a break from your present work and start something new, knowing the continuity of your efforts will not be lost.
10: House of Reputation
The possibility of success is open to you; there is no substantial obstacle.
The King of Wands in this position reminds us that all of life is arranged to bring us to a place of self sovereignty within the parameters of our personalities. An opportunity is presenting itself; awaken to the reality that you now hold the power. You are the determining factor in this situation, and circumstances will navigate in the direction you steer them. Indecision or doubt IS not appropriate responses when clarity and confidence are critical. As you take on this new role, it will begin to feel more comfortable. Seize the opportunity to direct events; everything is waiting for you.
11: House of the Future
You gain the most personal growth by carefully nurturing the development of your enterprise.
The Four of Coins in this position suggests that if you keep your head and operate responsibly, you will grow into your current good fortune and learn to manage it well. Whether your enterprise came to you by design or serendipity, it looks like a perfect fit and offers you a wonderful opportunity to create a world of meaning and success for yourself. You gain the most personal growth by carefully nurturing the growth of your enterprise. If you take good care of what you have received and created so far, you and the world you inhabit will be well taken care of by it in return.
12: House of Surrender
Make a clean break with the past. Embrace the future with all its possibilities.
The Six of Cups in this position requires that you let go of your powerful hold on the past. Put it down, back away, say good-bye. Turn and face change; move forward from a position of assertiveness. Release the emotional attachments that have tied you to the emotional, psychological and psychic vulnerabilities of your past. You cannot “fix” the past — the present is your point of power. Your future is compelling; it has tremendous possibilities, but not if it has to compete with the almost addictive hold the old emotional life can have over you. Do whatever you can to break the spell.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 9:08:31 AM
Question: I want my friends to stay but I need them to trust me as a Friend, not think of me as Crazy Woman. The web is best for multimedia communication and music for creative group work. Any notoriety I’ll tolerate if it helps my work reach the people who could use it. I can’t be friends with my sisters if they don’t give up the crazy thing and had hoped to befriend my guitar teacher…lost, lost

Horoscope Spread
The Three of Wands symbolizes an inner balance that allows you to feel reasonable optimism about new endeavors you are committed to. In the illustrated Tarots, the protagonist is standing on his balcony, watching his ships leave the harbor, loaded with trade-goods for far-off ports, dreaming of the fortune he will reap if all goes well.
He must be patient and trusting, because he will have to wait at least a year to find out how his ships have fared, and meanwhile he has a lot of resources tied up until they return. Only those truly confident in their ideas and abilities would take such a risk. This card represents the energy a person needs to undertake great adventures and accomplish notable deeds.
A detail that sometimes appears in the more esoteric Tarots is a winged wand with two snakes twining around it, called the Caduceus, which is Mercury's wand. This is an ancient symbol of the healer or shaman, one who can travel between the worlds to rescue souls from death or possession. Perhaps the feeling of empowerment this card represents points to the internal mechanisms of self-healing. Perhaps it refers to the courage it takes to be an entrepreneur or an inventor, which is in itself a magical process -- bringing not only opportunity for success, but also an awakening to higher potentials.

1: House of Identity
Consider carefully what consequences may result from joining forces.
The Five of Coins in this position indicates the attraction of opposites. The Five of Coins depicts lovers discovering each other, mirroring and matching, magnetized by each other’s qualities. Once the first flush of infatuation is past, however, the same energy of attraction that once felt so exciting may become a source of friction. The seeds of conflict are built into the fabric of the attraction. Even though the whole becomes more than the sum of its parts, it has been known to devour the individuals who comprise it.
This card suggests a relationship opportunity or offer. Examine what the outcome of joining forces would be. Ascertain as best you can if there is enough to keep you engaged, so that you don’t base a long term endeavor on a moment’s infatuation. Successful long term partnerships are business arrangements as well as love affairs.
2: House of Work
You are caught up in a vortex of intensifying demands.
The Eight of Wands in this position has you running to keep up with people and circumstances that are out of control which seem to have taken on a life of their own. Being proactive may be difficult because the stimulation around you is so high and demands all your attention. This is not to comment on any weakness of yours; you are simply caught in escalating consequences. This can be an exciting and possibly exhausting time because you may be tested at every level as your ideal is realized. It takes supreme effort to cope with unforeseen outcomes.
3: House of Ideas
Stay flexible while the outcome is still unknown.
The Two of Coins in this position suggests that you stay flexible even when the outcome is still unknown. It’s a good time to develop plans for various possible outcomes, both good and bad. Once you are prepared for any eventuality, you can maintain some serenity even if everyone around you is worried. The best thing to do is stay calm and you will have energy at your disposal for the moment when you can again take action.
4: House of the Family
Give your expectations a rest. Be generous to yourself.
The Nine of Wands in this position points to a background of hard work in which there were no acceptable alternatives but to carry the load by yourself and strive against all odds. This attitude invariably leads to extremely high expectations for yourself that are sometimes even inhumane. Try relating to yourself as your own best friend rather than as a taskmaster. Give your expectations a rest and be generous to yourself. Fight a tendency to be tyrannical; let go of the “shoulds” you put on yourself.
5: House of Magic
An experience of the Fool can be a valuable wake-up call.
With the Fool in this position, you have had an encounter with destiny. It proved to you in no uncertain terms that your concept of what’s going on is off center. When you have an episode with the Fool, the reality that seemed so substantial and compelling a moment ago is suddenly revealed as threadbare and frivolous. This motley clad jester questions the very foundations of life. These experiences are brisk and bracing and put things in perspective. Be grateful if the Fool has visited your neighborhood and cast his comedic and piercing eye into your life. Distortions get reduced to size and the real issues are revealed.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Through you, gifts are carried forward from the past. Prove yourself worthy of this legacy.
When the Ten of Coins comes up in this position, it indicates that you took this incarnation to be a link in a chain of souls that will embody achievement on a scale that could impact future generations. Such people provide the yeast that raises everyone’s quality of life. You must see to it that you remain worthy of this good fortune. Ask yourself how you can best use this unique position you are in. Look to your larger goals now because you have the connections, the funding and the clout to bring them into manifestation.
7: House of Relationships
Take any opportunity to rest and regroup that you can. Needed perspective will come via quiet contemplation.
With the Four of Swords in this position, you could very soon gain an opportunity to change the pattern of your emotional and mental life. A break in your usually busy lifestyle will give you time for deeper reflection. As a result, you may cease to identify with old resentments and angers. Events or exchanges that formerly triggered your reactions could be diffused through a new or greater understanding. You will have the chance to gain objectivity about yourself and nurture your better qualities. Don’t take action until you have meditated on the overall situation, have cut through the emotional layers and learned to free yourself from programmed responses.
8: House of Secrets
An emphasis on the negative overcomes more balancing experiences that could be positive and enjoyable.
When the Three of Swords falls in this position, you are affected by an expectation of disapproval and censure. Even a small slight is easily magnified because of this undisciplined habit of mind. It is very stressful to live under such a dark cloud, whether it comes from your own outlook or your environment — your “mental weather” has to change. Learn to uphold your self esteem and your inner sense of worth; stop giving others the power to undermine you. Everyone sees things differently — that is the human condition. You can’t control what others choose to think, so concentrate on what is beneficial to your long term plan and goal.
9: House of Visions
A respected elder and possible benefactor has taken an interest in you.
The King of Cups in this position suggests the presence of someone in your environment who is positively disposed toward you and has good hunches, intuitions and advice for you. Investigate this relationship so you have all the information you need — the guidance, support and insight you don’t personally possess. This King of Cups is a perfect patron for your work because he has no competing agenda of his own and excellent motives toward you. Trust him and listen to him. Open your heart and mind to what he (or she) has to say, then adjust your course accordingly.
10: House of Reputation
Have the serenity of knowing you are succeeding at what you came here to achieve.
The World in this position is giving you permission to do whatever you want. It’s not that you can do no wrong, but that your motivation is so close to what divine nature wants that even if you commit an error, it will be turned to the greater good. No need to stop and check yourself all the time or interrupt your spontaneity with calculation.
Don’t doubt yourself and look for consensus or affirmation from others. Simply dance the dance — express yourself, react naturally, emanate instinct and impulse, and let the chips fall where they may. What matters is divine intention; whether humans approve is less important. If you allow your ego to get inflated, however, you cease to be useful to the greater plan.
11: House of the Future
Success can expose you to scorn as readily as to credit.
The Hanged Man card in this position suggests that there is real potential to create such a great success in your endeavors that you will attract opposition and be made an example of in some way. Sometimes this is the very best way to publicize your case, however. You can get the media and all the pundits to espouse your cause for free when you are willing to be a sacrificial lamb to draw attention. If you are unwilling to go through this for the sake of the greater good, or if it seems that no greater good would be served by doing so, modify your behavior. Otherwise continually repeating what you are doing now will attract those who would love to use you as their whipping-boy. Sometimes this is the right way to go; other times it’s simple self destructiveness. It’s up to you.
12: House of Surrender
Be open to doing a fearless moral inventory.
When the Eight of Swords comes up in this position, the details of your motives and inner dialogue will be under scrutiny. As if making a confession, you may need to expose parts of yourself that you usually try to downplay. You have to admit that your self image is to some extent fabricated for yourself and others. Such an experience is painful and humbling, but often illuminates double standards and excuse making that bears correcting. Be grateful this issue came up before the situation became more complicated.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 9:26:07 AM
Question: I did the moral inventory, step 4 of AA, publicly. I put it on blog and emailed it to my friends. I thought I’d proved my loyalty over a long period of time to them. I see myself now as a fallible human and see them as the same. My core values remain and my medium of work is consistent. I just need to continue only at a steadier pace for the long-run. I don’t get why nobody responds to me. I can’t tell if anybody likes me back or wants to work with me. For all I know I'm "the bad smell" that used to follow them around. This I don't need for my self-esteem.

Horoscope Spread
11 Strength
In the Strength Arcanum, the animal nature, so fierce and scary in its primal form, has been tamed and brought to heel, under the direction of our subtler, finer (feminine, interior) self. The will and passion of our untamed nature does not need to be "broken," but refined and brought to consciousness so that all levels of Creation, inner and outer, might come into harmony. The feminine soul-force shows a strength and persuasive power that can induce cooperation from others, stilling disruptive energies and relating the Planes of Being to each other in a cooperative spirit.

1: House of Identity
Let your focus be on advancing your cause.
When the Five of Wands falls in this position, the message is to focus on the goal rather than the struggle. Sometimes it is necessary to push yourself through resistance to make things happen. In order to succeed in a worthy enterprise, one needs to be prepared to deal with obstacles and competitors. Growing a thicker skin helps, as does learning not to take small matters too seriously. You have every reason to feel confident about your ability to succeed at whatever you commit yourself to. You have the power to sustain yourself through this stage.
2: House of Work
Transformation is difficult now; look within for solutions.
The Ten of Wands in this position suggests that this is a time of stability and security, a much needed break from striving and stress. This is good, but at the same time, the situation is somewhat resistant to transformation and progress. Your recent surge of creativity is winding down; resources that once seemed endless can no longer support continuous expansion. The next stage or project has yet to be discovered. It will be found within, not in the external environment. Relax in this moment of stability; don’t distract yourself from an opportunity for greater clarity by trying to stay busy.
3: House of Ideas
Your hard-won wisdom can help protect others from their inexperience or foolishness. Be generous with it.
With the Knight of Cups in this position, distill the essence of what you have learned on your journey, in order to let your wisdom inform the dreams and aspirations of others. Not everyone is able to go through the kind of awesome transformations you have. But you can wring the essence of your experience, and the feelings and insights that came with it, into the grail cup, and share this elixir of knowledge. This multiplies the benefits of your quest, and vindicates the difficulty of your labors, by uplifting everyone. In this way you can also relieve some of the loneliness you suffered while undergoing your trials.
4: House of the Family
Wisdom comes from careful and extensive study.
The Hermit in this position has had a chance to learn about the nature of reality. He or she has been given the tools to apply moral discrimination and prune away false expectations. Such an education empowers you to focus on what is essential to mental and spiritual health. Humbled, you discover your strengths in the school of hard knocks; and you know what you are made of. Your psyche’s foundation derives from ageless wisdom, as well as an abundance of profound guidance still available to you. Some people have to theorize about the right thing to do; the Hermit knows because he has transformed knowledge into experience.
5: House of Magic
You have just been shown an appealingly sensuous style of being.
The Queen of Coins in this position indicates that you are contemplating an experience that showed you a new way to perceive events in your life. You may have also become privy to a new way of being with your personality, your body, your intelligence, your particular point of view and your stance in the world. Someone has just modeled a more abundant, relaxed, trusting and generous style of being. Before this encounter fades from memory, recall as vividly as you can the impact that it made on you so that it may continue to be an inner influence. Let this individual or experience provide you with practical inspiration and a better grasp on what is next in your endeavors. Mine this encounter for all that it’s worth. You have had a precious contact. Let it continue to change you.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Resistance is futile; surrender to the hard lesson.
The Ten of Swords indicates that you are being educated about limits. Don’t spend time looking outside yourself to trace the causes of these events. It doesn’t matter. Just accept that your Greater Self intends this challenge to be an education, correcting that part of you that is under the illusion that you possess control over your life. Now that you are fully conscious of your inability to forestall the inevitable, the right action is to lay down your arms. For now, your power in the situation has come to an end. You are learning that your life is subject to forces much more powerful than your ego. In an ironic way, this dark hour actually provides you evidence that you are not abandoned, though the proof may be coming in the form of a cosmic chastisement. Notice how such a setback can happen without really damaging your will to carry on. This is the wonder of the Ten of Swords — you think events like this would “just kill you”, but you endure, for this too shall pass.
7: House of Relationships
A change in your pursuits will open you in a way that is emotionally gratifying.
The Page of Cups in this position could be starting over again in a new field he or she is excited to be entering, although it could be quite different from any previous area of expertise. This change could make a difference in the quality of both relationships and spiritual life. Because the figure of the Page denotes apprenticeship, it might be seen as both a step backward and a step forward. Compare this to the transition between being a high school senior and a freshman in college — it’s an advancement and demotion at the same time. The Page of Cups is a natural apprentice to the depths of the spiritual and emotional life. As such, the change you make could teach you much about what is essential, what is most important to you and those you care about. Be open to this learning and you will never regret that you achieved it.
8: House of Secrets
When self doubt is banished, positive change can result.
When the Queen of Wands falls in this position, old routines and self doubt get in the way of your potential leadership. This is somewhat ironic, considering that the issues are clear, positive change is clearly needed and you possess the necessary talent. Your unique viewpoint may be the key to what is needed in this situation, but your knee-jerk reflex is to assume that it is unachievable. You know that a change would bring great satisfaction; don’t allow fear and doubt to block the way.
9: House of Visions
You can help yourself heal by serving those whose wounds are fresher than your own. The assistance you give will be returned to you.
The Eight of Cups in this position suggests that you are seeing one of your past traumas repeating in the life of a friend or associate. As the themes and emotions play out around you, it motivates you to reframe your own past experience in a wiser, more mature light. Let the person in pain be your tutor in compassion. Perhaps you can be helpful, nurturing or healing at a time when someone close to you is dealing with great pain. Open your heart without being theatrical or overly dramatic; provide some quiet support. By now being the one to offer assistance, you heal the part of you that felt abandoned or ignored when a similar thing happened to you.
10: House of Reputation
Find the confident and capable inner resources you possess to get the task completed.
When the Emperor is in this position, get in touch with your inner sovereignty, your natural self-possession. Realize that somewhere deep inside you is the memory of royalty. Reach within to find that strain of natural nobility and leadership. These innate qualities will help you better manage your current situation. The Emperor suggests that you are not only willing to be the final authority, you have the necessary abilities. This situation is an opportunity to showcase your competence and skill. Proceed as if you knew just what you were doing. Be bold, have confidence and take care of business.
11: House of the Future
Recognize the part you play in your own setbacks.
With the Three of Swords in this position, it may take a season or two to assimilate the implications of all that has happened, before you can again feel safe to welcome new relationships. Study the pattern of unfortunate events as they unfolded before — review how you drew the situation into your life, how you let yourself be swept along, how you were drawn toward a familiar, inevitable failure. Examine your relationship pattern closely to see how you continue it. Until you fathom your tendency to invite such events into your life, you will not be free of this particular pain. Get ready to study these issues for a while; examining them closely with an eye to your own responsibility.
12: House of Surrender
The strongest and most popular leader is the servant or caretaker of the realm.
When the Ten of Cups is in this position, don’t rest on your laurels and relax into your pleasures until the most minor member of the group is taken care of. Be like the body which tracks every part of itself, and mobilizes to treat the slightest hurt in even the smallest part. This is the sacrifice required of you. You cannot rest easy in the comfort of your accomplishments until all others in your care are provided for. You owe it to them, for without your support group you wouldn’t have been able to achieve what you have. The more you can spread good will, acknowledgment and praise, the more you will be seen as the heroic leader who benefits all.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 9:46:42 AM
Question: The “Hero-word” guarantees me alienating myself from friends. Granted, I’m eccentric but so are my friends. I’m learning to work fewer hours so I eat and sleep; I even watch TV with Peter at night and am getting back to a housework and cooking routine – basic grounding tools. I didn’t get pneumonia from this cold because I’m working at self-care. My only dissatisfaction is my weight-problem – it’s uncomfortable, bad for my health, and keeps the Loser-sticker on my forehead. My mind/heart were tested this week and proved I can remain steady even when I’m most physically weak. I’m ready as long as I have friendship through my pets and can rely on You, Spirit, to keep me from doing stupid stuff.

Horoscope Spread
The Queen of Wands represents the natural manager, an organizational type whose gift it is to create teams and assign tasks, seeing to it that the job runs smoothly and all phases of the operation are keeping up with each other. She'll be sweating in the sun along with her crew, inspiring everybody to keep up and keeping the job fun with her infectious energy.
She is the best kind of supervisor to have, because she is so much like a challenging but encouraging mother, who just knows you have it in you to do your best work under her direction. She believes in her charges, and they work hard to please her. She is not, however, sentimental. Like a good farm wife, she views her crops, her animals, even the people who work for her, as necessary tools for the achievement of her goals. If any aspect is no longer productive or cost-effective, or if it's time to take the lambs to slaughter, she can let them go without a second thought. Do not look to her for sympathy.

1: House of Identity
Cultivate your investments using good timing and skillful management; protect your interests.
The Horseman of Coins in this position portrays you as someone who is responsible, patient, and of practical service. You realize that with right timing and proper attention, wise investments multiply, like a field which has been cultivated. This does not have to do with greed or even the profit motive as we think of it now. Your contribution is like that of the farmer who sows a field of grain for the sake of the entire community. Your service does not stop there, however. The crop must be allowed to grow unmolested by predators or thieves. That’s another reason we need to summon forth the stalwart knight who can be trusted to protect and defend the community and its harvest. This card implies generous usefulness of all types.
2: House of Work
Don’t hesitate to support a team effort that is potentially effective and productive.
When the Four of Wands is in this position, you are being drawn into a circle of creative, stimulating, high energy people. Collectively you are giving birth to an idea, business, product, or endeavor. The effective combination of their energies confirms that the process will be fertile and productive. If you have an opportunity to support, invest in or lend your energy to a team like this, don’t hesitate. The whole is greater than the sum of its parts.
3: House of Ideas
You have the opportunity and position to influence the thinking of those around you.
When the Page of Swords is in this position, sharpen your mind and raise your intellectual and intuitive antennae. Recognize the patterns of thinking affecting those around you. You have an opportunity to influence the assumptions of those who interact with you on a daily basis. By using new vocabulary and presenting new ideas, you can change conditions and help refine or upgrade shared goals. Raise awareness with quiet but steady input from the sidelines. The Page does not draw attention to himself. He positions himself in the world as a servant of powerful people; he or she is often the source for their better thinking. Perhaps at present your greatest strength is your humility.
4: House of the Family
Knowing the value of purposeful work inspires and impassions others.
The Queen of Wands in this position suggests you learned your work ethic from an inspiring, challenging, intelligent individual who took on every project with wholehearted interest. Labor is a common denominator in life, but someone with a larger perspective helps us understand the worth of our work. Having had that kind of role model, you now know how to embody it for others. You develop a morale and enthusiasm that’s infectious and inspiring to others, even in a situation requiring physical exertion.
5: House of Magic
The time of trusting surrender and blissful learning is passing.
The Page of Cups in this position has just emerged from a blissful period of innocence and naiveté. Perhaps you were rudely awakened or just gradually accumulated more perception of the vicissitudes of life. In either case, you cannot continue to respond like the completely open protégé who trusts unconditionally and suspects nothing. That stage is over. Now you must accept a more mature level of wisdom and responsibility. This card’s placement represents the passing of a student phase in your life.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Have such confidence in your strengths and compassion that you could stand in for others less resilient than you.
The Hanged Man in this position suggests that it is part of your soul’s growth to serve as some kind of sacrificial lamb. You should have elected this for special reasons — you knew you were strong enough; it wouldn’t be fatal or cause permanent damage; and in your great compassion you saw that you could help others whose vulnerability or fragility would make this experience too devastating for them.
Like Jesus, you have taken on a difficult challenge out of spiritual charity. You are rewarded in the inner world by the experience of unconditional lovingness and the entirely new worldview such self-sacrifice provides. Although it is fully worth the price one pays, you could probably never explain this to those around you because they think you are just overwhelmed by your suffering. In truth, you are actually earning your stripes in the spirit world. You don’t need or desire sympathy.
7: House of Relationships
Humbly seek out the most trustworthy advisors and allies you can find.
The Four of Coins in this position suggests that something of great value will soon be given to you. This situation points to the classic dilemma of an heir whose wealthy parents die before he or she is fully mature. Sometimes no will or sensible handlers can save such an heir from making bad investments and stupid mistakes. Although it may feel awkward, your best bet is to be humble and seek out the most trustworthy advisors and allies you can find. Let them tutor you so you can prepare yourself for this advantage when it comes.
8: House of Secrets
Attempts to regain control are not only disabling, they will ultimately prove fruitless.
When the Five of Swords falls in this position, it suggests that you devote too much of your communication skills, ideas and mental pictures to the negative side of circumstances. You are hyper aware of what could go wrong, what kind of problems could happen, how you might lose face, ways you could lose power or dominance. You tend toward worry and stress while rehearsing or reliving conversations. As long as you are expending energy trying to regain control of the situation, you can no longer respond appropriately to what it is truly offering you. You don’t have control over the outcome anyway, so surrender attachment and examine your motives for trying to manipulate it. Examine how “I, me, mine” thinking is undermining the naturalness and harmony in this situation.
9: House of Visions
Take advantage of spiritual role models.
The High Priestess in this position points to a mentor or role model who exemplifies true objectivity. This person is skilled in the high art of intuitive receptivity. Like an undeveloped film, the High Priestess can enter a situation and take an impression of all it contains without needing to project personality into it. Such cultivated neutrality and openness to the bigger picture is the foundation of wisdom. Study this person. Develop clarity and humility in your own personality, and use these qualities to up-level all your interactions and relationships.
10: House of Reputation
Success is won by perseverance; be resolute in the use of your time and energy.
The Seven of Coins in this position would have you focus on the long run: look beyond this week or this month. This card exemplifies the magic of compound interest. You’ll have much better results with slow and steady investment of time, energy and labor than you would generate by trying to win the lottery. The path to success is perseverance. Glamorous or flashy moves cannot take the place of consistent steps in the right direction. If you don’t understand this, perhaps you are moving in the wrong direction or are not motivated strongly enough.
11: House of the Future
Your need to be free will eventually overcome your attachment to comfort.
The Nine of Swords in this position suggests that if you can respond to the promise of freedom within this arduous passage, you will be able to win your way out of a situation that is rapidly becoming too confining. This kind of situation can turn an ordinary person into a warrior. Compare it to the shock of immersion into the turbulent waters of a cold stream after soaking in a warm bathtub of predictability. Change may require the sudden pruning of entangling and unrewarding relationships. Although there is potential tragedy and pathos in your situation, when the old gratifications are no longer available, the nostalgia will eventually diminish too, leaving you open for new fulfillment. The coming time requires a new approach — one that is more self sufficient, self directed and self-willed, with less dependence on others.
12: House of Surrender
Resist the temptation to worry when situations require considerable faith and adaptability.
The Two of Coins in this position requires willingness to juggle opposing obligations or commitments. Situations of great uncertainty require considerable faith and adaptability. Keep an open mind; resist the temptation to worry. If it weren’t for people like you there would be no grease on the wheels, and the whole system would lock up. Keep up the good work.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 10:19:01 AM
Question: I hoped to do something with the work I did on trauma. I collected enough for a website before 9-11 but I shelved it after that as I thought trauma therapy would be perfected – obviously not. The resources for understanding and treating post-trauma stress disorder is now extensive. It’s obvious most of us have fear habits that cripple us, sabotage meaningful work and diminish quality of life.
Now that I’ve gained some significant amount of distance from my Past and I rarely relate to victim-mentality any more, I thought about it but in my opinion it’s still categorized “Taboo”, “Occult” when personalized...advice?

Horoscope Spread
5 The Hierophant
The Hierophant teaches practical applications from the book of Natural Law. He reveals the secrets hidden in everyday matter, the cycles of moons and tides, the links between the body and the cosmos. Because monasteries were the only places a person could learn to read and write in the Middle Ages, the Hierophant is the one to whom a student would petition for entry, and he sets the curriculum for the neophyte's course of study. With right raised hand in the attitude of blessing, s/he links herself with the ancient lineages of Melchezidek, first initiator of the Hebrew priestly tradition, and passes on the lineage teachings. All self-generated shamans of any tradition inherently draw on this archetype.

1: House of Identity
You appreciate the benefits that come from confidence and authority.
The King of Wands in this position shows you projecting an authority and security that can rightfully inspire pride and appreciation. This is your time to shine and for your accomplishments to be recognized. He is sometimes interpreted as autocratic, however, so strive to be objective and open-minded to avoid overly offending others who may feel jealous. Remember that everything is cyclical and passes through its own seasons: a sense of serenity felt at the top is no guarantee that the high ranking position will last. Stay balanced and use power wisely to set a good example for those who will follow in your footsteps.
2: House of Work
Because you are not able to overcome forces larger than yourself, cease resisting.
When the Ten of Swords is in this position, the anticipated project or goal seems to be going down Normalcy has been disrupted, there is a certain amount of chaos. This situation is not necessarily fatal to you or your loved ones, but it is a radical shakeup of the prevailing order. You are too small to repair the situation — forces larger than you dominate right now. Since you can’t control the outcome, don’t spend energy trying. Perhaps all you can do is hunker down, cover your head and wait it out. Rely on the good sense Nature gave you and save any remaining energy for starting over later. Know when to cut your losses and detach yourself from circumstances, so you don’t go down with the ship.
3: House of Ideas
Get in touch with your deepest passions and instinct, so they can be channeled to benefit everyone.
The Devil card in this position challenges you to feel your desire, passion or attraction fully, but to unleash that powerful force only for the greatest good. Be in touch with your vital force, its passionate energy and urges, but don’t lose your head. These powerfully transformative times demand that we learn to handle unpredictable and unimagined experiences with poise. That can’t be done if you fall into judgment, unbridled lust or any other form of emotional or physical addiction. If you can participate in this arousing situation without completely losing your composure, you will be of great value to your friends, family and community. You have some powerful energy within you. Let it express, but channel that expression for good.
4: House of the Family
There is nothing so chaotic or overwhelming that you can’t recover.
The Tower in this position suggests that you have experienced a direct hit in this lifetime. Now it holds no terror for you; you know you can handle intense energy and sudden changes. Your resilience has been proven; you know how to pull yourself together after an explosion. The knowledge that you can hold up under duress gives you courage and optimism. Now you can serve as a guide or support for others who are less confident or experienced.
5: House of Magic
The time for proving yourself has passed; be proud of how well you performed.
With the Eight of Swords in this position, be relieved that the worst is over. The difficult parts of the path have been traversed. Now you can rest, reassemble your energy and think about how well you did under the circumstances. Maybe you discovered that you are quite good at navigating tricky situations. Your communications skills and intellectual acuity have been tempered in the process. Now you can relax, knowing the influence of critical voices is diminishing.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Your high standards make you an excellent role model.
When the Eight of Coins is in this position, stop and admire your achievements. Through persistent effort at maintaining the highest standards of excellence, you have become a role model to others who want to follow in your footsteps. Your personal imprint and style will be recognized and acknowledged. Your refinements and improvements will be honored and duplicated for years to come. Whether this was intentional or a byproduct of your single mindedness, you have established a hallmark. All you need to do now is keep doing what you do best.
7: House of Relationships
A vision has absorbed you; as you emerge from your preoccupation, it’s clear that you and your work are highly respected.
With the Three of Coins in this position, you may be coming out of obscurity. You have been so absorbed in your vision that you have forgotten how many fans you really have, how many people there are who respect you and wish you well. In fact, you may find yourself receiving invitations to join more illustrious company as you move up the rungs of the professional and financial ladder. This is more than just an accident. It’s also more than just your brilliance being recognized; your work is meeting their needs. A spotlight may shine on your genius and ability to inspire others, and your creative work will flourish with daring and original ideas.
8: House of Secrets
There’s more to be gained from postponing or sharing the workload than from trying to do it all yourself.
When the Nine of Wands falls in this position, it may be time to admit that you are not irreplaceable. The truth is, no one person can play all the roles on a team and cover all the bases adequately. You may have been the parent of a brilliant idea, plan or project, but if you aren’t able to share the responsibilities and the rewards, you may be prevented from achieving anything at all. Before it’s too late, call in some competent people, turn things over to them, take some time out and regain your objectivity. You can gain more from taking some rest and learning how to trust than you could possibly have produced by trying to do everything yourself.
9: House of Visions
Loving support is available to you now; be open to receiving it while you can.
The Queen of Cups in this position points to someone, or a group of people, who are willing to provide you with empathy and understanding, the nurturing sort of kindness we generally associate with a loving parent. The Queen of Cups energy has the ability to intuit what your issues or pains are and help you pinpoint the distress or real needs. She will gently put her hand right where it hurts, help you understand and heal the pain. She’s a great one for emotional processing and will generously give of her time. Avail yourself of her acceptance, understanding, loving kindness and healing energy while you can. From time to time, we all need to drink from this fountain and she is happy to share it with you now. Enjoy the support while it is available to you, but don’t become permanently dependent upon it.
10: House of Reputation
Give up your agenda and be open to change.
The Fool in this position advises that you lighten up. No advantage will be gained by thinking you are the one who knows, has the power or can direct the flow. Let there be spontaneous developments beyond the realm of logic. Open and receive without question; don’t tinker and tamper and try to manage things. The Fool has no ambition to determine an outcome. Be happy just to be part of the situation. If you like, witness and record what you see and figure it out later. For now, just be in the present and release any demands or expectations.
11: House of the Future
Let communication become an attractor, leading to a commitment that brings people together in a creative, harmonious way.
If there is polarization, create some kind of dialogue. Highlight the potential benefits for everyone, including yourself. Sometimes it is possible that competing interests can be transformed into a team effort — if people can be inspired to combine their special attributes and talents. You have the power. Find the good and praise it. In doing so, you will attract more of it.
12: House of Surrender
Your personal history can provide you strength and wisdom.
The Four of Swords in this position suggests that your future depends on purging or transforming embedded attitudes that could pollute and invade your aspirations. Make your history and lineage into a strength and source of grounding so that it provides you with wisdom and insight. What were previously considered setbacks can now be appreciated as potential talents and special capacities. This transformation is not accomplished without effort. As such, it behooves you to learn to use your mind and imagination as tools, rather than have them filled with negative replays of old dilemmas. Forgive the past. Transforming regret into the power to change will be worth the sacrifice of your old myths. Your future freedom is at stake.

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 6:09:16 PM
Question: Violence in the home borne if anger and primarily of fear is multigenerational as is the inherent trauma, wounded-ness. It catalyzes self-sabotage, alienation among loved ones and defensiveness leading to mass bloodshed between peoples. If anything this would be "The Original Sin" afflicting Humanity since The Fall. It may take three generations for us to rehabilitate but we have the bio-engineering and trauma therapy. I see us having sustained sufficient long-term, chronically-sustained “shock treatment” – from knowing we could cause nuclear self-annihilation to finding it normal to hear news of ethnic cleansing seeing live-footage of mass burials. The phrase “Weapons of Mass Destruction” has become a butt for jokes any more, we feel that powerless and immobilized to even consider being able to do anything about it. “Media Circus” and “Paparazzi Feeding-frenzy” as related to terrorist bombings crippling London as reported by so many world media networks as believable as winning the lottery. It’s too much information to process as “real”. When we reach our “Rock-Bottom” as horror-addicts doing “the nod” at the TV screen and admit to our powerlessness as individuals and chronic immobility as a collective, then, maybe, will we be ready to consider a quiet world as preferable and after that, think of simplifying our concept of possession, achievement and moral tolerance as a worthy, even necessary discipline.

Horoscope Spread
The Knight of Coins is the most peace loving of the Knights, the overseer of fertility and growth. His period of ascendancy is during the quiet years between conflicts, when everybody can concentrate together on raising the collective standard of living. His horse is usually huge and thickset, more suitable to pulling a plow than riding swiftly into battle. His temperament is easygoing and relaxed, he's moving at the rate of the flow, because he knows that you can't hurry time.
Seeing the bigger picture, like a farmer planning for future decades, he doesn't allow momentary fads or fancies to distract him, and he doesn't take seriously people who do. One can feel his stability and dedication; he is totally responsible and even somewhat predictable when it comes to his projects. He is earthy and gentle, as simple as deep as the soil he tills and the flowers he loves.

1: House of Identity
A positive attitude and strong potential will prime you to achieve a “personal best.”
The Seven of Wands in this position indicates you are getting ready for a moment of triumph. You have trained for it and are at the peak of your potential; you are clearly a winner even if you haven’t yet proved it. With such a positive attitude and obviously strong potentials so carefully cultivated, you are bound to make a strong showing.
2: House of Work
You have been offered the freedom to follow your heart; don’t let the opportunity go by.
When the Nine of Coins is in this position, it means you are supported by an established enterprise that will provide for you while you increase your knowledge and abilities. All that is required in return is for you to thrive and flourish. It’s a great trade! This is an unusual situation — take advantage of it to pursue your interests and develop your talents. But do stay humble. You are benefiting from some larger institution or structure; you don’t want to poison the waters for yourself or others who will come after you. Be receptive to the benefits and the advantage, but make sure you give fair value in return.
3: House of Ideas
Learn to practice leadership by sponsoring progress and innovation rather than by fighting for control.
The King of Wands in this position exposes the fine line between bold leadership and irritating, autocratic bossiness. At times those who would benefit from some helpful management resist it the most, even though their situation could be vastly improved if they were receptive to some direction. If you see the need for a new way of doing things, then you will have to inspire others in that direction without setting off their anti-authority alarms. It’s less important, however, to care about image than to get the job done. Stay centered on the challenge and others will not be tempted to find fault.
4: House of the Family
Familiarity with change makes us unafraid of its liberating power.
The Death card in this position suggests that you have been pruned before. You have come to learn that the process of death and rebirth is highly beneficial in the long run. Even though it is always a challenge, you have learned to not resist the sickle as it sweeps through your field and prepares it for the dormancy of winter. You know how to let go of old attachments and entanglements. You have been stripped down to what is truly essential before and have experienced the freedom of it. For now, hunker down and wait out the dark times. Focus on the benefits of transformation.
5: House of Magic
Keep your own best interests at heart; beware of the temporary comfort of inertia.
With the Nine of Swords in this position, the influence of a painful period is passing. But if you let it ease out of your consciousness, ignoring that it ever happened, you won’t learn how it came about and you’ll be doomed to repeat it. Perhaps you were careless in looking after your own best interests. You may have let yourself get blind-sided, seduced or led out on a limb, perhaps offering trust before it was earned. This is not a random event in your life. You have to analyze how you came to the present situation, so you can prevent it from becoming a repeating pattern in your life.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Card: The Magician
Trust the expansive, curious, clever part of yourself and share it with others.
Stay open to the guidance and inspiration you are receiving. Follow that inner wisdom. You have what it takes to create something that will reverberate far into the future, in a positive and evolutionary way. Let the most idealistic and inventive parts of your nature come to the surface. Cooperate with your inspiration, and you will infect others with your enthusiasm. Let yourself shine!
7: House of Relationships
Go beyond mental images to the truth that lies deep within your heart.
With the Queen of Cups in this position, you are becoming prepared to go deep into your inner storehouse of heart-centered feelings and images and come up with a deeper understanding. Generally, it is necessary to curtail mental activity in order to allow the wisdom of the heart to clearly present itself. This can be accomplished through meditation or skillful counseling. In any case, the near future presents an opportunity to spring free from the limitations of rational thinking and open to the oceanic realm of feelings, so that something deep and true can be revealed. Cooperate with the warm, radiant energy of your heart, and let yourself be blessed by it.
8: House of Secrets
Stay clear of exaggerating the differences between yourself and others; make an effort to find points of common cause and agreement.
The Two of Wands in this position points to the tendency to jump to conclusions based on the most instinctive of responses. It would be to your advantage to be less reactive. Restrain the impulses that tempt you to say or do something you might later regret. Relax and look for the good in the situation.
9: House of Visions
Let those who have gone before you illuminate the way.
The Three of Coins in this position suggests that you call up a role model, living or dead. Reach out to past Masters who represent the evolution of your craft. Study their body of works; stand in their shoes. Then surround yourself with skillful and talented people who embody this spirit of creativity and invention. Let the spirit of the past Masters challenge and provoke you to expand beyond yourself and develop their qualities within yourself. Reach out to these souls and connect with them in mind and heart if you can’t reach them in time and space. Let those who have gone before you show the way.
10: House of Reputation
Make your own decisions; exercise as much independence as you know you can handle.
The Queen of Swords in this position advises that you refrain from remaining dependent on others at this time. Don’t place too much confidence in the promises people have made. Harbor only those ambitions you know you can accomplish yourself. The Queen of Swords doesn’t want to wait to see what others would think, say or do. She knows what she wants, she knows how to get it, and she doesn’t ask permission or even subject herself to much influence. There are times in life when no one can take care of you as well as you can take care of yourself. Leave sentimentality behind; get practical and take action. Make important decisions for yourself because you are the final judge. It’s up to you.
11: House of the Future
Give up the path you have pursued and stop wasting energy. Rebuild bridges to meaningful relationships.
The Five of Cups in this position says that if you continue to follow the course of action you have been pursuing, you will come to realize you’ve wasted quite a bit of energy. This lesson may come at a high cost if you stubbornly drag things out. Consider cutting your losses now, throwing no more good energy after bad, spending no more time defending an irrational position or an unrealistic expectation. Be humble, try to rebuild relationships which have seen some wear and tear. Perhaps it’s time to apologize, trim emotions or modify your behavior so you can attune with others whom you really care about.
12: House of Surrender
The highest response to fulfillment and abundance is to share that golden energy with others.
The Sun in this position requires that you receive with gratitude all the positive energy being directed at you. In the course of experiencing it, be sure to pass it on as unsullied as you received it. Don’t view yourself as superior to or more worthy than others. Follow the example of the sun in this card, beaming forth and shining indiscriminately on all who enter your domain. Don’t hoard the energy that flows toward you.
FOR JOAQUIN

Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 11:38:21 PM
Question: I’m too sick with a cold to go to drum-class today and can’t bear getting pneumonia again but then, I feel powerless to make a difference myself right about now. still, I’m lonely when I don’t go.

Horoscope Spread
The Queen of Swords was traditionally known as the widow, crone, or divorcee, the woman "no man would have." Nowadays we see her as a model of self-sufficiency, independence, and high intellect. She often has extremely high standards due to her subtle sensitivities, which can be perceived by those around her as being critical and hard to please. Her true motive is to refine the world, to upgrade people's understanding so everyone can have the space they need to individuate, to become truly themselves.
She is not interested in conforming, which may be why she has a reputation for "being difficult". She is too intelligent to be confined to the role of housewife or nursemaid, although she is perfectly competent in those areas when she wants to be. She chooses her associations, and her aloneness, to serve her own agenda, and is seldom caught up in dependency relationships, at least not for long. Her critical intelligence is not always comfortable to be around, but she can be counted upon to see through superficialities and put her finger on the truth of the situation.

1: House of Identity
When you act upon a shared vision it will have far reaching effects.
The Four of Wands in this position suggests a group is forming that shares a common vision more complete and with more potential than any vision the individuals had dreamed separately. Synergy is emerging from the group; the benefits of your serious and significant work will be felt not only in your immediate circle but throughout a wider spectrum. This group is the core social unit necessary to produce a successful business, civic project or creative endeavor.
2: House of Work
Celebrate and support youthful innocence as it moves toward a dream, even in the face of more “realistic” viewpoints about the probable outcome.
When the Horseman of Wands is in this position, someone in your environment is being launched into their dream. The situation feels poignant and bittersweet because you see how joyful and important an occasion it is, yet you also see how likely it is that the shiny new armor will soon be dented, the husky horse become tired and bony, and the optimism of youth tempered by a few difficult trials. There is no way you would want to say this, but it is built into the situation. Virginal innocence has not yet met an adversary, and that’s a beautiful thing. It deserves to be celebrated and supported no matter how more seasoned eyes envision the eventual outcome.
3: House of Ideas
Review your recent experiences in the light of who you are becoming; the process will give you fresh energy.
The Ten of Wands in this position requires you to re-evaluate your motivation for continuing to do what you have been doing, because your previous motivations have been exhausted. You took things as far as you could; now you are garnering wisdom from the experience. Try to determine the pattern behind the circumstances that brought you to this point. Examine the past for clues that can tell you what you are being prepared for. Your challenge and opportunity now is to see how your recent experiences will lead to fresh possibilities, new ambitions and an inspiring vision of even greater potential.
4: House of the Family
It has fallen to you to be of assistance to others.
The Six of Coins in this position suggests that the abundance you now have came about in part from someone helping you when you needed support. Now it’s your turn, your karmic responsibility, to see whom you can benefit. Help others bloom so they can become benefactors in their own time and the blessings can be passed on.
5: House of Magic
You are deservedly reaping the goodness you have sown.
The Seven of Cups in this position suggests you recently realized that the flow of your life is not just a lucky accident, synchronicity or random arrangement. No, it is a reflection of your own sincere efforts over time. Note the good feelings about yourself that a realization like this offers, and accept those feelings as a vote of confidence from your own guardian angels. You are being given back all the good you have been putting out to the world. You can’t possibly take advantage of all this good will, but that’s not the point. At least, be assured you are loved.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Although something has been lost, you are enjoined to persevere in your dreams.
When the Five of Cups presents in this position, it represents the spiritual challenge of accepting the partial loss of what you held most dear. It’s important that you not lose enthusiasm for the rest of your aspirations, because they are still within your grasp. You must be a warrior of the heart and spring back from this kind of disappointment. Your Higher Self is hereby giving you a vote of confidence. You have the resilience and clarity of mind to rise above loss and grief. To fully recover from this setback, seize the two un-spilled cups and move forward with the determination you had when you still had all five. If your mission is sacred, your guidance real, and your heart strong, it’s worth carrying on — even if the totality of your envisioned outcome isn’t forthcoming. Don’t lose heart. Stay on the path. It’s not about the quantity of blessing that’s available, it’s the quality.
7: House of Relationships
You are on the verge of fulfilling your grand plan.
With the Ten of Cups in this position, it appears as if the wandering tribe finally found the resting place where it can build and cultivate the land. There is a sense of homecoming and fulfillment. Imagine a gigantic celebration where everyone from elders to children converge, giving and receiving love freely. Together they gleefully catch up on each other’s stories and enjoy the feelings of bondedness they’ve been missing. During this upcoming experience you will feel slightly sentimental as your heart is opened and filled. It’s a time of gratitude and rewards for labors well done.
8: House of Secrets
Don’t withhold from the blessing of oneness.
When the World appears in this position, the only thing that separates you from everything you ever wanted is believing that you are alone. In truth, every molecule of your being, every breath, is in constant communication with the entire universe, the continuity of all being through all time.
If you persist in holding out as a separate individual with just a personal history, a name and a set of attributes, you will never see how connected you really are. Expand your mind and welcome opportunities to merge. Overcome the reflex to hold yourself back. When you are at one with the great world soul, no limits can bind you.
9: House of Visions
Turn to others with whom you can share your experience deeply in order to gain objectivity and comfort.
The Three of Swords in this position suggests that circumstances are isolating you from trusted confidants who know how to really listen to you. Sometimes, especially in families and close-knit groups, the person you usually process your feelings with is the same person with whom there seems to be problems. It is difficult for any of us to reach a healthy view on loss, broken trust and abandonment without assistance from someone. Is there anyone you trust enough to consult with now who is not part of the problem? Find a way to share your experience with someone who possesses some objectivity, who will give you realistic feedback. No one wants to expose their pain to superficial examination, but one or two deep conversations with a person you trust could make a world of difference. There is a needed piece of information you will not arrive at by yourself; a third party mirroring it for you will help you perceive it clearly.
10: House of Reputation
Rouse your ambition and the competitive aspects of your nature to push beyond limits. Launch yourself.
The Seven of Wands in this position tells you that the time for peak performance is now. Even if you feel slightly unprepared, awaken your ambition, think in larger terms, and tweak your competitive nature — so you can push yourself beyond your usual limits. Time and effort spent in preparation will pay off; you can be the one who vaults right over the heads of those who thought they could best you. Move beyond rhetoric and verbal challenges; prove what puts you head and shoulders above the rest by demonstrating it in action.
11: House of the Future
Influence can be marshaled behind the scenes, where one can prepare for a future position of power.
The Page of Swords in this position indicates a potential future as a quiet, surreptitious emissary who links influential people through private channels, monitors their dialogue and facilitates their negotiations. The Page of Swords may look like a pawn, a small time player in the great scheme of things, but the pose serves as his protection. It enables him to slip into territory he otherwise couldn’t enter. His power, which lies in appearing inconsequential, goes unacknowledged and is therefore unchecked. The Page of Swords is the student of his superior, preparing for the day when he can move into the boss’s job. See to it that your moral character, philosophical vision and ability to evaluate right from wrong equals the skill and craft that will be required.
12: House of Surrender
Make a clean break with the past. Embrace the future with all its possibilities.
The Six of Cups in this position requires that you let go of your powerful hold on the past. Put it down, back away, say good-bye. Turn and face change; move forward from a position of assertiveness. Release the emotional attachments that have tied you to the emotional, psychological and psychic vulnerabilities of your past. You cannot “fix” the past — the present is your point of power. Your future is compelling; it has tremendous possibilities, but not if it has to compete with the almost addictive hold the old emotional life can have over you. Do whatever you can to break the spell.

Oct 21 - Tarot Reading

Tarot Reading
Friday, October 21, 2005 at 7:14:39 AM
Spread: Time Line

1: History
Resources of inner guidance and support are available to you at all times.
The King of Cups in this position suggests that you were nurtured and schooled by a benevolent, emotionally and spiritually supportive elder, who taught you by example to be true to your heart. From this personal guru you learned how to develop a reservoir of strength, security and optimism to dip into when the world doesn’t help. The self-support you learned truly blesses you for a lifetime. This is a good time to bring those memories into sharper focus and re-acquaint yourself with the inner, wise, nurturing resources you carry within.
2: Recent Events
The backbone you have shown illustrates the reserves of drive and passion you now possess. This willpower is yours to call upon.
With the Horseman of Swords in this position, a recent experience has shaken you up and drawn out a fierceness and intensity you may have forgotten you had. You found yourself making demands or being irritated; you said things you normally would not have said. It may have just been an impressive display of grit! Scrutinize the situation closely for the model it offers — it would be terrific if you could possess that kind of power and authority without feeling threatened or forced to fight. The experience may well be worth whatever stress it has caused. Taking empowerment from it without becoming over-anxious would be the ideal outcome.
3: The Present
Your intuitive receptivity is your greatest strength.
The High Priestess craves deep communion with Nature and attunement with cosmic law. She wants to be far from the hustle and bustle, the daily traffic of life, so she can meditate. Get your ego out of the way and let your mind become attuned to a more subtle, spiritual view. Seek to divine the principles behind seemingly chaotic events, daily life or society in general. Take some time out. Write in your journal. Sit on a mountain top. Work with your feelings until you become reflective like the smooth calm of still waters at dawn.
4: Near Future
As your dignity, control and cherished self image are stripped away, you are driven into the deeper and more authentic parts of yourself.
The Hanged Man card suggests that one is facing a test on how far he or she has outgrown a victim mentality and helpless, hopeless tendencies. The situation may look bleak while you are going through it, but what you lose from a purging like this are things that never were yours in the first place. You stand to gain a whole new perspective on who you are and why you are here, which will vindicate what you have been through. Others may think you were unfairly scapegoated. In truth, you are rising above the temptation for self pity and are becoming truer to your essential nature. Nothing but good comes of an experience like that, no matter what it feels like at the time.
5: Far Future
A potential alliance should be structured as a relationship of peers.
When the Five of Coins is in this position, a partnership arrangement, relationship or alliance that is forming has potential for growth. You will need to guide that potential, to take necessary steps, but this is the beginning of something that could be profoundly successful. This new alliance should avoid imbalance and concentrate on equality and objectivity.

7:27:37 AM
Idea: my husband had complained to his University about mail we keep getting for someone with the exact same name as his, only with a different middle initial. The university may have phoned our place, thinking it was the other alumnus of the same name. I didn’t wait and left him the message on his cell.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Put convention aside and be empowered by revealing your passionate nature.
The Devil card symbolizes letting those parts of yourself that have been repressed or shamed out of the closet. It represents hidden parts of ourselves, what Jung referred to as “Shadow.” In general, we fear its emergence, but this card is reminding you to face your shadow stuff. Whenever we reveal hidden inner dynamics, we fear we will be seen as ugly, demanding or excessive, even monstrous. We are conditioned to mistrust passionate desires and basic instincts, because we are afraid that we might go too far, slipping into hedonism or addiction. To become a charismatic individual who can make a difference, however, we need to outgrow fearful inhibitions placed upon our personalities and self-expression. In every generation there have been those who push these limits. They may have been demonized in their time, but later generations understood the honesty, courage and healing power of their daring.
2: Situation
You are provided with circumstances that cultivate both the genius and the support necessary to manifest a vision.
When the Three of Coins is in this position, your environment encourages you to blossom, and supports your genius with materials, security and acknowledgment. This is a matrix that includes both the genius and the support group necessary to manifest your vision. Listen carefully to your universe. It matters not whether you are playing the leadership role or are in a supportive position this time around. This card indicates that when your turn comes, support for your success will be there.
3: Challenges
Long labor produces what appears to others to be an effortless result. The price of success is continued exertion.
The Eight of Wands in this position is testing how well you anticipated the tremendous results you are getting from your efforts. When you put yourself in harmony with natural forces, you are furthered by their energetically supportive response. This card, sometimes named “The Garden,” suggests the kind of long labor that bears, at the end of the season, what appears to be a natural cornucopia. The point is that your ambitious vision and devoted labors may give you even better results than you dared dream. Now you have more decisions to make, more details to secure, more work to accomplish — but that is the price of success.
4: Foundation
Reflect on an early role model whose love of life’s potential, pleasure and abundance could animate you.
The Queen of Coins in this position suggests that you grew up with or were exposed in your formative years to a role model of sensual abundance. This person knew how to find pleasure and delight in ordinary things, how to be in the world, how to live in an exuberantly full-bodied way. Recall that person’s earthy wisdom and you will enjoy yourself more, experience less stress and flow more comfortably with the ups and downs of life.
5: Recent Past
Although there is more to be done, be proud of how far you have come and how much you have accomplished.
The Seven of Coins in this position says that you recently had an opportunity to review your labors and evaluate the effectiveness of your efforts. This may have affirmed the approach you have taken. On the other hand, it may have revealed ways you could improve your yield. You may have been surprised to see how different people working with the same idea and tools can create such variable results. In any case, be proud of how far you have come and how well you have done. Obviously, there is more work to do before you can take a rest or a holiday. This card represents the vigilance of the farmer watching over the fields until the crop is harvested and sold, not relaxing until that moment.
6: Higher Power
Accept the acknowledgement you deserve for your accomplishments.
When the Six of Wands falls in this position, it’s time to receive and accept public commendation for your successful accomplishments. Sometimes when we get caught up in the fast pace of our lives, we forget to stop and let some acknowledgement in. In this case, a Higher Power may arrange a way to generate proper recognition for your labors. Soften, relax and accept praise when it comes because you truly deserve it, and it makes others feel good to acknowledge your contributions.
7: Near Future
Don’t defeat yourself by being hasty and jumping to conclusions. Make sure others involved have contributed their insights too.
The Horseman of Swords in this position indicates that factions in your new situation are rapidly polarizing. People are expecting you to take sides and do battle, but don’t let yourself be goaded into other peoples’ conflicts. Ask yourself if you care enough to go through with it. If you aren’t wholeheartedly committed to taking a position, you will regret spending precious energy on a cause for which you have little passion. If this is really your issue, however, prepare yourself well; don’t be reckless. Because the Knight of Swords has a reputation for not clearly examining his motives, he often becomes a victim of his own spontaneity. Don’t allow that to happen. Just because you are being pushed out in front of others doesn’t mean everything depends on you. If you have team members, brainstorm your options and seek solutions. Focus on being an effective team coordinator.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Be forward-looking; concentrate on being progressive and optimistic.
When the Ten of Coins falls in this position, you are tempted to use your power or clout punitively, taking advantage of your position in the hierarchy to discipline others on a lower rung. But this is not an effective way to expend your considerable energies. Try emphasizing the positive, encouraging and rewarding what is evolutionary, proactive and optimistic. By supporting what will work, you won’t have to waste energy penalizing what is negative — it will whither from lack of attention. You will actually create a larger sphere of influence that way and gain more control over the situation.
9: Allies
Sometimes setbacks are blessings in disguise.
The Five of Cups in this position suggests that this upset, disruption of your dream, or loss and dispersion of energy — represented by three of five cups being spilled — is actually a necessary pruning. You overreached what was truly possible in this situation or overcommitted yourself. Once your mistake became apparent, you were freed up to focus on what is actually feasible. Now you can do a superlative job with what is left. This is a blessing in disguise. You will see it in a month or two as you look back on the developments that were in store for you. The hand of fate has done you a favor, lightened your load, cleared the way. You may have been wrestling all night long with what you thought was a devil, only to see by the dawning daylight that it’s an angel, blessing you for sticking it out through the dark night of the soul. Allow some time to go by before you form any opinions.
10: Advice
Look deep within to understand what motivates an occasional tendency to be pessimistic or depressed.
With the Eight of Cups in this position, look inside and recognize the part of you that is still nursing an old grudge from a past injury or trauma. For the most part, your forward-looking self has gotten up and moved along; you are getting on with your life. Part of you, however, is still holding out, resisting the healing, nursing old wounds from painful losses of faith and trust. Scrutinize your current motives, your current attitude. See if you are still being influenced by the part of yourself that resists joy, that dampens your enthusiastic, optimistic impulses. Don’t deny this pessimistic tendency. Understand and accept the hesitation and the fear and come to terms with them. Then you can put some old emotions in their rightful place — out of the way.
11: Long-Term Potential
The most highly evolved intentions produce the best outcome.
The Empress in this position indicates great potential for love, wisdom, harmony and abundance. Do your best to hold to high ideals and promote whatever will support a spirit of cooperation within your extended family or group. If you harken to the most creative part of yourself, you will be blessed by good results and widespread appreciation for your contribution. Continue in this direction and beautiful blessings will shine upon you.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 8:28:03 AM
Question: I rarely get blind-sighted anymore, and I wasn’t smelling any rat on the home-front. When we talked about it I felt I could believe my husband. I haven’t been keeping up with the meta-facts of astrology, numerology and such for anybody. Just talking with You was working better, produces more creative outcomes even when the facts don’t support your guidance. My faith in you is usually reliable.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Summon creativity and resourcefulness from the depths of your being.
The Four of Swords in this position instructs you to seek a quiet place of contemplation, in particular a place linked to your own personal history. In this still, quiet place, meditate letting go of the distractions of the present so you can perceive the larger patterns that shape your life. You are part of a long, unbroken chain of souls that carries forth the wisdom of generations. Take time to examine whether you are successfully preserving what is good, true and beautiful from your lineage and transporting it intact to the future. Accomplishing this will do far more to heal your heart and further your goals than fame or fortune ever could. Make contact with your deep past so you will know how to carry its healthiest and most creative skills successfully forward.
2: Situation
You have it in you to see what needs to be done. Now it’s time to get organized and use your skills as a manager.
When the Queen of Coins is in this position, you are being called upon to help steer the collective enterprise. Call up the manager within you or procure the assistance of someone who is a natural manager. Perceive what needs to be done, in what order it should be administered and with what amount of support or staff. It’s time to be organized and be energetic about it. This effort will not only benefit you personally, but just as importantly, it will support the well being of those you are involved with.
3: Challenges
Wake up and take action; arouse others to foment change as well.
When the Four of Cups is in this position, you are challenged to awaken earlier than others from the collective trance and capture a glimpse of what is truly going on. So, shake off the slumber and get activated; be the harbinger of change. Help others come to attention as well. Of course, only those who have ears to hear and eyes to see will agree the time has come for change. Those few people who wake up early make all the difference in how the situation unfolds when it finally penetrates the collective consciousness. Decide to be ahead of the learning curve compared to those around you.
4: Foundation
A model of unwavering generosity and love provides you a source of strength and wisdom.
The Empress suggests that at some time in your life you were exposed to an inspiring model of female dignity, generosity and love — someone who was steady and supportive. How fortunate you were! This experience taught you to go within and find the source of right action and clear thinking within yourself. Even if this person is no longer available to you, the learning you received can continue to provide a strong, reliable foundation.
5: Recent Past
Focus on creating a success that transforms the quality of your life.
When the Nine of Wands is in this position, a period of taxing demands and exhaustion has just come to a close. Even though something may have been achieved, there was an emotional and physical cost. Analyze recent events, and see if there is a way to do the same thing next time with less struggle and anguish. As we mature, we gain the acumen to work smarter, not harder. Leverage natural means to achieve your goals. Depend less upon raw willpower and in-fighting. Focus on creating a success that produces quality of life changes, so that your energy is liberated for more subtle, aesthetic and elevated pursuits.
6: Higher Power
Having accomplished your endeavor, you have earned your rest; take it wholeheartedly.
When the Ten of Cups comes up in this position, you can put down your burden; you have reached the Promised Land. Spread before you is the fulfillment of the prophesy, the rewards for your labors. This is the place where you can rest, be safe and be taken care of for a while. Celebrate and relax; you are no longer struggling with old limitations and obstacles. Celebrate the impressive advancement you have made. You can be confident that the benefits of this experience will last and not leave you. It’s like a momentary return to Eden, where life is simple, nourishing and joyful. Revel in it, relax and refresh yourself — soon enough the mundane realities will return. Let yourself enjoy this experience of joy fully.
7: Near Future
Prepare for some serious personal work.
With Temperance in this position, it appears that an opportunity will come to speed up your evolution, but don’t expect it to be fun. This process will force you to deal with blocked feelings until you break through the denial and resistance that keeps you stuck. Undertake this process with the courage of a good heart. It will help you free yourself from old resentments, self pity and the secret list of grudges you keep. You deserve the purified consciousness that lies on the other side of this process. Seize the opportunity when it comes along. The benefits will be abundant.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
You have temporarily lost faith in your inner resources and innate wisdom.
When The Strength card appears in this position, you lack confidence in your natural ability to deal with life’s day to day threats and challenges. You are out of touch with your instinctive sense of right action. Neither denying your innate abilities, nor inviting some kind of catastrophic confrontation, you can get back in touch with your powers of charisma, persuasion, and moral example. Don’t denigrate these gentler forms of Strength — often they are more effective than the forceful ones.
9: Allies
The richness of a passionate lifestyle is being modeled for you.
The Devil card in this position suggests that you have a friend, co-worker or mentor who is juicy, lively, uninhibited — a no-holds-barred personality. This is someone who doesn’t live in a world of fear, who fully lives the rich spectrum of feelings, sensitivities, and sensations that life offers. He or she is not ashamed to respond to and interact with a broad spectrum of life forms and possible worldviews. This fully realized, multi-dimensional being models a wholly engaged life. You will benefit by studying the unorthodox but fulfilling ways this person occupies his or her space. See if you can import a little of this kind of charisma into your life.
10: Advice
Resort to the body and its unique wisdom; trust it as your best support for now.
The Moon in this position advises that you trust your instincts and intuitions, body knowledge and experience. Your natural body, connected to all the orders of living things, is wiser, sharper and quicker on the uptake than your cultivated, civilized self. The mind is not prepared for strange oceanic circumstances and it has no game plan. Your intuitive body will support you unerringly if you don’t interfere with or try to control it. The supreme meditation — witnessing everything, doing nothing about it, and letting Nature carry you — is your best option in this situation.
11: Long-Term Potential
You have no idea where this situation will lead: it’s entirely undetermined.
When the Fool is in this position, the potential for something good to happen is great, but what form it will take is completely unpredictable. Unfolding events are breaking all your rules; it’s never happened this way before. Roll with the punches. Don’t be hard on yourself for being unprepared. This is one of those times when you are not an actor but merely a witness. Attempting to control the situation will not keep you safe; trust in the larger forces that govern events. Relax into the flow of change; move with it, not against it.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 9:07:11 AM
Question: In my past I had no trustworthy faculties and lived in circumstances that ensured my demise, never with a future. Faith in God without any logic was my only tool, miracles or “Acts of God” like lightning [Uranus] got me a life despite significant statistical probabilities proving otherwise. If I had trusted my logic and sense I would have died.

Horoscope Spread
The Seven of Swords is the card of mental preparedness, acquired through the use of imagination, the rehearsing and visualizing of desired achievements. A representative phrase might be "the habit of mind of a natural winner." The image most often associated with this card is that of a canny warrior who has infiltrated into the enemy camp on the eve of a fateful battle, checking out their preparations and stealing their swords -- a move guaranteed to demoralize them and undermine their performance in the upcoming confrontation.
Putting it in modern terms, those who draw this card needs to "work smarter, not harder," think long and deep, study all the angles, and put themselves in the shoes of their competition. As a result, they will have such a thorough grasp of the whole situation that there will be no surprises -- and no excuses for anything but success. Advance preparation justifies the optimism of the "natural winner."
1: House of Identity
The inheritor of prestige and influence is also required to meet certain obligations.
With the Ten of Coins in this position, you are the proper inheritor of a family tradition or ethic that makes you an important person in your community. This underlying heritage may have so thoroughly permeated your history and development that you have gone to special lengths to be distinct from it, to avoid becoming swallowed by it. Living up to this legacy can feel like a burden, but it is yours to bear both literally and karmically and it would be wrong to reject it. Obviously this situation provides you with stability and security, but it also creates special obligations. Maturity and sobriety are great allies to a person who has been given so much in terms of money, education, skills or responsibilities.
2: House of Work
A rising tide of opportunity is lifting everyone’s spirits.
When the Three of Wands is in this position a new spirit of excitement and innovation is emerging in your environment. Everyone around you feels the effects, even though it may be temporary. The winds are whipping up; adventure and creativity are in the air. Take advantage of this energy field of inspired optimism.
3: House of Ideas
What brings sorrow may also give rise to feelings of liberation.
With the Nine of Swords in this position, you are facing the paradox that what is cause for grief and sorrow can also produce a great release. Sometimes the catastrophe you fear the worst is actually the end of an impossible situation; this may be one of those times. Consider the possibility that binding obligations to an old situation are now ended. You are now free to choose your own direction, to explore and grow beyond circumstances that used to hold you in. The very fact that this is happening indicates your readiness to make this transition. Somewhere beneath the distress and loss is a reserve of strength that has been building for this kind of opportunity. Point yourself toward healing, release from bondage, and freedom from suffering. Focus on the positive. Collect visions and ideas that will help you rise above feelings of hopelessness.
4: House of the Family
One of your early teachers gave you remarkable insights into the art of loving.
The Queen of Cups in this position suggests that in your formative years you had a close relationship with someone very wise. This person could perceive your loving nature and make sense of mysterious things that you were feeling and experiencing in your life. Serving as a sort of oracle for you, she or he told you what was going on which you couldn’t fully understand. This person may no longer reside in your outer world, but you still have their voice, image or inner viewpoint within yourself. Turn to this inner model of empathy, kindness and generosity. Give yourself the blessing of their wisdom over and over. You will benefit greatly by paying attention to this inner voice.
5: House of Magic
Having gained some official approval, your chances for success have improved.
With the Hierophant in this position, your course of action or your goal has been acknowledged and supported by an institution that has significant social respect and clout. This may have required that you tempered some of your idiosyncrasies. The payoff is that your talents will be understood and assimilated by a broader audience. Be grateful that this opportunity has come to you and try not to be too restless under the yoke of tradition.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Your capacity to inspire and persuade encourages others to contribute their best.
When the Queen of Wands falls in this position, you may be called upon to inspire others and help them understand the meaning and higher benefits of staying on task. You are in the process of learning what it means to be the kind of person others strive to be and are motivated by. You provide a figurehead for the group vision; you design the dream. As a result, your approval alone becomes reward enough to inspire others to put forth necessary effort and achieve their utmost. Use your influence and position to motivate others to rise to their personal best.
7: House of Relationships
The group dynamic is softening into an easy, loving, playful stage that will facilitate future successes.
With the Three of Cups in this position, it appears as if you are coming into a time where you have understanding instead of miscommunication and frustration. Instead of friction and competition, you have mutual support and cooperation. It’s a wonderful feeling, especially after the stress and challenge of the past. Continue to open your heart, keep loving each other, and hold to an optimistic view of the future. A strong affirmation for you is right around the corner; it will have been worth the uncertainty and emotional risks that were taken.
8: House of Secrets
Card: The Magician
Don’t despair; have confidence in your abilities.
When the Magus appears in this position, you are not giving yourself credit for your own innate genius and creativity. Perhaps you take your highest qualities for granted, thinking they are ordinary, that everyone is like this. But things that are going on in your psyche, dream life and imagination are unique. You are a channel for a certain rare kind of energy. If you don’t use it, you and others will miss out. There may be obstacles, but know that there is an important place for you, an important role for you to play. If you can stop talking yourself out of believing that, you will begin to experience it.
9: House of Visions
A break is opening for you now; gather your energy and will in order to move forward.
The Four of Cups in this position suggests that no matter how helpless, undermined or overwhelmed you may have been feeling about your current situation, a positive path of action with support is now emerging. You have an ally who wants to come forward on your behalf. This benefactor is there to provide an opening. If you can summon your energy and follow up on it, your willpower will liberate you. It is necessary, however, that you shake off the hypnotic undertow that has been holding you back, and move quickly to catch up with the tide of events.
Have faith that positive change is possible. Gather your energy to respond enthusiastically to offers of assistance.
10: House of Reputation
Study the responsibilities you have inherited rather than just look at the advantages they represent.
The Four of Coins in this position signifies a young person, naive and pampered, who has been left an estate. Think conscientiously about all those people whom your activities impact, including those whose work and effort went into building what you inherited and those whose welfare depends to any extent upon your right management. What you’ve been given is abundant but not limitless. If you are prudent and responsible, the endowment will grow. But if you are frivolous or foolish, your behavior could undermine both what you have received and the well being of others who are connected to it. This is a test.
11: House of the Future
Give up the path you have pursued and stop wasting energy. Rebuild bridges to meaningful relationships.
The Five of Cups in this position says that if you continue to follow the course of action you have been pursuing, you will come to realize you’ve wasted quite a bit of energy. This lesson may come at a high cost if you stubbornly drag things out. Consider cutting your losses now, throwing no more good energy after bad, spending no more time defending an irrational position or an unrealistic expectation. Be humble and try to rebuild relationships which have seen some wear and tear. Perhaps it’s time to apologize, trim emotions or modify your behavior so you can attune with others whom you really care about.
12: House of Surrender
Don’t hoard your talent for resourcefulness and practical knowledge; those around you can benefit from them.
The Queen of Coins in this position requires that you be willing when necessary to give of your good sense, practical knowledge and resources even when there is no guarantee of exchange or repayment. You possess something that is needed in the world. This is a different responsibility than simply owning a product that some people will pay for because it entertains them or makes their life easy. What you possess and trade in is vital to the well being of people, and for you to withhold it until full payment is received is a karmically wrong move. There are times when you need to bow to circumstances and this is one of them. It would be a mistake not to share from your abundance.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 9:18:53 AM
Question: YHWH told Abraham to kill his first-born son, fundamentally against His laws and Abraham went to do it but when his knife was lifted god intervened to stop him and tell him it was a test of faith he needed to prove, probably more to Abraham. Back in 1994, my husband woke me up and said I was sick and he wanted take me to emergency. I put on my coat and we went. I had no symptoms, the nurse thought we were nuts, but soon my arm swelled. I had flesh-eating disease.

Horoscope Spread
The Eight of Wands often shows a flight of spears or staffs moving through the air in formation, as if a hidden group of archers had let fly all at once. The title of the card will often echo the idea of swiftly unfolding events, whether of intentional design or unpremeditated. There are also versions that emphasize the agricultural cycle, paralleling the yearly crop cycle with the swift growth of children into adults with children of their own.
In each case, the emphasis is on the necessity of change and the challenge of keeping up with it. With the turning of the seasons we are constantly being plunged into precipitous change, and there is no remedy but to live with that in mind. Speed up! Get Busy! Do it now! There is no time to waste!

1: House of Identity
Clarify your motives before you get involved. Determine whether you are acting outside your role or not.
With the Page of Swords in this position, you are playing the part of a canny investigator who is quietly gathering intelligence, listening behind the scenes, perceiving unfolding trends and probabilities. Some call the Page the spy or the watchman. He can also be seen as a messenger. At his best, he faithfully transmits information that has been entrusted to him. The temptation to editorialize and color the message is great, however, making it important when this card appears in this position to know your motives. Know why you are getting involved so deeply. What’s driving your impulse to be part of the dialogue? Is there an urge to act beyond your mandate rather than function as a clear representative of truth? Be certain before you take on this role.
2: House of Work
Refuse to believe that you know anything. Stay fluid.
When the Moon is in this position, the leadership of your world has collapsed and fallen in on itself. Things are not what they seem any more. Everyone seems delusional, claiming their illusion is legitimate and absolute. Battle lines are being drawn. It may be best to slink into the shadows and wait this situation out. If you must navigate this landscape, stay in the light as much as you can, and steer a middle course between extremes. Whatever could possibly happen, will. Stay alert and you can avoid getting sucked into any vortexes.
3: House of Ideas
Wake up and take action; arouse others to foment change as well.
When the Four of Cups is in this position, you are challenged to awaken earlier than others from the collective trance and capture a glimpse of what is truly going on. So, shake off the slumber and get activated; be the harbinger of change. Help others come to attention as well. Of course, only those who have ears to hear and eyes to see will agree the time has come for change. Those few people who wake up early make all the difference in how the situation unfolds when it finally penetrates the collective consciousness. Decide to be ahead of the learning curve compared to those around you.
4: House of the Family
The most emotionally honest people you have known have also been the most independent and self reliant.
The Queen of Swords in this position suggests that somewhere in your past you had an excellent role model available to you who was an assertively self defined person. She spoke her piercing insights in a clear and truthful way, without sparing anyone, not even herself. Having known such a lucid being is very helpful to you. That person’s voice still speaks to your subconscious, reminding you that you know what is going on and what needs to be done. Increase the volume of that internal voice, so that it’s with you on a regular basis, because this is part of your inherited wisdom. This voice is helping you be centered, define your boundaries, get ready to state your truth and assert what you want and need. Apply this quality to your current situation.
5: House of Magic
Keep your own best interests at heart; beware of the temporary comfort of inertia.
With the Nine of Swords in this position, the influence of a painful period is passing. But if you let it ease out of your consciousness, ignoring that it ever happened, you won’t learn how it came about and you’ll be doomed to repeat it. Perhaps you were careless in looking after your own best interests. You may have let yourself get blind-sided, seduced or led out on a limb, perhaps offering trust before it was earned. This is not a random event in your life. You have to analyze how you came to the present situation, so you can prevent it from becoming a repeating pattern in your life.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Give yourself permission to be both judge and jury in this situation.
When the King of Swords comes up in this position, it suggests that your natural wisdom is coming to the fore. You are discovering the sage within yourself. To follow this path requires letting go of habitual reactions. Your Higher Power wants you to realize that you must help raise the collective consciousness to a higher standard of balance and fairness. You can and should wield the Sword of Truth that separates exaggeration and self serving rationalizations from the truth.
7: House of Relationships
As a new path to the future opens up for you, leave conflict behind. Be harmonious.
With the Six of Swords in this position, an imminent opportunity for change will be presenting itself. Seize the chance to let go of your present situation and its conflicts for a realm that is free from problems of the past. Opportunities are opening in new directions; bring the best of your knowledge with you and leave contention behind. Detach your heart and mind from past friction as you put physical distance between yourself and the competitive, conflicting agendas of the past. You can start fresh in new circumstances if you change your way of thinking so as not to remain attached to old problems.
8: House of Secrets
Take responsibility and find solutions rather than dwelling on problems or finding fault.
When the Four of Swords is in this position, you seem to be assigning blame rather than taking responsibility for your part. This “keeping score” behavior builds up resentment against friends and colleagues. As others feel your attitude souring and receive little or no communication about what’s wrong, they withdraw. This initiates a trend toward unhealthy isolation. Resist every temptation to catalogue your resentments or rehash your turbulent feelings. Make an effort to move your attention from the problem to the solution. A more positive train of thought will open more options to you.
9: House of Visions
Withhold action until you consult experienced guides; they can provide profound insight into your options.
The Two of Wands in this position challenges you to discern your full spectrum of choices. Guides are available who can provide realistic insights into your choices, help you evaluate the implications of your options and intercept any hasty decisions. Ask your mentors and elders to assess their lives and the fruits of their labors — not in terms of fame or monetary achievement but on deeper levels. If you don’t get them to reveal information and insights beyond the obvious, you may miss the essential message for you now. This is an important time to make good choices. A small deviation in your path today can create a widening wedge of change in your life tomorrow.
10: House of Reputation
Identify your passions and build your mission around them.
The Five of Wands in this position counsels you to find your natural ambition. Identify what energizes you, what you would fight for, what you are passionate about, even when you’re tired or discouraged, and make that the centerpiece of your mission. This is how you find right livelihood; this is how you finally establish your path of service.
11: House of the Future
Develop your skills in healing and mediation.
With the Knight of Cups in this position, there is a potential to become an effective mediator, one who can bring forth healing. This Knight heals the rift between generations and restores bonds between people whose communication has suffered. He mends the ripped fabric of family relations and missed connections. In his humility, he is the first to recognize his own mistakes, misunderstandings and self-involvement. You have the opportunity to serve well using the wisdom you have gained on your outward journeys. Be a warrior of the open heart and help others to own the strength of their love.
12: House of Surrender
Trust the flow; relax and surrender.
The Queen of Cups in this position requires that you suspend your rational urge to control for a while and allow yourself to be emotionally swept up into the feeling of the moment. Something harmonious and healing is wanting to happen and you should go with this flow. The situation requires you to be calm. Stop trying to control things; just wait until the situation shows you what it requires. Release your attachment to the outcome. When you do so you will go easier on yourself, which will help you to see the larger reason events unfold as they do.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 9:26:05 AM
Question: I was quarantined for 3 weeks, my arm like raw hamburger and weeping fluid with a line to my shoulder showing blood poisoning—systemic infection. a crew of doctors came and left stymied. the nurse told me my IV was their medicine cabinet short of the kitchen sink. some years later I got my first rheumatologist who had worked my floor then. he recognized me, told me I shouldn’t have an arm let alone a life and called me a walking miracle.

Horoscope Spread
The Eight of Wands often shows a flight of spears or staffs moving through the air in formation, as if a hidden group of archers had let fly all at once. The title of the card will often echo the idea of swiftly unfolding events, whether of intentional design or unpremeditated. There are also versions that emphasize the agricultural cycle, paralleling the yearly crop cycle with the swift growth of children into adults with children of their own.
In each case, the emphasis is on the necessity of change and the challenge of keeping up with it. With the turning of the seasons we are constantly being plunged into precipitous change, and there is no remedy but to live with that in mind. Speed up! Get Busy! Do it now! There is no time to waste!

1: House of Identity
True justice balances the scales to serve the greater good.
The Justice card asks you to distinguish between desire and need. Justice carries the scales and sword of legal probity, but in her heart she is attempting to understand what is behind the conflict so she can meet the needs on both sides. Justice is not always meted equally across the board, however. Sometimes one side must be treated differently than the other. The fundamental concept is the greatest good for the greatest number.
2: House of Work
When self interest undermines unity, help others learn how to cooperate in a common cause.
When the Five of Swords is in this position, polarizing forces in your immediate environment are destroying the possibility of teamwork or a group effort. Such forces pit individuals against each other in a way that stops the greater flow of progress, creativity and mutual support. Help those around you see beyond petty divisiveness. This may require challenging them to look for the real causes of their bickering. Is there a chance that too much “I, me, mine” thinking is undermining the teamwork, that self interest is temporarily eroding unity? This is not a favorable trend. If there’s anything you can do to keep it from getting worse, it’s up to you to attempt to do it at this time.
3: House of Ideas
Be prepared to change your point of view; use analytical thinking to see that which you have been overlooking.
The Six of Swords in this position challenges you to examine the technical aspects of your current situation. Logical, rigorous analysis will empower you now, substantially clarifying important issues. When unseen patterns become visible, you will realize with surprise that they were active all along. You have to first reorganize your mind in order to clearly see factors you usually take for granted. Don’t wait for someone else’s solution. Reach deep into yourself and confirm that you have what it takes to figure this out. If you study the situation, you will know just what to do.
4: House of the Family
Refrain from aggravating an old, deep wound; be gentle with yourself.
The Ten of Swords in this position points to a significant loss in your history, an old tragedy which still impacts you. It is occasionally re-stimulated, giving rise to emotional eruptions others cannot understand. As this old, deep, painful theme rumbles and rises within you again, you might wonder how to keep it from interfering with your life now. The answer may be to just be still, rather than reacting or trying to distract yourself in some way. Whatever you decide to do, do it with care, gentleness and compassion for yourself. Tread gently, staying aware of those old wounds. This is the time to focus on being a good parent to your wounded inner child; don’t wait until you are totally drained and desperate.
5: House of Magic
The time of trusting surrender and blissful learning is passing.
The Page of Cups in this position has just emerged from a blissful period of innocence and naiveté. Perhaps you were rudely awakened or just gradually accumulated more perception of the vicissitudes of life. In either case, you cannot continue to respond like the completely open protégé who trusts unconditionally and suspects nothing. That stage is over. Now you must accept a more mature level of wisdom and responsibility. This card’s placement represents the passing of a student phase in your life.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Profound insight gives you a clear sense of self direction.
When the Ace of Swords presents in this position, your Higher Self is blessing you with profoundly penetrating vision. By shifting your point of focus beyond the foreground, you have achieved perspective and long range vision. Like an archer in the woods, you are able to shoot between the trees and hit the bull’s eye. Not only are you gifted with clarity of vision, you also command a panoramic overview at this time. You can see the whole with all its parts and all their interconnections. Be grateful that your connection with your Higher Power is open enough to grant you such perspective, insight and clear sense of direction. In gratitude and humility, ask your greater self for your best course of action. You may already have received the answer.
7: House of Relationships
Prepare for some serious personal work.
With Temperance in this position, it appears that an opportunity will come to speed up your evolution, but don’t expect it to be fun. This process will force you to deal with blocked feelings until you break through the denial and resistance that keeps you stuck. Undertake this process with the courage of a good heart. It will help you free yourself from old resentments, self pity and the secret list of grudges you keep. You deserve the purified consciousness that lies on the other side of this process. Seize the opportunity when it comes along. The benefits will be abundant.
8: House of Secrets
Let go of self-criticism and worry; accept that you are the right person for the job.
The Emperor in this position is suggesting that your inner judge or critic is too severe. Perhaps you let messages of self-criticism and self-doubt play over and over again in your mind. You think you can’t live up to the challenges you are facing. That could be true, but you must understand that it’s irrelevant to the current situation. In truth, no one else could better fulfill a delegation of responsibility or leadership. You are it. No amount of excuses or self deprecation will save you. No matter how the inner critic argues about your unworthiness or un-readiness, you can’t stall any longer. Roll up your sleeves, respond to the challenge and create change. There will be time to judge and worry about perfection after the job is done.
9: House of Visions
Let the shining support of a radiant friend uplift you.
The Sun in this position suggests there is a person in your environment who can look in on your situation and illuminate dark, shadowy corners you have been struggling with. This person can uplift the entire scene with optimism and affirmation. Spend time with this inspiring person or circumstance. Be lifted by his or her contagious energy. Allow it to infect you and help you raise your sights and broaden your horizons.
10: House of Reputation
Think of yourself as someone who can embolden others to refine their skills and talents and use them successfully.
The Six of Coins in this position asks you to think of yourself as a cosmic talent agent, seeking individuals who show a spark or gift and helping them refine their act and upgrade their skills to fit a larger context. The outcome is a peer relationship with a sense of mutual regard and admiration. This is a delicate operation—you have to constantly check your intentions so that you are not expecting something back. In truth what you are doing is paying an old debt to those who mentored you.
11: House of the Future
A coming decision is crucial to your future; imagine where you would like to be and steer the process.
The Two of Wands in this position points out the crucial importance of a coming decision which will affect your life for years to come. It is now necessary to use your keenest insight and most compelling self examination, because you will live with this decision for a long time. Conceptualize your role in the unfolding; imagine where you want to end up and take action to stay on course. You’ve only just started on this journey but your intuition, which you must pay close attention to, already understands the potentials.
12: House of Surrender
Sacrifice some privacy. Showcase your efforts; don’t be shy about taking credit.
The Eight of Coins in this position indicates that it is time to stand up for your work by telling the world about your ideas or displaying your artistry. The only way to convey to the world the value of your efforts is by putting your work into circulation. Now is the time to become visible to those people you have been neglecting to see, under the guise of being too busy working. No doubt your routine will be disturbed, your time of hermitage will be over. You have to embrace the risk of losing some privacy in order to get your works into the hands they were made for.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 9:44:48 AM
Question: When I’m on the wrong track my computer shuts down. I was addressing action from meditation. at times when I go to my brain center to activate it in prayer, Spirit won’t complete shuffling the deck. Then I open my eyes and tell him to use my hands and I stay empty-headed, looking at the tea I’m going to drink and such. the deck goes 100% effortlessly, in a snap.

Horoscope Spread
The Five of Coins is the card of desire and gratification, expressed in classical tradition as flattery, promises, both the seducer and the object of his seduction. There is an undeniable excitement pictured in the attraction of opposites, and we have all had delightful moments of magnetism with a stranger. However, if promises are only spoken to achieve short-term gratification with no intent of follow-through, or the attraction appears as competition to the relationships one should be concentrating on, the long-term cost won't be worth the thrill of the chase.
The implication is that the appearances of a viable relationship does not always bear out, so don’t put anything of real value at risk over this infatuation. And since the suit here is Coins, this is as likely to be related to business as to pleasure. Try to remove glamour from your thinking.

1: House of Identity
Cultivate your investments using good timing and skillful management; protect your interests.
The Horseman of Coins in this position portrays you as someone who is responsible, patient, and of practical service. You realize that with right timing and proper attention, wise investments multiply, like a field which has been cultivated. This does not have to do with greed or even the profit motive as we think of it now. Your contribution is like that of the farmer who sows a field of grain for the sake of the entire community. Your service does not stop there, however. The crop must be allowed to grow unmolested by predators or thieves. That’s another reason we need to summon forth the stalwart knight who can be trusted to protect and defend the community and its harvest. This card implies generous usefulness of all types.
2: House of Work
Because you are not able to overcome forces larger than yourself, cease resisting.
When the Ten of Swords is in this position, the anticipated project or goal seems to be going down Normalcy has been disrupted, there is a certain amount of chaos. This situation is not necessarily fatal to you or your loved ones, but it is a radical shakeup of the prevailing order. You are too small to repair the situation — forces larger than you dominate right now. Since you can’t control the outcome, don’t spend energy trying. Perhaps all you can do is hunker down, cover your head and wait it out. Rely on the good sense Nature gave you and save any remaining energy for starting over later. Know when to cut your losses and detach yourself from circumstances, so you don’t go down with the ship.
3: House of Ideas
You know in your heart you have done what is best for all concerned.
With the Ten of Cups in this position, let yourself relax, knowing your labors are completed. The worst is over and a much improved future lies ahead. You are moving forward to a life very different than the one you inherited. You know that your heroic effort has made a real difference in the way things are now unfolding. Even if you don’t receive all the recognition you have earned, a solid core of self esteem is now your permanent possession. You did the right thing under challenging circumstances; you kept the greater good in mind. Knowing this produces feelings of personal gratification. Now you can lay this situation to rest and learn to live in a totally new way.
4: House of the Family
It has fallen to you to be of assistance to others.
The Six of Coins in this position suggests that the abundance you now have came about in part from someone helping you when you needed support. Now it’s your turn, your karmic responsibility, to see whom you can benefit. Help others bloom so they can become benefactors in their own time and the blessings can be passed on.
5: House of Magic
Having gained some official approval, your chances for success have improved.
With the Hierophant in this position, your course of action or your goal has been acknowledged and supported by an institution that has significant social respect and clout. This may have required that you tempered some of your idiosyncrasies. The payoff is that your talents will be understood and assimilated by a broader audience. Be grateful that this opportunity has come to you and try not to be too restless under the yoke of tradition.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Give yourself permission to be both judge and jury in this situation.
When the King of Swords comes up in this position, it suggests that your natural wisdom is coming to the fore. You are discovering the sage within yourself. To follow this path requires letting go of habitual reactions. Your Higher Power wants you to realize that you must help raise the collective consciousness to a higher standard of balance and fairness. You can and should wield the Sword of Truth that separates exaggeration and self serving rationalizations from the truth.
7: House of Relationships
Be prudent. Concentrate on what is most realistic and practical when it comes to your immediate prospects.
With the Queen of Coins in this position, you will soon have a chance to test your dream against reality. The effort and time you have invested is about to bear magnificent fruit. You are going to find out whether you behave sensibly when there are no external limits on where you spend your energy and money. To maximize what is good about the Queen of Coins, you should immediately focus on what is practical and sensible. Place your funds into sane investments. Otherwise her more exuberant side could take over and your gains will devolve into one long, expensive party.
8: House of Secrets
You forget to direct your optimism toward yourself.
When the Star appears in this position, you may believe that good things never happen to you. In some ways you stand in the way of your natural brightness, goodness and truth. Remember that the same love and service you extend to those around you is also being held for you. Try not to discount or resist your blessings.
9: House of Visions
Show strength by admitting your limitations, then let others turn your excellent start into a success.
The Nine of Wands in this position suggests that the most appropriate action is to accept your limitations, ask for help and turn over the reigns of control to others. As you do so, trust that they can pick up where you left off, make a success of your beginnings and carry the momentum forward maintaining the values you have defined. Your dedication sustains others who are willing to follow in your footsteps. Sometimes it shows strength to admit your weaknesses, and you gain respect rather than lose it. When that opportunity arises, don’t be proud and stubborn; ask for help and seek some peace. Support is available all around you whether you realize it or not.
10: House of Reputation
Hone your communication and negotiation skills so you are at peak effectiveness.
The Horseman of Swords in this position advises you to remain open to conflicting ideas rather than surround yourself with people who agree with you. This knight is most effective when he’s testing his ideas in regular debate. At his best, he knows how to keep the conversation impersonal and humorous so no one’s feelings are hurt or provoked. Practice your negotiation skills so you will be in shape for imminent diplomatic challenges as they arise. A sparring partner could help you learn to control impulsive comments and deflate the urge to make others wrong in order to inflate your own sense of being right.
11: House of the Future
The natural progression of events will bring you into a place of empowerment; your will is not the controlling factor.
With the Six of Cups in this position, if you follow up on the established trend, there is potential to outgrow your previous limitations. Nature itself will push you into a new mode of operation. You don’t have to figure it all out or will yourself into it. The natural flow of these events will eventually release you from feelings of helplessness and emotional vulnerability. You will build back up to a place of strength, self assertiveness and a knowing of your own mind. You are in a situation now where you can make a turnaround and be supported for it. Just follow the trend in good faith.
Position 12: House of Surrender
Give up on trying to be “normal” and relax into your eccentricities.
The Hermit in this position recommends that your unique experiences, the peculiar qualities of consciousness which you move through in a day, are not just the product of a skewed imagination. You are in some ways extra sensitive to the forces which move the weather, roll the tides, and speak through Nature. There is a purpose for your heightened awareness, and you must now determine the right use of these special skills of yours, without concern for the opinions of others. Pursue your studies or embark upon an apprenticeship. Forget about fitting in or even being understood.

Friday, October 21, 2005 at 9:49:38 AM
Question: sometimes I channel by going prayer-mode to access their ’brain’ but more often now I’m told first to channel for someone and then I ’let my hands do the walking on the keyboard’. The Spirit works thru me but almost bypasses me for better results.

Horoscope Spread
18 The Moon
The Moon Arcanum refers to a deep state of sensitivity and imaginative impressionability, developed within a cocoon of deep relaxation. Here we dream and trance, have visions and receive insights, wash in and out with the psychic tides, and experience deep mystical and/or terrifying realities beyond our ordinary senses. The full moon and/or eclipse cycle charted by the Magi (as in some of the earliest Moon images) imply one mechanism that Nature uses to expand consciousness.The variants of the courtly lovers (representing skillful use of the sex force) or the man "sleeping it off" under the tree (use of drugs to alter consciousness) are also traditional avenues for touching into the primal body/mind. Human interest in knowledge of "higher states" propels us to the frontiers of consciousness, where we cannot always control what happens. This Arcanum represents the ultimate test of a soul's integrity, where the barrier is removed between the self and the Unknown, and the drop reenters the Ocean of Being. What transpires next is between the soul and its Maker.

1: House of Identity
Judge well and wisely; you are the one with the final say.
The King of Swords in this position stands for fairness and even handed treatment. He settles disputes, assists in the resolution of conflicts and mediates. Bringing analytical and interrogative skills to bear on whatever the current drama may be, the King of Swords is by consent of his community the impartial adjudicator. He works hard to maintain that reputation and that position. Patient listening and penetrating questions are his signature, and those qualities are just what are presently being asked of you.
2: House of Work
Assess your ambitions and review your alliances so you can personally benefit from new trends arising around you.
When the Six of Wands is in this position, the situation is calling for a charismatic individual who can sweep in, inspire the collective imagination and foment long term change. You may or may not be the one called to present the new movement or project, but you do have an important role to play. If you are careful how you align yourself with the leaders, you and your concerns could be fulfilled by the momentum of the larger movement. Don’t get in the way of this progress.
3: House of Ideas
Changes need to be made steadily but gradually.
Temperance in this position challenges you to gradually phase in changes in lifestyle and outlook, while letting go of old behaviors and thought forms. When we plant new varieties in a garden, we also clean out some of the old. It’s not all accomplished in a day. Healing is a process, not an event. Be patient and persevere. Blend the medicine with careful attention to detail. Focus your will. Repeat the solution. Remember that too much is as bad as too little. Keep things in balance as you slowly and steadily change the composition of your energy from the old to the new.
4: House of the Family
Apply the benefits you have secured for yourself to improving the greater good.
The Nine of Coins in this position suggests that you come from a situation of being valued and supported which gave you the inner permission to seek what pleases and fulfills you. Identify the personal touchstones that help you feel nourished and safe and indulge in them regularly — you will then be more generously disposed toward the needs of others. There really is no conflict between treating yourself well and being in service to the greater good. Enjoy the benefits you have earned for yourself and let your overflow improve the world around you.
5: House of Magic
Compassionate support and generosity have touched your life.
The Empress in this position points to a brush with the Goddess. She is the archetype of compassionate Nature who supports humanity with her wisdom and love. Perhaps you recently felt inspired by some experience of the generosity and healing power of the divine feminine. You were reminded that you are not an orphan, but cherished and protected. Meditate on your relationship to this caring Force. The remembrance that there is love for you will help you face the world with greater confidence.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Your enthusiasm and creative approach are infectious and can inspire others to rise to your level.
When the Page of Coins comes up in this position, you are being recognized as the archetype of “the good student.” You inspire others with your enthusiastic and creative approach to endeavors. Your sense of purpose inspires those around you, stimulating and improving the quality of everyone’s contribution. Let your work be recognized; let it shine. Don’t let shyness or false modesty deprive you of acknowledgment lest you sabotage the recognition you deserve. Understand your contribution for what it is, one piece in the larger scheme of things, and the world will be grateful that you shared.
7: House of Relationships
Surrender the illusion of control and turn the situation over to the capable hands of others.
With the Nine of Wands in this position, no heroic cause is big enough to be worth the damage which will be done to yourself if you don’t take a break. Sometimes that means swallowing your pride and passing the wand of power to someone else, trusting them to carry it and do the right thing. This is not a sign of weakness — even heroes experience exhaustion. For the sake of your well being and that of others around you, it may be necessary to surrender the illusion of control. Turn the situation over to competent others whom you trust, and leave the field, with an abiding faith that it will all be there for you when you return.
8: House of Secrets
Let go of spiritual perfectionism.
When blocked, the High Priestess may be measuring herself against impossible standards. Remember that practically no one in this world is able to live a wholly pure life. It is impossible to completely shield yourself from the influences and confusions of modern society, nor is it spiritually desirable. Pride makes one spiritually useless. Stop trying to be too good. Credit yourself with high intentions but relax what are really egoistic standards.
9: House of Visions
Someone with the power and influence to create change is interested in your abilities.
The Emperor in this position suggests that powerful interests have noticed you and want to take you under their wing. These influential people are positively disposed toward you. They are not only interested in and approve of you, they bring important resources and connections that will help advance your goals. Consider yourself fortunate if the Emperor is looking in on your endeavors. Try not to waste his time and energy. He is capable and energetic, and he is looking for like-minded people to align himself with. Make an effort to bring to the surface similar qualities from within yourself, so you and the Emperor can meet as equals.
10: House of Reputation
Call your friends together to support you, and trust that the results will be just what you need.
The Three of Cups in this position advises that you call in your friends and fully inform them about what’s going on with you. Seek out the cohorts and co-conspirators who will add substance to your ideas with their talent and imagination. Think of this occasion as a barn raising, where everyone working together makes short shrift of a big job. There is something here for everyone to do. Put yourself in the loving hands of your best friends, so that your trust will be well rewarded. The synergy amongst you enhances each individual’s talent and creativity. You will love the results!
11: House of the Future
The seed has been planted and will grow into a powerful force for good.
The Three of Wands in this position signifies that some small start of yours has within it the power to grow into a long term stable enterprise. You are building the ground floor; use innovative drive and foresight to open an avenue of gain and growth that others can follow. Passionate pursuit of your enterprise can coalesce into a mission and a powerful force that will serve many.
12: House of Surrender
Give more even when you think you have nothing left to give.
The Ace of Coins in this position requires that dig deep and come up with one more strong effort, one more attempt to make things work out. Your mission requires perseverance, steadiness and focus. Work toward completion until you see that you have fully discharged your responsibility. Be trustworthy and of good faith even if other people are not performing their part. Make a special effort to do the part that was assigned to you. Down the road, you will be able to see the importance of any sacrifice, any extra effort you are called upon to make at this time.

Oct 21 - I Ching

Consultation on Friday, October 21, 2005 at 10:27 AM
Present: 19 Approach of Spring
Question: we did good work, Spirit!
Spring is approaching. Good times ahead seems inevitable; there is vitality in the air. This is a most auspicious time. Like a snake emerging from hibernation, negative forces are only just beginning to stir, and can be effectively controlled. This is a time of hopeful progress, and must be used to best advantage. When approaching good fortune, conscientious work pays great dividends. A clear road lies ahead.
Act now, for at some point this ripe opportunity for advancement will be reversed. No spring lasts forever. It's always wise to stay alert and note the changing signs of the times.
Spring is always the season of new relationships. In the bounty of good times, new bonds are formed effortlessly. Relationships born in spring can serve well to warm the following autumn and winter.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 1:
When the forces of good begin to prevail, people of influence take notice, and men and women of ability are drawn to the center of action. If you sense such movement, you are well advised to join in. But don't let yourself be swept away by the tide of events.
Future: 07 Organized Discipline
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
The most successful general is not the one that triumphs on the battlefield, but the one able, through strength of discipline and inner power, to triumph without spilling blood. Likewise, in any large organization the key virtues are discipline and conscientiousness. The most effective platoon marches with a single purpose - a dedication to a lofty common goal which is held dear by all. Otherwise, even with an excess of external discipline, unpopular wars are seldom winnable.
Let power be held in check by the acceptance of a common discipline, and submission to a higher authority for the common good. When life is in balance, evil impulses are checked by human decency; parents die before their children; leaders lead and followers follow. If you hold or aspire to a position of leadership, remember that the true leader captures the hearts of the people, and articulates a clear, simple vision which binds them together.
In the realm of government, the relationship between the army and state is critical. Only when the state is economically prosperous can the army be strong. Only when the army is disciplined can the state be protected from disruptive outside forces. For this balance to be preserved, government must be steady, and mild toward its own people. When balancing strong complimentary forces, modesty and generosity at the center can be a magnetic force which keeps the relationships intact. Solidarity among all elements is essential for success at this time.

10:44 AM
Present: 58 Joy
Question: you gave me 7 at 11th hour of my last Saturn Retrograde. Are we ready to do 7 for peaceful life?
A joy that is shared suggests a group of friends playing, or a carefree young girl singing to herself while engaged in her work. Happiness is rising within, and spreading out into the world!
Joy comes into the world through gentle means, but springs from a solid inner base. The power of pure joy should not be underestimated. The enjoyment of learning and discovery, for example, has been the source of much material progress. Accordingly, that which brings joy into the world is a source of considerable power.
If happiness is supported by personal stability, it will in time wear down the stiffest barrier and win over the hardest heart. True joy is a beacon in the world, and though it is indeed rare, its presence is an indication of great good fortune, both now and in the future. How could it be otherwise?
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1: Living a life of quiet, self-contained joy is the height of good fortune. Eat when you are hungry, sleep when you are sleepy, take your pleasures as you will - what could be better?
The second changing line is Line 2: True joy is incompatible with any pleasure which cannot also be fully appreciated and relished the morning after. Take this lesson to heart.
The third changing line is Line 4: When a variety of pleasures abound, it furthers one to be decisive. Failure to act in face of pleasing options is as self-defeating as failure to act in the face of danger. Inner peace is fostered more through a willingness to live life fully, on its own terms, than from an over-developed sense of propriety.
The fourth changing line is Line 5: When a period of joyousness begins to degenerate, problems always arise. However sincere you are, it is possible to become involved with unworthy circumstances or people. Only by recognizing this tendency, and guarding against it, can you avoid pitfalls.

Future: 02 The Receptive
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Great receptivity attracts exceptional results. A natural responsiveness brings about success through support and perseverance, rather than through bold action. Thus, the wise person demonstrates strength like a powerful but gentle mare. This hexagram, consisting of all yin lines, represents a power of the feminine principle no longer honored in our modern world, but such receptivity is most auspicious.
The receptive force is sensual as well as powerful, and it can be missed by too much talk and planning. When spring comes, does the grass "plan" to grow? This is a time to concentrate on realities rather than potentials - with how to respond to a situation rather than how to direct it. The mature mare lets herself be guided by a higher power, and is skilled at graceful acceptance. In a strong spiritual way, her quiet contribution is most effective, and brings success.
Do not be too assertive at this time, for if you try to direct things, you are liable to become confused or alienated. Take your time. Draw strength from carefulness and you will be doubly fortunate. Focus more on feeling than on action. Be broad and deep in your attitudes so that you can accept everything that comes your way with grace and equanimity. Be receptive and spacious like the ocean; let the river of changing developments flow to you. Allow others to take the lead for now. Strive for a pure natural responsiveness that is based on inner strength rather than outer show.

10:50 AM
Present: 33 Retreat
Question: Piscean Age ushered in by one man, Aquarian by all good people?
All worthy goals meet resistance of some kind. When negative forces predominate, a well-timed retreat is necessary in order to stay on the path to success. Tibetans know this.
Strategic retreat is not to be confused with escape or surrender. Successful retreat demands quick and nimble movement - taking up a new position before you are damaged severely by the current situation. You are not admitting defeat by such action, but simply increasing your options, and preserving your resources. Sometimes it is necessary to slow down, let go or move back temporarily in order to develop countermoves for the future. Timing is critical, as is positioning after realignment. Considerations of personal security are critical.
Periods of withdrawal or retreat call for cool-headedness. It is necessary to keep your wits about you. Attend to small details while allowing yourself time to contemplate the whole picture. Be creative; not all progress follows a straight line. Self-confidence is also essential; small setbacks can easily become defeats if we allow ourselves to become mired in self-doubt or self-pity.
Waves of progress are, by their nature, short-lived. Learn to attune yourself to the up-and-down cycles of life. When the wave is behind you, ride it in; when it's not, lie low. Don't fool yourself into thinking that you can "fix" any situation whenever you feel like it. Some things are bigger than you are. Hold your pride in check and you will be better prepared to find creative openings.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 5: If precisely the right moment is selected for retreat, the withdrawal can be effected quickly and smoothly, and with all the proper amenities observed. The key is resolute action - and taking advantage of the element of surprise. Once your mind is made up, move!
The second changing line is Line 6: When all signs point to retreat or resignation, the proper course of action must be followed without regret. Sometimes great issues resolve themselves; in such cases, it doesn't help you to remain attached to futile goals and ambitions. The most successful approach is a cheerful acceptance of fate, and a willingness to proceed along the open road - even if it leads you into unfamiliar realms. If you can leave them smiling, great success.

Future: 62 Attention to Detail
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Ambitious undertakings are not in order now, but attention to small matters brings progress. Such is the case of a person whose resources are meager, but who, through modesty and perseverance, rises to accomplish great things.
The key to success when the small potential dominates the large scene is to avoid pretentious ambitions and grandiose goals. The power of the small is served by slow and steady advancement, and succeeds through an honest awareness of its own limitations, without reservation.
Modesty stemming from recognizing your limitations is a fine quality, but it can be seen as weakness if it is not accompanied by conscientiousness. It is very important, therefore, to understand the demands of your situation, and not to expect success in big things right now. The wise person recognizes the nature of the time. So, know your own role, carefully attend to details and act with humility, and you can achieve success even with few resources.

10:55 AM
Present: 15 Humility
Question: we don't know what to do, only Omniscient has plan - now what?
Humility is often rewarded in human affairs, just as valleys are filled by the erosion of great mountains. It is the way of the world to fill the empty cup. Regardless of your position, humility is a positive and deceptively powerful attribute. If you are in a high position but are still humble, people will be drawn to you and the causes you espouse. If your position is lowly, humility will endear you to those of higher status. True humility is a virtue to which all should aspire.
The most successful people are those who know how to bring each situation into balance by reducing that which is too great, and adding to that which is too little. Such a person craves not power, but balanced and stable relationships. Humility is the virtue which allows you to perceive the balancing force in each situation; humble people are not prey to the many illusions which grow out of self-importance. If humility is not natural to your disposition, make a conscious effort to develop a strain of self-effacing humor.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 3:
There are few sadder sights than that of someone who is dazzled by his or her own fame, beauty or brilliance. Success for such people is usually short-lived, because in order to persevere to the end, some degree of simple humanity is needed to gain the continued support of others. Conversely, there are few more noble achievements in creation, than that of a person who, despite great success, retains his or her humility.
Future: 02 The Receptive
Great receptivity attracts exceptional results. A natural responsiveness brings about success through support and perseverance, rather than through bold action. Thus, the wise person demonstrates strength like a powerful but gentle mare. This hexagram, consisting of all yin lines, represents a power of the feminine principle no longer honored in our modern world, but such receptivity is most auspicious.
The receptive force is sensual as well as powerful, and it can be missed by too much talk and planning. When spring comes, does the grass "plan" to grow? This is a time to concentrate on realities rather than potentials - with how to respond to a situation rather than how to direct it. The mature mare lets herself be guided by a higher power, and is skilled at graceful acceptance. In a strong spiritual way, her quiet contribution is most effective, and brings success.
Do not be too assertive at this time, for if you try to direct things, you are liable to become confused or alienated. Take your time. Draw strength from carefulness and you will be doubly fortunate. Focus more on feeling than on action. Be broad and deep in your attitudes so that you can accept everything that comes your way with grace and equanimity. Be receptive and spacious like the ocean; let the river of changing developments flow to you. Allow others to take the lead for now. Strive for a pure natural responsiveness that is based on inner strength rather than outer show.

10:59 AM
Present: 18 Repairing the Damage
Question: hard to understand 2-yin or teach it or be it - even harder to do every day
Like a hang-over, something has been spoiled and it is time to repair the damage. In the world of human affairs, indulgence and corruption grow like weeds in an untended garden; they must be faced squarely, and rooted out through bold action. Eliminating the carelessness which often leads to corruption is one of the most ennobling of all human enterprises, and can clear the way for fresh, new beginnings.
Correcting the mistakes of the past is not an easy task, especially if one does not recognize the gravity of the situation. The time has come to become lean and efficient. The weeds must be rooted out now, before the whole garden is lost. Fighting decay, sloppiness and corruption is not a simple matter; all steps must be evaluated carefully, and planning must precede action. Resist the temptation to strike out prematurely. Gather strength behind you, and marshall your inner resources, because arresting decay is no simple matter. When you do act, make your strike as precise and clear as the path of the surgeon's knife.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 2:
In attempting to repair difficult situations which involve long-standing relationships, a certain lightness of spirit is called for. Among friends and intimates, a well-timed jest can be an effective lance. Righteous indignation, on the other hand, is more like a crude bomb - and one that is liable to blow up in your face.
Future: 52 Keeping Still
Regular periods of keeping still are an important aspect of personal development and forward motion. The most restful person may not be the one who sleeps twelve hours a day, but the one able to grab catnaps while cruising at 500 miles-per-hour at 35,000 ft. Learning to act when it is time to act, and to keep still when it is time to keep still, is the key to obtaining the peace of mind which helps one stay focused when clear focus is needed.
Consider the spine, which serves as a switchboard for all the nerves of the body which mediate movement. When the spine is kept flexible and healthy through proper rest and relaxation, active movement can always be undertaken without strain. When the spine is held erect in a balanced sitting posture, the inner balancing of meditation can take place.
Treat your innate spark of vitality as if it were a candle in the wind - protecting it as though it were your only light in a dark forest on a moonless night. Avoid external conditions which threaten to snuff out the flame, and be careful not to suffocate it with your own ambitions and worries.
Time out. Relax, take your shoes off, and sit a spell. Let go of thinking. Meditate.

11:05 AM
Present: 01 Creative Power
Question: if we don't take ourselves so seriously can we receive God's word better, listen?
The air is ripe with imagination, inspiration and energy. The dragon is an ancient symbol of an electrically charged, dynamic, arousing force that bodes well for creative initiative. If your goals are in alignment with the greater good, your actions will meet with success, but this can only happen if you assert yourself in a positive way. This is a good time to exercise leadership, because you can be strong now. But be forewarned: success turns to failure when strength turns to arrogance.
Believe in your dreams and persevere, and everything around you will flourish. Call upon creative power and let it work through you. Stay focused on your goals; do not let yourself be distracted, or you may lose the power available to you now. And remember that when taking action, success requires good timing.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

11:07 AM
Present: 48 The Well
Question: Jackpot! How do we do it so Omnipotent make it work?
Throughout various cultures and political systems of the world, the well has served as a universal symbol for that which sustains life and provides a constant, inexhaustible source of nourishment for mankind. For the life-force, in other words.
Like the well, human nature is the same around the world. The passage of time cannot add to its essential dimensions, nor take anything away. Still, just as a well can be deepened to produce clearer, cleaner water, so can we enrich our lives by delving deeply into our essential natures.
Beware of shallow thinking; like a little learning, it can be dangerous. The image of the well suggests that with depth comes clarity. Be patient, and penetrate both problems and your own nature to the core. If you do not lower your bucket to the depths, you're very likely to come up empty. When greater depth is desired, a lessening of speed is often required.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 2:
The water in the well is clear, but it is not being used. This illustrates the situation of a person who possesses talents that are being neglected. Others may begin to neglect you, if you neglect what is best in yourself. At a time such as this, nothing significant can be accomplished, but no specific bad fortune is indicated either.
The second changing line is Line 3:
The well is clean, but is not being used. This is a shame, for like an abandoned well, your abilities are not being recognized - to your own chagrin, and to the detriment of others also. If someone in a high position (or perhaps the highest part of yourself) recognizes your abilities - then great good fortune.
Future: 08 Holding Together
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Holding together brings success. But high-level teamwork is achieved only when a clear goal is shared by the right players on the right team at the right time. A team forms its relationships in a delicate manner; chemistry is brewed in the vat of shared experiences. Late-comers cannot share the same depth of union as earlier members. Whole-hearted commitment is required for team success.
All successful teams have a shared vision and a leader. If a team's leadership is up to the challenge, the team will prosper. In political and business affairs, just as in basketball, it is hard to win without a strong center.
Accept the structure of the team if you wish to receive its benefits - otherwise go off on your own. In holding together with others, cling to your own principles, but be willing to subordinate your personal desires for the good of the group. Perhaps you are contemplating becoming a leader of a group; remember that to become the center of influence binding people together is a considerable challenge and a serious responsibility. Assess yourself carefully first to see if you qualify for this role. If not, it would be better that the group not be formed than for you to lead it without proper preparation.

11:12 AM
Present: 41 Decrease
Question: habit of under-functioning quit if we see spark of Omnipresent in friends, like Communion of Saints?
Increase and decrease are part of the natural cycle of life. As another good book puts it, "To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven." Like a reservoir that is being used to irrigate the fields, learning to accept a decrease in position or material possessions is part of preparing for increase in the future.
We may live in materialistic times, but there is no disgrace in material decrease, particularly if it represents an investment in future gain - even if that gain be in the form of learning or the development of personal character. Likewise, the inner strength that comes from bearing loss can be balanced by a corresponding increase in inner strength and insight. When letting go of material desires leads to a greater simplicity in daily life, good fortune often comes calling.
In nature, the lake evaporates to form the clouds that drop the rain which nurtures the surrounding forest. As the forest grows thick, more rain is captured for the lake. Similarly, an "evaporation" or decrease in one area of your life, may give rise to an eventual increase. A loss of responsibility at work can mean more free time; more free time may generate more career options. A decrease in material possessions can free the spirit and fill the soul.
Be mindful of the lesson of young lovers: even with a minimum of possessions, feelings of the heart can bring an unsurpassed richness to life. The smallest of actions, if sincere, have value. So remain confident, for a time of decrease may actually bode good fortune. Especially if you remain open to that possibility.
Let go of frustration, resistance and regret over whatever may be decreasing at this time. Accept the cycle.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

11:17 AM
Present: 55 Great Abundance
Question: if we throw out our garbage, have room for humility & enthusiasm, wind in trees [15] & dolphin [16]?
A time of abundance comes into full flower when the powers of a leader are at their peak. The situation is like that of the sun at midday - a high noon of clarity, insight and progress. Such peak periods can be brief. Whether this refers to a national cycle, a business boon or a period of personal abundance, it is important to bale your hay while the sun is shining.
During a period of abundance, it benefits one to show benevolence, to share the fruit of one's good fortune. Think of good deeds now as a hedge against times of scarcity in the future. This reading bodes well in the raising of children, and in the nurturing of a healthy family or any close-knit group.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 1:
To usher in an era of abundance, a mixture of energy and vision is required. Often this combination comes from two people uniting in their efforts. This line indicates that the time is right to seek a partner who can help you advance to the top. Great good fortune in finding the right partner.
Future: 62 Attention to Detail
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Ambitious undertakings are not in order now, but attention to small matters brings progress. Such is the case of a person whose resources are meager, but who, through modesty and perseverance, rises to accomplish great things.
The key to success when the small potential dominates the large scene is to avoid pretentious ambitions and grandiose goals. The power of the small is served by slow and steady advancement, and succeeds through an honest awareness of its own limitations, without reservation.
Modesty stemming from recognizing your limitations is a fine quality, but it can be seen as weakness if it is not accompanied by conscientiousness. It is very important, therefore, to understand the demands of your situation, and not to expect success in big things right now. The wise person recognizes the nature of the time. So, know your own role, carefully attend to details and act with humility, and you can achieve success even with few resources.

11:22 AM
Present: 19 Approach of Spring
Question: compassion best abundance & 2 good friends praying means God there to work His plan "Ti + Yo = Manuel"?
Spring is approaching. Good times ahead seems inevitable; there is vitality in the air. This is a most auspicious time. Like a snake emerging from hibernation, negative forces are only just beginning to stir, and can be effectively controlled. This is a time of hopeful progress, and must be used to best advantage. When approaching good fortune, conscientious work pays great dividends. A clear road lies ahead.
Act now, for at some point this ripe opportunity for advancement will be reversed. No spring lasts forever. It's always wise to stay alert and note the changing signs of the times.
Spring is always the season of new relationships. In the bounty of good times, new bonds are formed effortlessly. Relationships born in spring can serve well to warm the following autumn and winter.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 5: The greatest leaders reveal their true power by attracting people of excellent ability, and by allowing these key associates the freedom to exercise their own judgment. The person able to give power to those who can effectively exercise it, gains much more power in return.
The second changing line is Line 6: When a sage returns from seclusion to re-enter the day-to-day world, great good fortune falls on those whom he teaches and helps. Seek objective advice from those you respect, particularly those who have not been caught up in your worldly affairs. Their perceptions may be to provide you with a new window on the world.
Future: 61 Centering in Truth
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Truth involves establishing an aware relationship between your inner core and the circumstances in your life. Centering in truth involves the ability to perceive a fundamental wisdom, reflected within yourself - and also in others.
Truth is transformed into power when you disperse all prejudice and make yourself receptive to the world as it really is. This power can be a remarkable force indeed - yet is rarer than generally imagined. It can be maintained only by cultivating a genuine openness to things as they are - a willingness to see, rather than merely look.
Whenever your inner life is clouded, your influence in the world is under a shadow. If you are fearful, you will be attacked; if you cloak genuine mysteries in dogma, opportunities for new insight will be lost. If you vacillate in upholding your principles, you will be tested. Yet, when you are firm and strong, the power of truth can break through even the most stubborn minds.
In any debate, the power to perceive the truth in the other side's argument is essential to achieving success. It is possible to influence even the most difficult people, or improve the most difficult circumstance, through the power of universal truth - for truth is something to which all things naturally respond. Get in touch with that part of yourself that is aware of this universal force of truth. Cultivate this inner resource, and you will become adept at using it to bind others to a common purpose.

The CD-rom seized like in “not responding” and cut out.
Time: 10/21/2005 11:23 AM
[usually Spirit telling me, "Enough already. Sayonara, baby!"]

I Ching read, Oct 13

Consultation on Thursday, October 13, 2005 at 3:34 AM
Present: 10 Treading Carefully
Question: wrote the mentor I had in mind - regret
People of ability find their way, and make progress even in difficult circumstances. Consider your steps carefully when you are surrounded by powerful forces. Weak and strong forces (or people) can co-exist when the weaker element does not impose upon the stronger, when the weaker maintains good humor and avoids taking bold action. When treading among sleeping tigers - or slippery stones - step gingerly; and don't stumble.In the company of strong, brash people, rushing wildly ahead brings misfortune. Now is not a good time for taking the initiative; rather, try getting by with a little grace and good humor. In the court of a powerful king, the jester often has more power than the prince.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.The first changing line is Line 4:
When you are certain of ultimate success, it doesn't matter if you stomp on the tiger's tail. The most important thing is to take action, when outer circumstances are favorable. But great caution and consideration should have been taken beforehand, so that the outcome is clear before you lower the boom.The second changing line is Line 6:Your work has reached a stage of completion, and it's time to count your winnings. Only by assessing the results of your past efforts, can you know what to expect in the future. The farmer who harvests healthy crops in the fall can safely predict a prosperous winter.
Future: 60 Limits and Connections
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Limits are necessary to give purpose and direction to life. Swimming in a sea of boundless opportunity would soon lead to exhaustion. Winging it alone in a sky of boundless opportunity would lead to being lost. In human affairs, the making of choices, and alliances, implies limitation, for in choosing one path another must be abandoned.One key to a successful life is to select your limits consciously and carefully - to be discriminating in the setting of personal boundaries and knowing when to join in formation. Thrift, for example, often precedes prosperity; just as the letting go of selfish interests often leads to greater personal reward. Only by consciously accepting useful limits can one's energy be channeled to good purpose, and lead to lasting accomplishment.Point yourself toward a middle way, the mean between discipline and freedom of spirit. Limits will come of their own accord; but to be able to consciously select your own affiliations in life - that's knowing how to fly! At the same time, do not go overboard on discipline. Even limitation must be limited, so that in attempting to bring order and direction into your life you do not choke off vital sources of enthusiasm and spontaneity.Similarly, in groups and organizations, the rules and regulations should strike a balance between being too strict and too soft. If too strict, they build frustration among people, and ultimately become destructive. If too lenient, sloppiness becomes acceptable, and energy is soon dissipated. The best path is one which allows for the fulfillment of individual potential, while encouraging self-discipline and focus.

Consultation on Thursday, October 13, 2005 at 3:38 AM
Present: 51 Shock
Question: self-forgiveness blog - nobody respondedOne hears thunder unexpectedly!
First comes fear, then a sharpened, clearer vision. Recall a close brush with danger - a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents first arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock - the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, business failure and so on.The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's inner strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to become immune to fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths, in order to face the world with courage. Courage often means daring to take the unexpected path - to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failure, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension which comes with unexpected success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with "true north", that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 3: The shock of unexpected change can be almost paralyzing. At such a time, your concentration is easily scattered, and your mind can come to resemble the Milky Way. Focus! Focus is what is needed in such situations; start with small details, and gradually rebuild normalcy around you. Normal habits and routines can become an armour which keeps external misfortune from seeping into the soul.
Future: 55 Great Abundance
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:A time of abundance comes into full flower when the powers of a leader are at their peak. The situation is like that of the sun at midday - a high noon of clarity, insight and progress. Such peak periods can be brief. Whether this refers to a national cycle, a business boon or a period of personal abundance, it is important to bale your hay while the sun is shining.During a period of abundance, it benefits one to show benevolence, to share the fruit of one's good fortune. Think of good deeds now as a hedge against times of scarcity in the future. This reading bodes well in the raising of children, and in the nurturing of a healthy family or any close-knit group.

Consultation on Thursday, October 13, 2005 at 3:46 AM
Present: 61 Centering in Truth
Question: step 4, Moral Inventory, took 25 yrs to get my courage, but now feel freedom
Truth involves establishing an aware relationship between your inner core and the circumstances in your life. Centering in truth involves the ability to perceive a fundamental wisdom, reflected within yourself - and also in others.Truth is transformed into power when you disperse all prejudice and make yourself receptive to the world as it really is. This power can be a remarkable force indeed - yet is rarer than generally imagined. It can be maintained only by cultivating a genuine openness to things as they are - a willingness to see, rather than merely look.Whenever your inner life is clouded, your influence in the world is under a shadow. If you are fearful, you will be attacked; if you cloak genuine mysteries in dogma, opportunities for new insight will be lost. If you vacillate in upholding your principles, you will be tested. Yet, when you are firm and strong, the power of truth can break through even the most stubborn minds.In any debate, the power to perceive the truth in the other side's argument is essential to achieving success. It is possible to influence even the most difficult people, or improve the most difficult circumstance, through the power of universal truth - for truth is something to which all things naturally respond. Get in touch with that part of yourself that is aware of this universal force of truth. Cultivate this inner resource, and you will become adept at using it to bind others to a common purpose.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 5:
Great unity is possible when the force of a strong personality can radiate. Such a personality is able to guide through the power of suggestion. Prosperity itself resides in the heart of such a leader, and affects others through his or her very existence. If such a person is true at heart, coming into his circle of influence brings great good fortune.
The second changing line is Line 6:
In the end, words are birds and experience the tree they roost in. The power of inner truth is rooted in the tree. Birds come and go.Future: 19 Approach of SpringThis hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:Spring is approaching. Good times ahead seems inevitable; there is vitality in the air. This is a most auspicious time. Like a snake emerging from hibernation, negative forces are only just beginning to stir, and can be effectively controlled. This is a time of hopeful progress, and must be used to best advantage. When approaching good fortune, conscientious work pays great dividends. A clear road lies ahead.Act now, for at some point this ripe opportunity for advancement will be reversed. No spring lasts forever. It's always wise to stay alert and note the changing signs of the times.Spring is always the season of new relationships. In the bounty of good times, new bonds are formed effortlessly. Relationships born in spring can serve well to warm the following autumn and winter.

Consultation on Thursday, October 13, 2005 at 3:48 AM
Present: 43 Determination
Question: I didn't mean to hit friends in face - i took medicine first
Personal resolution points to a breakthrough, but decisive action is necessary. As long as you diligently hold your ground and ward off negative tendencies or evil influences, the good will prevail.The persistence of negativity is a constant in human affairs; just when it is thought to have been eradicated, up it will pop again, sprouting through some crack in the pavement of decent society. Evil need not take extravagant, forms, such as those exhibited in Nazi Germany. Garden-variety lies and deceit are much more common and persistent, but need to be rooted out just as diligently. One must be resolved against dark forces Ñ whether in one's social or professional life, or in one's own soul. In either case, definite rules must be followed for the struggle to succeed.
The first rule: do not compromise with evil. Negative actions must be identified openly for what they are, and discredited.
The second: one cannot resist negativity on its own terms. New, positive alternatives which lead away from the source of the problem are generally more successful, and appropriate, than to counter negativity with raw power.
The third rule: the means used to counter negativity must be consistent with the end to be achieved. One cannot stop the spreading of lies by spreading more of them.The smallest personal faults and foibles should be watched carefully during a period of determined effort.

The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 5:
Uprooting corruption in high places is a difficult task, and can only be accomplished by a steady and determined effort. Just as weeds often spring back to life after they have been chopped down, so corruption tends to re-emerge even after initial efforts to be rid of it seem to have worked. Only a persevering effort can succeed against deeply rooted negative forces.
Future: 34 Great Vigor
Congratulations! There is strength and vigor in this situation - like a ram who has knocked down a fence to free himself from captivity. This points to a time when a strong force comes into its own and achieves power.When a leader finally comes into power, his or her personal strength usually has peaked. Great strength has been required in climbing to the mountaintop, but once at the summit, the support of others is needed to maintain position. A shift in attitude becomes necessary. Raw strength must be tempered by wisdom; to maintain power, the strong leader must learn to give it away, to share it with others. Only then will his position be secure, for he will not only be the possessor of power, but the source of it as well.If you find yourself in a powerful position, it is especially important to act responsibly and react with care. Power must not be allowed to degenerate into raw force which rides roughshod over everything in its path. A strong sense of responsibility to the collective good is the key to the successful exercise of power. By following what we intuitively know to be for the greater good, we avoid reckless abuses of power which in the end undermine the source of our strength. Arrogance contains the seeds of its own undoing.

''There but for the Grace of God go I''

Consultation on Friday, October 07, 2005 at 11:28 PM
Present: 09 Small Influences
Question: thought I did a great job with your advice, Spirit, but now doubt my motives
A gentle wind gathers the clouds, but still, no rain. Softer influences predominate as the power of the small accumulates. This is a time for smooth and friendly persuasion.
In the ebb and flow of events, there are always "low tides" - times when sweeping action is impossible or inappropriate, but when small matters can be attended to profitably, leading to bigger and better things later on. When the tide is rolling in, by all means, ride the wave; but when it is receding like it is now, focus on little things.
When the time is such that you cannot do much to affect large matters, persuasion and subtle influence can prepare the way for strength in the future. Use your intuition to chart your long-term course, but avoid bold actions for the moment - they are unlikely to work. This is an excellent time to refine existing abilities or develop new talents.
Be wary of others' intentions if they hold the upper hand in a situation. Examine their sources of power, so as to discover subtle influences you may be able to exert upon them.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 3: When a variety of distracting small problems arise, circumstances favor the weak. Just as one untimely flat tire can ruin an entire journey, so the small details of the current situation can mount up to create a huge problem. Beware of celebrating premature victories when small signs are pointing in the other direction.
Future: 61 Centering in Truth
Truth involves establishing an aware relationship between your inner core and the circumstances in your life. Centering in truth involves the ability to perceive a fundamental wisdom, reflected within yourself - and also in others.
Truth is transformed into power when you disperse all prejudice and make yourself receptive to the world as it really is. This power can be a remarkable force indeed - yet is rarer than generally imagined. It can be maintained only by cultivating a genuine openness to things as they are - a willingness to see, rather than merely look.
Whenever your inner life is clouded, your influence in the world is under a shadow. If you are fearful, you will be attacked; if you cloak genuine mysteries in dogma, opportunities for new insight will be lost. If you vacillate in upholding your principles, you will be tested. Yet, when you are firm and strong, the power of truth can break through even the most stubborn minds.
In any debate, the power to perceive the truth in the other side's argument is essential to achieving success. It is possible to influence even the most difficult people, or improve the most difficult circumstance, through the power of universal truth - for truth is something to which all things naturally respond. Get in touch with that part of yourself that is aware of this universal force of truth. Cultivate this inner resource, and you will become adept at using it to bind others to a common purpose.

Consultation on Saturday, October 08, 2005 at 12:15 AM
Present: 33 Retreat
Question: After much thought and self-doubt, I'm going to send this blog-link out anyway
All worthy goals meet resistance of some kind. When negative forces predominate, a well-timed retreat is necessary in order to stay on the path to success. Tibetans know this.
Strategic retreat is not to be confused with escape or surrender. Successful retreat demands quick and nimble movement - taking up a new position before you are damaged severely by the current situation. You are not admitting defeat by such action, but simply increasing your options, and preserving your resources. Sometimes it is necessary to slow down, let go or move back temporarily in order to develop countermoves for the future. Timing is critical, as is positioning after realignment. Considerations of personal security are critical.
Periods of withdrawal or retreat call for cool-headedness. It is necessary to keep your wits about you. Attend to small details while allowing yourself time to contemplate the whole picture. Be creative; not all progress follows a straight line. Self-confidence is also essential; small setbacks can easily become defeats if we allow ourselves to become mired in self-doubt or self-pity.
Waves of progress are, by their nature, short-lived. Learn to attune yourself to the up-and-down cycles of life. When the wave is behind you, ride it in; when it's not, lie low. Don't fool yourself into thinking that you can "fix" any situation whenever you feel like it. Some things are bigger than you are. Hold your pride in check and you will be better prepared to find creative openings.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 4: By gracefully withdrawing from conflict, you may be able to protect yourself from humiliation and the enduring enmity of others. Furthermore, you deprive the opposition of an enemy to confront, which in itself can be a successful strategic move. To gracefully retreat in a heated atmosphere is not easy, however. This can only be achieved by the exercise of superior character. So, rise to the occasion. Proper handling of a setback is a real opportunity for greater progress in the long run.
The second changing line is Line 5: If precisely the right moment is selected for retreat, the withdrawal can be effected quickly and smoothly, and with all the proper amenities observed. The key is resolute action - and taking advantage of the element of surprise. Once your mind is made up, move!
The third changing line is Line 6: When all signs point to retreat or resignation, the proper course of action must be followed without regret. Sometimes great issues resolve themselves; in such cases, it doesn't help you to remain attached to futile goals and ambitions. The most successful approach is a cheerful acceptance of fate, and a willingness to proceed along the open road - even if it leads you into unfamiliar realms. If you can leave them smiling, great success.

Future: 15 Humility
Humility is often rewarded in human affairs, just as valleys are filled by the erosion of great mountains. It is the way of the world to fill the empty cup. Regardless of your position, humility is a positive and deceptively powerful attribute. If you are in a high position but are still humble, people will be drawn to you and the causes you espouse. If your position is lowly, humility will endear you to those of higher status. True humility is a virtue to which all should aspire.
The most successful people are those who know how to bring each situation into balance by reducing that which is too great, and adding to that which is too little. Such a person craves not power, but balanced and stable relationships. Humility is the virtue which allows you to perceive the balancing force in each situation; humble people are not prey to the many illusions which grow out of self-importance. If humility is not natural to your disposition, make a conscious effort to develop a strain of self-effacing humor.

Consultation on Saturday, October 08, 2005 at 12:17 AM
Present: 34 Great Vigor
Question: Well, "There but for the grace of God go I."
Congratulations! There is strength and vigor in this situation - like a ram who has knocked down a fence to free himself from captivity. This points to a time when a strong force comes into its own and achieves power.
When a leader finally comes into power, his or her personal strength usually has peaked. Great strength has been required in climbing to the mountaintop, but once at the summit, the support of others is needed to maintain position. A shift in attitude becomes necessary. Raw strength must be tempered by wisdom; to maintain power, the strong leader must learn to give it away, to share it with others. Only then will his position be secure, for he will not only be the possessor of power, but the source of it as well.
If you find yourself in a powerful position, it is especially important to act responsibly and react with care. Power must not be allowed to degenerate into raw force which rides roughshod over everything in its path. A strong sense of responsibility to the collective good is the key to the successful exercise of power. By following what we intuitively know to be for the greater good, we avoid reckless abuses of power which in the end undermine the source of our strength. Arrogance contains the seeds of its own undoing.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1: Simply possessing great personal vigor does not assure success. If you start your movement from a lowly or weak position, attempting to advance prematurely through forceful efforts will only bring misfortune. Even for those of great strength and ability, progress is achieved step by step.
The second changing line is Line 2: The gates of good fortune are swinging open; the time has come to plunge ahead. In times of great opportunity, beware of premature celebrations. Keep your balance.
The third changing line is Line 4: The resolute application of a strong force brings success. Like the axle of a large wagon, a powerful person's real strength is often hidden inside. By quietly bringing inner strength to the outer world, great achievements become possible.

Future: 15 Humility ...

A Ridiculous Risk OR an Act of True Conviction

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 6:19:10 PM
Question: I was pretty bold sending that amnesty e — maybe an act maybe of passive aggression to friends, family, who knows — plus, I had no idea I could chant so fervently until I had the chance to jam with old friends reunited for the first time in a year and half. I was possessed! Oh, well, I’m so tired of hiding and masking and pretending.

Horoscope Spread
2 The High Priestess
Traditionally, this Arcanum represents Human Wisdom, whether as the Gnostic Papess or Priestess of Isis, the ancient Snake and Bird Goddess, Persephone, or Eve before the "fall" into historical time. For the accused heretics who revered her in the 14th and 15th century, she was the prophecy of the coming Age of the Holy Spirit, female personage within the Christian Trinity. She appears as soon as the Fool decides he wants to develop his innate powers, making a bid to become The Magus. The Priestess or Popess is his first teacher, representing the Inner Life and the method for contacting it, the contemplative study of Nature and the Mysteries.

1: House of Identity
The wise apprentice merges willingly with his new profession.
With the Page of Coins in this position, you are typified as a person who is reinventing her or himself to create a better fit with a chosen profession. The wise apprentice shapes him or herself to the needs of the work and embraces a lifestyle, not just a job description. This requires a certain amount of contemplation and study, not to mention the actual physical experience of getting in there and wrestling with your medium until you become adept at it. As you master the skills and techniques as well as the laws and rules of your trade or profession, you create value in yourself and a niche for yourself in your field.
2: House of Work
No one can stay entirely out of the way of tremendous energy that is seeking release.
When the Tower is in this position, significant energy must be released. Until that happens, no one is safe or secure. It could either be an accident of history or a natural development that had been building over time. At any rate, the charge is now at critical mass; just a little shift in the energy of the situation will cause it to be set loose. Although this may happen around you rather than to you, be aware that the situation is volatile and unstable. Prepare for chaos but don’t take it personally.
3: House of Ideas
Self scrutiny gives you an opportunity to review and reset your standards.
With Justice in this position, turn what could be a potential embarrassment into an opportunity to be honest, learn and grow. Let correction take place. This card is a reminder to steer your ship back to the center channel where you can move with the current, the natural flow. Chastisement is meted out only if you are greedy or, conversely, self-negating. Justice demands an appropriate investment by all participants. This is an excellent opportunity to raise your standards as well as your self esteem.
4: House of the Family
Learn how to overcome suspiciousness of others’ motives.
The Five of Swords in this position suggests you grew up in a environment where approval was scarce, where one person’s receipt of acknowledgment or acceptance meant another was deprived. In an environment deficient of nurturing and support, we can turn out competitive, anxious, untrustworthy and unwilling to share. Even if these tendencies were imprinted in your psyche from early times, they are not your original nature. Because they arose from your conditioning, they can be de-programmed; and when they are, new and better approaches will come out to take their place. It is strongly suggested that you take some time to reframe any negative worldview you may have inherited, so you don’t indulge pessimism and self-centeredness. Use experiences of the past to guide yourself toward higher ground.
5: House of Magic
Despite the chaos surrounding you, a time out has recharged your spirit and renewed your energy.
When the Four of Swords is in this position, you have recently found refreshment and regeneration from a time of meditation and personal retreat. That experience gave you the opportunity to organize your mind and reconfigure your plans and goals. You may have been resistant to the circumstances that gave rise to the quiet time, but the benefits are obvious as you return to action. Perhaps in the future you will be more intentional about creating retreat time when it is needed.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Resistance is futile; surrender to the hard lesson.
The Ten of Swords indicates that you are being educated about limits. Don’t spend time looking outside yourself to trace the causes of these events. It doesn’t matter. Just accept that your Greater Self intends this challenge to be an education, correcting that part of you that is under the illusion that you possess control over your life. Now that you are fully conscious of your inability to forestall the inevitable, the right action is to lay down your arms. For now, your power in the situation has come to an end. You are learning that your life is subject to forces much more powerful than your ego. In an ironic way, this dark hour actually provides you evidence that you are not abandoned, though the proof may be coming in the form of a cosmic chastisement. Notice how such a setback can happen without really damaging your will to carry on. This is the wonder of the Ten of Swords — you think events like this would “just kill you”, but you endure, for this too shall pass.
7: House of Relationships
You are about to be inducted into the society of teachers and healers.
With the Hierophant in this position, it appears that you will soon receive some acknowledgment, certification or approval from experts in your field. You are about to be recognized for your efforts, long term dedication and the passion it has taken to absorb the wisdom of those who came before you. In recognition of your dogged commitment, you are being brought into the inner circle. This is no accident; trust the flow of events as they unfold. You may be needed to help with the transmission of sacred knowledge from the past into the future.
8: House of Secrets
Decide that you have done enough and take some time to rest.
When the Horseman of Coins presents in this position, you have lost the ability to say “No, this is not mine to do.” Ask yourself “Haven’t I done enough already? May I not allow myself to rest?” It is essential for you to ask these questions right now because the answers may affect your health and longevity.
9: House of Visions
Be grateful that you have people on hand who will gladly give you the love and support you need.
The Ace of Cups in this position suggests that you have one or more people around you who love you unconditionally. If you were to ask them to reassure you, they would be happy to take you in and give you every confirmation of their love. They are willing to nurture you and provide an emotional and psychic safety net for you. The abundant expression of affection these treasured people bestow upon you touches you deeply. You would do well to spend quality time with those whose generosity of spirit waters your emotional garden. Remember that you deserve to receive this kind of nourishment.
10: House of Reputation
Study the responsibilities you have inherited rather than just look at the advantages they represent.
The Four of Coins in this position signifies a young person, naive and pampered, who has been left an estate. Think conscientiously about all those people whom your activities impact, including those whose work and effort went into building what you inherited and those whose welfare depends to any extent upon your right management. What you’ve been given is abundant but not limitless. If you are prudent and responsible, the endowment will grow. But if you are frivolous or foolish, your behavior could undermine both what you have received and the well being of others who are connected to it. This is a test.
11: House of the Future
Tremendous potential exists for development and expansion of your objectives, so apply courage and conviction to what you know is the right thing to do.
With the Six of Wands in this position, a focused viewpoint can mobilize a core group, the core group can become a think tank, the think tank an institute and the institute an entire movement. Who knows? The potential for development and expansion is enormous. Results of a project begin to materialize even before you have fully envisioned the conclusion; growing momentum is quickly carrying things forward. The courage, energy and conviction to start something you know will have profound effects can be the source of blessings for the whole world. The key is to be yourself, apply your energy to what you know is right, and stay focused
12: House of Surrender
By coming out of your retreat you can articulate a cooperative world view.
The Five of Wands in this position indicates that if you are willing to go beyond privacy and a strong sense of individualism, you can be a guiding light for other people as they evolve new beliefs, philosophies and practices. Attracting attention to new ideas can stir up and help direct energy away from a self absorbed or complacent world view toward a more cooperative and mutually supportive model. If you choose to play this role, and if you decide to be true to serving the greater good, your personal ambition will also be fulfilled.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 6:39:06 PM
Question: despite the 2 glitches, the largesse of my energy has been eat/sleep/drink/create my forgiveness blog. I did the background work of info-gathering but mostly I was with you to prepare for the actual examining of my past actions and truth about having settled accounts with family and friends. I Ching is strict and honest and I was relieved by the end, healed another time. It seems my ducks are mostly in a row, after all!

Horoscope Spread
The Ace of Wands symbolizes a pivotal act, or fateful step, that will set loose the chain of events leading toward your desired goal. As such, it refers to a birth or new beginning, the inauguration of an endeavor, and the necessary commitment to see a project through. It embodies the aroused Will, one-pointed, aiming at the bulls-eye.

1: House of Identity
You can divine true meaning using your penetrating intuition.
The Queen of Coins in this position indicates that you have come into full possession of your instincts and intuitions. You trust your body’s wisdom, know how to decipher the signs and clues within daily events, and can feel the energies at work to discern the direction in which things are moving. You may be the diviner or oracle for your family or tribe. You can open yourself to a question and decipher the natural response your body/mind gives. You may work with oracle systems like the Tarot, I Ching or Runes — or you may not. The feedback you give others is invariably useful, practical, and educational. You are grounded in the practical world and your hunches are trustworthy; others can bank on them. This card is quite a compliment to you.
2: House of Work
A rising tide of opportunity is lifting everyone’s spirits.
When the Three of Wands is in this position a new spirit of excitement and innovation is emerging in your environment. Everyone around you feels the effects, even though it may be temporary. The winds are whipping up; adventure and creativity are in the air. Take advantage of this energy field of inspired optimism.
3: House of Ideas
Intervene in the face of hostility, summoning the courage others may be lacking.
With the Three of Swords in this position, your unique point of view can help lower the stakes in the current situation and possibly even create a dialogue to help move out of the tension. It takes a brave soul to remain optimistic in the face of the storm. You may be able to help salvage some harmony from a stressful situation. Apparently you are the one available person who has the skill and ability to facilitate better communications. Don’t hold yourself back simply because the situation is tense and frightening. Maybe there is something you can contribute that will smooth things out a bit.
4: House of the Family
A strong moral foundation confers the ability to skillfully discern right from wrong.
The Justice card in this position suggests a moral influence in early life taught you right action and right relationship with your fellow beings. You may have felt the training was severe or restrictive at the time, but it has helped protect you from the excesses of our times. Self-control through moderation, awareness of the collective welfare, the bonds of community, and a sense of personal accountability combine to make a strong inner refuge. By being there for others, you ensure they will be there for you.
5: House of Magic
Accept responsibility for your part in an unfortunate situation and figure out how you can take action to correct it.
With the Five of Swords in this position, a conflict between personal agendas has already happened that will be difficult to undo. The Five of Swords represents the temptation of self-centeredness over collective responsibility. Your best option is to scrutinize and examine how you may have contributed to any small minuends, defensiveness, emotional or verbal hostilities that have arisen. Recent events have highlighted the importance of vigilance over selfishness and divisiveness. Sometimes we have to learn our lessons the hard way. Face the situation by asking how you can improve things from this point forward. Find a way to take personal responsibility for issues that are yours so you can come back into balance and a rediscovered ability to trust. Examine what happened so you will be sure to avoid repetition of past mistakes.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Before you assume the mantle of a new generation, do some background investigation and focus on the big picture.
When the Four of Coins is in this position, your responsibility is to assume the mantle of a new generation. Perhaps what was the domain of your elders or superiors is going to fall on your shoulders. Whether you feel ready for it or not, whether you consider yourself disciplined enough or not, your mentors, guides and teachers are now passing the tools and responsibility on to you. This is a great opportunity for you if you behave sensibly. Study everything, find out what’s already happening at every level of the enterprise and don’t make any unnecessary moves until you have the big picture in focus. It is important that you do your homework so you can step into your maturity at this time of transition.
7: House of Relationships
Go beyond mental images to the truth that lies deep within your heart.
With the Queen of Cups in this position, you are becoming prepared to go deep into your inner storehouse of heart-centered feelings and images and come up with a deeper understanding. Generally, it is necessary to curtail mental activity in order to allow the wisdom of the heart to clearly present itself. This can be accomplished through meditation or skillful counseling. In any case, the near future presents an opportunity to spring free from the limitations of rational thinking and open to the oceanic realm of feelings, so that something deep and true can be revealed. Cooperate with the warm, radiant energy of your heart, and let yourself be blessed by it.
8: House of Secrets
This situation has sprung from the seeds you have sown.
With the Ten of Swords in this position, listen to yourself talking with friends and familiars over a twenty-four hour period. Recognize your primary subject matter, tone and slant, because right now you are eating your words. Every sword in this picture is one of your own pronouncements, having comeback to you in the fullness of time. It’s important to understand that what you speak, what you breathe life into, is what you harvest. Remember, your subconscious hears and believes what you say and produces equivalent results. In this moment, you have a chance to become more conscious and start fresh. Learn to frame your thinking in terms of what you love, are inspired by and are striving toward — rather than what you disagree with, are judging or rejecting. There is nothing inherently wrong with having a setback. This is how we humans learn. The problem arises when you don’t learn from your experience and fail to recover, rebound and move on.
9: House of Visions
Take advantage of spiritual role models.
The High Priestess in this position points to a mentor or role model who exemplifies true objectivity. This person is skilled in the high art of intuitive receptivity. Like an undeveloped film, the High Priestess can enter a situation and take an impression of all it contains without needing to project personality into it. Such cultivated neutrality and openness to the bigger picture is the foundation of wisdom. Study this person. Develop clarity and humility in your own personality, and use these qualities to up-level all your interactions and relationships.
10: House of Reputation
Look at your past as a repository of wisdom to be applied judiciously in the present.
When the Six of Cups is in this position, take a look at what is repetitive or cyclical in your life, what links the present situation to the last such experience. Learn from your own and others’ past experience. You are not obligated to repeat it, nor do you have to grope blindly toward an unknown outcome. The wisdom you derive from your memories will prevent you from making similar mistakes if you’re humble enough to change. Until you commit to action, however, you will continue to drift with the current, still influenced by the past. Distill everything you can from the past, get as much value from it as you can, then use it as motivation for change using new strategies and new angles on these recurring issues. Make the very best use of hindsight.
11: House of the Future
Card: The Magician
What may have felt like a whim or passing fancy has the potential to grow into a creative, expressive and profitable venture.
You are faced with an opportunity to create a whole new area in your life. Something that was lingering in the background has leaped forward and helped you reassess your priorities, hopes and dreams. It feels as if a missing ingredient is emerging that can complete the mix. As you become aware of your interest and enthusiasm, it also dawns on those around you that you may hold the key to this situation. It’s possible you will rethink career opportunities or find a new channel of expression. This could lead to a whole new sense of identity.
12: House of Surrender
This is your chance to give selflessly, so invest some time, energy and resources toward the greater good.
The King of Coins in this position requires that you invest some time, energy and resources in a good cause without expectation of reward. You must give because it is needed, and you are the one who has it to give right now. If you want to think of yourself as an evolved person, it’s time to walk the talk. It’s time to put what you have on the line for the greater good and demonstrate the principles of abundance and prosperity that have worked for you.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 7:12:30 PM
Question: right use of this reconciliation blog

Horoscope Spread
The Queen of Swords was traditionally known as the widow, crone, or divorcee, the woman "no man would have." Nowadays we see her as a model of self-sufficiency, independence, and high intellect. She often has extremely high standards due to her subtle sensitivities, which can be perceived by those around her as being critical and hard to please. Her true motive is to refine the world, to upgrade people's understanding so everyone can have the space they need to individuate, to become truly themselves.
She is not interested in conforming, which may be why she has a reputation for "being difficult". She is too intelligent to be confined to the role of housewife or nursemaid, although she is perfectly competent in those areas when she wants to be. She chooses her associations, and her aloneness, to serve her own agenda, and is seldom caught up in dependency relationships, at least not for long. Her critical intelligence is not always comfortable to be around, but she can be counted upon to see through superficialities and put her finger on the truth of the situation.

1: House of Identity
The King brings order to the realm. Others feel safe and calm in his presence.
The King of Cups symbolizes the bestowing of blessings that serve like a refuge for your heart — a lap of stability and support. A powerful, quiet presence brings a reassuring sense of order and peace to the situation. The King energy makes it easier to feel optimistic, to have faith in reliable support and to express your feelings with confidence. The King of Cups is the archetype of the strong, kind, and loving father figure. This is a powerful energy that you can call up from within yourself and depend on.
2: House of Work
You have it in you to see what needs to be done. Now it’s time to get organized and use your skills as a manager.
When the Queen of Coins is in this position, you are being called upon to help steer the collective enterprise. Call up the manager within you or procure the assistance of someone who is a natural manager. Perceive what needs to be done, in what order it should be administered and with what amount of support or staff. It’s time to be organized and be energetic about it. This effort will not only benefit you personally, but just as importantly, it will support the well being of those you are involved with.
3: House of Ideas
Do your homework. Gain a thorough and deep understanding of your situation and devise a workable plan to see it through.
With the Horseman of Coins in this position, you are being asked to go to the roots of things. So, start from the beginning and gain some experience to match your intellectual grasp of the situation. Temper whatever power you possess with patience and sensitivity to detail. It would be wise to steep yourself in the traditions of your field of endeavor so you can tap the spirit and ideas of your predecessors as well as their source materials. In this way you will not stray far from the truth, the substantial reality which supports your vision, and your greater goal. Too many people have a big dream and move immediately into action with no research, understanding, game plan or skills. See to all of these things so that your ventures can be successful from the beginning.
4: House of the Family
You’ve known someone who has discovered and is living out her or his purpose.
The Star in this position suggests that you were impressed by someone who established right livelihood and skillful relationships. This is not to imply that this person was given credit by society or was paid well. But he or she showed you what a fulfilled human being is like.
Each of us is born with a theme or spiritual assignment. It ties us to this world until we take care of business and fulfill our mission. You can look for your place in the world with confidence. If you do what you love and work at your dream, you will bring about the conditions you need for completion.
5: House of Magic
Unanticipated transformations have come with changes you purposefully sought out.
With the Chariot in this position, you may be recovering from a period of sweeping changes in your normal routine. Unconstrained energy that was liberating and exciting influenced you profoundly. This is the kind of energy that compels people to cut cords and move on from things they once held sacred. It can be a wonderful opportunity to free yourself up and experiment, a chance to explore new territories. It throws you back on your wits, good hunches and instincts. You may find that you are sharper than you gave yourself credit for, more courageous and interesting than you thought. This card in this position points to one interesting adventure you created for yourself. Learn from this experience; let it bolster your self esteem.
6: House of Apprenticeship
Don’t allow your imagination to run away with itself when your higher priority is to learn and be of service.
The Page of Cups in this position has a higher calling than the acting out of personal dreams. Perhaps he or she is called upon to act as a messenger, or to quietly inject an important healing element into an emotionally loaded situation. The work of this Page is often subtle; it emanates a vibration or feeling rather than necessarily doing anything specific. Adopt an attitude of service. Make yourself useful by accommodating to the situation’s most sensitive dimensions. It is not the Page’s role to assert his ego or promote a personal agenda. Considerable humility is required, but it’s a wonderful opportunity to be the eyes and ears of Spirit during a time of pivotal events. Sometimes the servant is the real leader.
7: House of Relationships
Relax knowing that abundance is yours.
With the Ten of Coins in this position, you will finally have the means to take care of your needs. Not everyone gets to be a millionaire in this lifetime, but you will be resting in the security of having enough. No one can promise that this will endure as a permanent condition, but with proper management and long term thinking, you can reasonably aim for an endowment that will continue blessing and bestowing advantage on those who come after.
8: House of Secrets
Attempts to regain control are not only disabling, they will ultimately prove fruitless.
When the Five of Swords falls in this position, it suggests that you devote too much of your communication skills, ideas and mental pictures to the negative side of circumstances. You are hyper aware of what could go wrong, what kind of problems could happen, how you might lose face, ways you could lose power or dominance. You tend toward worry and stress while rehearsing or reliving conversations. As long as you are expending energy trying to regain control of the situation, you can no longer respond appropriately to what it is truly offering you. You don’t have control over the outcome anyway, so surrender attachment and examine your motives for trying to manipulate it. Examine how “I, me, mine” thinking is undermining the naturalness and harmony in this situation.
9: House of Visions
You will move more quickly toward your goal when you involve others who can share your vision.
When the Four of Wands is in this position, you are advised to describe your dream, vision or ideal to everyone who will listen, including that growing network of active, forward looking people you are a part of. Take the pulse of your community. Seek out connections to people who may want to get involved. This gives you the opportunity to see who warms to your ideas, who is ignited by your dreams. You will move toward your goal quickly and more efficiently when you understand the minds of the people you are trying to reach.
10: House of Reputation
There is an important place for rest and recuperation in any endeavor.
When the Nine of Wands is in this position, you have done everything you can to bring a situation to its best conclusion. The full range of possibilities has been exhausted and all the creativity, energy and determination that is available has been put to use. This is a great time to lay down your concerns and enjoy a rest. You can’t bring anything more to the mission if you don’t regenerate and restore the energy you have put into the cause. It is praiseworthy to give all you have for something or someone who means a lot to you, but masochism and martyrdom are ill advised. Take a break; no one can fault you for it now.
11: House of the Future
You have the capacity and will to become the master of a fertile and bountiful endeavor.
When the Eight of Wands is in this position, your persistence has the potential to produce splendid artistry that would reflect not only your ideals but society’s cherished values. You can create an environment in which others can feel their highest, most expansive and optimistic selves. Your level of skill matches your ambition to organize, supervise and accomplish such a large endeavor. Your energy and enthusiasm are contagious and can draw others in to enjoy the benefits.
12: House of Surrender
Proceed swiftly toward the completion of your mission.
The Ten of Wands in this position tells you not to rest until you have fulfilled your mission. Lacking time or leisure to proceed at a comfortable pace, you must hasten with energetic activity at this critical juncture or you risk failure. Remain at your post, vigilant and ready for action. For this final burst of effort, it is skillful to remind yourself why you are called to make this sacrifice. This recollection along with an awareness of what the consequences of failure would be, will make it easier to summon the energy you need for the final push.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:24:29 PM
Question: I should send the blog’s link to the same friends as the amnesty one?
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Summon creativity and resourcefulness from the depths of your being.
The Four of Swords in this position instructs you to seek a quiet place of contemplation, in particular a place linked to your own personal history. In this still, quiet place, meditate letting go of the distractions of the present so you can perceive the larger patterns that shape your life. You are part of a long, unbroken chain of souls that carries forth the wisdom of generations. Take time to examine whether you are successfully preserving what is good, true and beautiful from your lineage and transporting it intact to the future. Accomplishing this will do far more to heal your heart and further your goals than fame or fortune ever could. Make contact with your deep past so you will know how to carry its healthiest and most creative skills successfully forward.
2: Situation
Security, wealth and power are paradoxically undermining their possessor.
When the Four of Coins is in this position, it may be that one who possesses power or resources of some sort lacks the maturity to manage the endowment. At other times, the problem is over-identification with the bounty which can lead to egoism, ostentation, trying to buy friends, or an unnecessary miserliness. At the center of the problem is the owner’s lack of a core sense of self, which would otherwise provide wisdom to know how to use this opportunity. If it’s not you, you could serve as an objective friend or a sounding board to help this person regain balance and natural proportions. If it is you, let this reading perform that corrective role.
3: Challenges
Take care not to let your creative spirit be seduced by too much privilege.
The Ten of Coins in this position challenges you to read between the lines of affluence, privilege and gracious living and keep the human drama clearly in focus. There are many people who, when elevated to a level of relative security and comfort, lose track of their original natures and mistake their circumstances for their true worth. They may be forgetting that with their abundance comes the obligation to build a healthier society. The spirit to keep striving until something great is achieved can die away when a person becomes comfortable. If you want to stay vital, creative and progressive then you must not become seduced by the good life. Don’t let your lack of survival stress soften your drive to improve the world for the “little guy.”
4: Foundation
Resources of inner guidance and support are available to you at all times.
The King of Cups in this position suggests that you were nurtured and schooled by a benevolent, emotionally and spiritually supportive elder, who taught you by example to be true to your heart. From this personal guru you learned how to develop a reservoir of strength, security and optimism to dip into when the world doesn’t help. The self-support you learned truly blesses you for a lifetime. This is a good time to bring those memories into sharper focus and re-acquaint yourself with the inner, wise, nurturing resources you carry within.
5: Recent Past
You have just been shown an appealingly sensuous style of being.
The Queen of Coins in this position indicates that you are contemplating an experience that showed you a new way to perceive events in your life. You may have also become privy to a new way of being with your personality, your body, your intelligence, your particular point of view and your stance in the world. Someone has just modeled a more abundant, relaxed, trusting and generous style of being. Before this encounter fades from memory, recall as vividly as you can the impact that it made on you so that it may continue to be an inner influence. Let this individual or experience provide you with practical inspiration and a better grasp on what is next in your endeavors. Mine this encounter for all that it’s worth. You have had a precious contact. Let it continue to change you.
6: Higher Power
Your work is inspired by a higher source.
When the Three of Coins falls in this position, you are being rewarded and acknowledged for faithful pursuit of your special talents, skills, and gifts. Your work, which will be remembered as visionary, represents the universal principles of beauty and truth. Your inspiration comes not just from your own passion and heartfelt instincts, but is also channeled from a higher source.
7: Near Future
Emphasize self sufficiency. The less dependent you are, the less vulnerable you are.
With the Nine of Swords in this position, this may not be the time to go out on a limb. Reduce your risks and exposure to the negative effects of other people’s choices. This is not to say you should cut all ties. Rather, do what you can to minimize repercussions in your life if someone chooses to go in a direction or undertake an action you are not comfortable with. The emotional overtone of this card points to disappointment over a person, institution or situation you had trusted. You must find the strength in yourself to face down challenges so that you will not be defeated by them. This is a good time to recall your past successes and reinforce your self confidence. The near future will challenge you to keep your attitude flexible and optimistic no matter what happens.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Although you know there is much to praise, you have been indulging in a negative outlook.
When the Seven of Cups falls in this position, it warns you against neglecting to perceive the abundance and opportunities in a universe of expanding potentials. Stop investing in a negative or cynical point of view. There is at least as much evidence of good things as evidence of setbacks and difficulties. Your nervous system is just having a hard time registering the presence of the good, even though your intuition and senses tell you this is a fine and praiseworthy world. It’s time to retune your awareness so it perceives at least an equal amount of the positive. Hopeless, helpless thinking doesn’t fit the reality of current circumstances.
9: Allies
Seek out others who can teach you empathy and mediation skills.
In this position, the Two of Swords suggests that receptivity and humility are especially helpful to you at this time. If these virtues don’t come naturally to you, then seek friends who are open minded and flexible and contemplate those qualities with them. You know at least one person, possibly several, who are masters of empathy. They can help you put yourself in another person’s shoes and envision approaches that benefit everyone. As you role play with them, take turns advocating for both sides of an issue or problem. Learn their harmonizing and balancing mediation skills so you can look through your adversary’s eyes.
10: Advice
Have the serenity of knowing you are succeeding at what you came here to achieve.
The World in this position is giving you permission to do whatever you want. It’s not that you can do no wrong, but that your motivation is so close to what divine nature wants that even if you commit an error, it will be turned to the greater good. No need to stop and check yourself all the time or interrupt your spontaneity with calculation.
Don’t doubt yourself and look for consensus or affirmation from others. Simply dance the dance — express yourself, react naturally, emanate instinct and impulse, and let the chips fall where they may. What matters is divine intention; whether humans approve is less important. If you allow your ego to get inflated, however, you cease to be useful to the greater plan.
11: Long-Term Potential
Stick to your profound quest. It’s well worth the commitment and time it takes.
The Hermit in this position suggests that the line of inquiry you are following has great long term potential. Perhaps you are pursuing a passionate study or a spiritual quest. Any path of mastery will consume major blocks of time and energy. You may be old and gray by the time you answer the questions you are posing. The pursuit of the answers, however, will lead you through profound life-changing experiences. When you make the commitment to this path, others will support you out of respect. Your inner crone or shaman is getting ready to take her place in the seat of leadership and right use of power. Don’t decline the invitation. Wrap your dignity around you and step up to the challenge.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:38:12 PM
Question: I examined my own conscience re my level of attainment, even if it made me look bad. I was truthful and effective in cleansing myself of false motives, seeking the reconciliation of God and my friends. I used myself to road-test how to go through “fearless moral inventory”, step for of AA. I never once had the strength of character to do this but it healed me and reminded me it’s OK to be a weak human who’s willing to do try, fail, and try again.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Give yourself credit for the quality work you are producing.
The Eight of Coins in this position reveals a gift or talent for design, engineering, or problem solving — the know-how necessary to combine utility with efficiency and beauty. This points to a master developing his or her craft. When a person becomes proficient at something, his or her good reputation can spread until the work is showcased in the loftiest venues. It is important for you to respect and appreciate the high quality of the works you are producing and the acclaim your achievements merit.
2: Situation
Sometimes hard data is less than satisfying; stay loose and attuned to your intuition and impressions coming your way.
When the Six of Swords is in this position, it’s time to open your mind and your perception of reality in order to clearly perceive all the forces affecting you. This is a subtle situation. Because quite often you don’t have enough hard information, enough conscious data to navigate by, you have to pay attention to hunches and intuition. You may just discover in the process that you have the necessary reflexes to keep up with current changes after all. Somewhere in your memory banks lies an idea or insight that can set you on your rightful course. Relax and remain open to impressions; the immediate situation contains valuable clues. Look for the overall pattern; when you see it, you will know which steps to take next.
3: Challenges
Intervene in the face of hostility, summoning the courage others may be lacking.
With the Three of Swords in this position, your unique point of view can help lower the stakes in the current situation and possibly even create a dialogue to help move out of the tension. It takes a brave soul to remain optimistic in the face of the storm. You may be able to help salvage some harmony from a stressful situation. Apparently you are the one available person who has the skill and ability to facilitate better communications. Don’t hold yourself back simply because the situation is tense and frightening. Maybe there is something you can contribute that will smooth things out a bit.
4: Foundation
Deep within, you have reason not to fall back on inertia. Use it to sharpen your attention.
The Four of Cups in this position suggests that you have experienced fallow times wherein you were uninspired, listless, even apathetic. At times like this, you might be tempted to disassociate and entertain yourself with fantasy instead of challenging yourself to keep growing and stay strong. It’s a luxury to be able to coast and not be an active force in your own life. There is a cost, however, in the form of dependence that leaves you open to extremes you won’t be prepared for. By recalling such past experiences, you can prevent yourself from slipping into that old powerless place. Use those memories to ensure that you will not lose track of events as they unfold around you. If you recognize how easily these lapses could happen again, you can take steps to avoid falling into the dependent position you used to settle for.
5: Recent Past
You have gained respect from your community and a solid sense of self esteem.
With the Emperor in this position, it seems you have been riding a wave of authority and empowerment that drew others into alliance with you. It allowed you a higher degree of leverage and esteem than normal. This period has probably passed, but the respect and authority with which you are still treated shows how much impact those events had. Your living memory of this period allows you to continue to tap into that sense of yourself in a focused and optimistic mode.
6: Higher Power
A door is opening to a higher level of function and experience.
When the Ace of Coins appears in this position, a door is opening that can lift you closer to your dream. You will become increasingly aware of how meaningful your assignment is. In a certain way, you have been chosen to hold or carry something of high value, and that thing you hold and invite others to participate in is going to bless those who get involved with you. You are gaining a sense of the larger meaning of your life, and everything looks new and fresh. Take the ball and run with it!
7: Near Future
Sometimes it’s necessary to let go of rational functions and trust your senses.
With the Moon in this position, you are on the brink of a period of time so multidimensional that it will be hard to separate fact from fantasy. So many developments will unfold, change and merge that it’s difficult to comprehend every nuance. It’s almost overwhelming. Open and relax your mind into a more primal state of pure awareness. We are generally so identified with the rational intellect that when shamanic information or deep body wisdom rises up to consciousness, we fail to recognize them. Open all your pores, raise your antenna and just feel your way along. If you get stuck rationalizing, you will sink like a stone.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Resist dogma; think for yourself in order to preserve your integrity and values.
When the Six of Wands falls in this position, it signifies conflict between your interests and the desires of the greater collective. You need some approval from others, but the desire to fit in can lead you to a party line that your personal integrity resists. Keep in mind that the price of leadership sometimes requires resistance to social pressures rather than capitulation to it. Look deeply into your own heart, instinct and conscience and ask yourself if you really need to fall in with the group. It may be more to your advantage to strike out in a different direction in order to preserve your integrity and values.
9: Allies
An ally’s validation of your growth helps you regain self esteem.
The Six of Cups in this position suggests that you have a friend or compatriot who has a good perspective on your long time development. She or he can help you see how far you have come, how truly proactive on your own behalf you now are. This is someone who knows your past or who has witnessed some of the powerful transformation that has allowed you to become who you are now. This person helps you put the proper perspective on your own memories and regain the self esteem you deserve from moving out of a place of helplessness and toward a place of self empowerment. Your ally points you toward that realization.
10: Advice
Study the responsibilities you have inherited rather than just look at the advantages they represent.
The Four of Coins in this position signifies a young person, naive and pampered, who has been left an estate. Think conscientiously about all those people whom your activities impact, including those whose work and effort went into building what you inherited and those whose welfare depends to any extent upon your right management. What you’ve been given is abundant but not limitless. If you are prudent and responsible, the endowment will grow. But if you are frivolous or foolish, your behavior could undermine both what you have received and the well being of others who are connected to it. This is a test.
11: Long-Term Potential
As you patiently persevere and pay attention to what people really need and want, attune yourself to the wisdom of natural growth cycles.
With the King of Coins in this position, you have the opportunity to create something magnificent, but only if you persevere with patience. Tune into a farmer’s innate understanding of increase. Let yourself benefit from the wisdom of natural growth cycles, paying attention to what people and the market really need and want at any given time. With your attitude, position and the good fortune you have earned from past experiences, the potential for success is strong — especially if you focus on values instead of simply profit and expansion.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:46:08 PM
Question: I’m not doing this for self-glory as the blog puts me in a true light, mouthing off at God at my worst, and realizing my ability to seek resolution about my father on the other. It’s a universal practice nobody enjoys, but one they should do every so often to reassess their progress and be true to oneself. If I can do this, anybody can. I have faith in your guidance throughout the process, dear Spirit. Please advise…
Celtic Cross

1: Self
When issues of survival are resolved a person is free to make un-pressured choices, dream big dreams and be generous. [Notice the switching of the order of ideas here.]
The King of Coins in this position indicates a person who “has it all.” This may have to do with financial security, lack of worry and feelings of abundance. This points to a person who has solved the survival issues that drive most humans most of the time. The King of Coins knows how to work the system in order to get what he needs so he can live as he wishes. He is free to make choices without undue pressure from the bottom line. In this situation you can be generous and not worry about it, you can dream big, you can help others, you can protect the rain forests. You can be a benefactor to the whole human race based on how you use your magnificent freedom and abundance.
2: Situation
The situation is unpredictable.
When the Fool is in this position, the situation is un-definable and open ended. This can create a feeling of panic or one of relief, because when there is no blueprint, you are freed from rules and restrictions. But only a truly secure individual can stay calm under such uncertain circumstances. It will become apparent who is in tune with the flow and who is not. Watch closely and learn.
3: Challenges
When needs aren’t being met because of conflict and taking sides, someone has to step forward to clarify the issues.
When the Two of Swords presents in this position, you have an opportunity to elucidate conflicting issues in a current situation. Conflict arises to highlight needs that are not being met or communication efforts that are not being heard. Opposing groups need an outside party to help them see what is pulling them apart. If you are well positioned for such a task, you could possibly serve as a mediator or facilitator. Although certain risks are inherent in sponsoring a sensitive, diplomatic dialogue, you have the right approach for easing this transition. By taking part in the dialogue, you could make a difference. Often people feel much better just having talked out their differences. Sometimes the solution lies in the listening.
4: Foundation
Look at your situation objectively so you can avoid potential pitfalls.
The Eight of Coins in this position suggests that role models from the past demonstrate how much a hardworking, extremely productive individual can accomplish when she or he stays on task. With an eye to detail, study those who went before you, so you will know how to eliminate false turns, wrong assumptions and immature approaches. This process will teach you how to winnow out those endeavors which are worth the effort and which may turn out to be fruitless and ephemeral. This will provide you with a great head start on your projects.
5: Recent Past
You have mixed your own medicine and brought about your own healing.
With Temperance in this position, you are now on the far side of resurrection. You navigated well through a transformative experience. You have demonstrated this card’s essential message: “Physician, heal thyself.” Aggrieved by the poison of the past, you created an elixir to neutralize it and help you rise above its negative effects. Good job! Now you can use your own skills and abilities to stay healthy, happy and holy. This has been a wonderful rite of passage.
6: Higher Power
Shake loose from what has been normal for you.
When the Tower appears in this position, your Higher Power is setting the stage for a dramatic revelation or breakthrough that in one great moment will turn everything around for you. This card is often formatted as if it were a disaster, and it would be if you were identifying with the king and queen at the top of the tower. They are definitely dethroned and fallen, but slaves who are chained in the belly of the tower are set free and given their lives back. If humility is a quality of yours, this could be the best thing that ever happened for you. If pride is a problem, you will doubtless feel thrown down.
7: Near Future
Be prepared for an upcoming decisive moment; know your will and be ready to implement it.
When the King of Wands appears in this position, an imminent leadership opportunity requires psychological and emotional preparation. Many of us have negative or mixed programming about success, achievement, striving and competition. Those mixed emotions keep us from fulfilling our true potential when opportunities arise. Circumstances now demand leadership and dynamic action, not introspection. Use your strength of will to make a decision and act on it; don’t equivocate.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Because someone’s personal criteria are dominant, a relationship lacks balance and harmony.
When the Five of Coins falls in this position, you are experiencing inequity in relationship. Respect is not flowing freely in both directions. One person’s agenda may be dominating another’s. It’s important to examine this trend before the situation becomes more unbalanced. Instead of feeling overwhelmed or annoyed, prepare to question these relationships, both within yourself and with significant others.
9: Allies
An ally can test your mettle and teach you how to command respect.
The Five of Wands in this position suggests the presence of someone who can put you through a rigorous and challenging training to develop your will, physical stamina and endurance. This devil’s advocate will reveal your weaknesses and blind spots to you, hone your instincts and upgrade your strategy. Then you can prevail despite competition, prove the value of your ideas and command respect. This mentor or trainer might seem harsh, even a bit militaristic, challenging you to work past your fears and previous limits, but when you are through working with this ally, you will be a formidable contender.
10: Advice
Look deep within to understand what motivates an occasional tendency to be pessimistic or depressed.
With the Eight of Cups in this position, look inside and recognize the part of you that is still nursing an old grudge from a past injury or trauma. For the most part, your forward-looking self has gotten up and moved along; you are getting on with your life. Part of you, however, is still holding out, resisting the healing, nursing old wounds from painful losses of faith and trust. Scrutinize your current motives, your current attitude. See if you are still being influenced by the part of yourself that resists joy that dampens your enthusiastic, optimistic impulses. Don’t deny this pessimistic tendency. Understand and accept the hesitation and the fear and come to terms with them. Then you can put some old emotions in their rightful place — out of the way.
11: Long-Term Potential
In a time of change it is essential to be free to move with those changes.
With the Horseman of Wands in this position the potential for resolution is considerable, provided that any effective work currently being done is continued. Get on with it while the opportunity presents itself or it may pass you by. Don’t concern yourself with who or what could be left behind, because this mission is a moral, emotional and psychological imperative. In this time of change it is essential to be free to move. If you are honest with yourself you will not choose behaviors that look as if you want to grow roots and stay put. Those who love you and want to stay in contact will adapt to the circumstances, and those who are uncomfortable with your moving on may have to be left behind.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:50:51 PM
Question: I believe fighting against evil is like allowing bloodshed through war to keep peace. Better to clean up your own act and show compassion to those who have lost sight of God’s purpose for themselves. Besides, I also believe 99% of humans want to always to good, their only perhaps fault is their trying too hard. Allowing their God to help them to accept their weaknesses and forgiving their own shortcomings is very hard to do.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Feelings of renewal and idealism are arising in you, which will empower you to radiate the higher virtues to all around you.
The Two of Cups in this position is shouting “Love!” This isn’t necessarily about a traditional love affair. It could be a strong heart connection between yourself and someone you care greatly about. It could even be an attraction to an ideal or a vision that is as real to you as any interpersonal relationship. It can also represent a reconciliation between your own masculine and feminine aspects. In any case, this card is referring to that aroused, emotionally sensitive space we enter when we are opening up at a deep level. This may be a sweet, adorable moment, but you can’t deduce from this immediate feeling what the ultimate outcome of the relationship will be. Nevertheless, this card does encourage the idealism that creates fidelity and trust, empathy and compassion — the very human virtues we need most in our lives and relationships. Your emotional, psychic and spiritual life are quickening like spring. Enjoy this wonderful feeling and bless the world with it, but don’t make any serious commitments at this time.
2: Situation
Your unique comprehension of the situation can help clarify the confusion which is currently threatening forward progress.
With the Ace of Swords in this position, circumstances indicate that although there is only one path that leads to your destination, it winds and meanders like a maze. You can avoid confusion, however, because your insight can make sense of the apparent muddle. You possess an outlook or vision that can harmonize competing interests, motivations and needs. Ultimately it is up to you to reveal the big picture and point out the middle path. You know what the next step is, as long as you continue to focus solely upon it without letting yourself or others be distracted.
3: Challenges
When you willingly step forward to be a leader, you win recognition and gratitude.
The Seven of Swords in this position suggests that you volunteer to fill an emerging void in leadership. You may be the person who can serve as an inspiring figurehead and rallying point for existing unfocused mental and emotional energy. It is possible that you have a hero latent inside you who is being called forth by current circumstances. If that is the case, don’t resist; accept the invitation. It’s not often that we get a ready made opportunity to be gallant. It’s to everyone’s benefit that you think of yourself as a person who is able and willing to make a positive difference.
4: Foundation
Conditions from the past will be repeated unless you awaken to alternatives.
The Page of Wands in this position recognizes something very familiar in your situation that takes you back to a time when unexpected news changed your life. It could either have been a positive experience with a pleasing outcome, or the opposite. At any rate, take time to remember the event in detail because your current situation will echo your earlier response unless you consciously make an effort to react differently and create a new pattern. Your intuition, like a faithful messenger, is prodding you to awaken to what is unfolding and the new choices you have. Be clear about what you want to happen this time so that past mistakes are not repeated.
5: Recent Past
You have gained respect from your community and a solid sense of self esteem.
With the Emperor in this position, it seems you have been riding a wave of authority and empowerment that drew others into alliance with you. It allowed you a higher degree of leverage and esteem than normal. This period has probably passed, but the respect and authority with which you are still treated shows how much impact those events had. Your living memory of this period allows you to continue to tap into that sense of yourself in a focused and optimistic mode.
6: Higher Power
Examining the continuum of your life experiences renews you and clarifies your mission.
When the Ten of Wands falls in this position you are being asked to contemplate the continuity in your life, to review decisions you made when you were inexperienced and naive, then appreciate the stream of choices and realizations that led you to your present level of maturity. This continuum illuminates the theme that has governed your life from the beginning until now. From this perspective, you can recognize yourself, forgive yourself and renew yourself in light of the constant external change that marks life in this world. Then you can rest secure, knowing what your long term mission is and the nature of the contributions you have come here to make.
7: Near Future
A unique situation calls for spontaneity and authenticity.
When the Fool is in this position, you could be walking into a magical moment so pregnant with unforeseen possibility that you are caught entirely off guard. You are not in charge; you have no driving motive. You are neither the cause nor the effect. Having no prepared response, you act spontaneously; you are fully authentic, apt and accurate. Lack of self consciousness opens the door for the most natural response, and whatever the moment requires of you will unfold easily without stress or contrivance. No ego or sense of self is required. If you maintain awareness, you may witness a miracle.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Take responsibility and find solutions rather than dwelling on problems or finding fault.
When the Four of Swords is in this position, you seem to be assigning blame rather than taking responsibility for your part. This “keeping score” behavior builds up resentment against friends and colleagues. As others feel your attitude souring and receive little or no communication about what’s wrong, they withdraw. This initiates a trend toward unhealthy isolation. Resist every temptation to catalogue your resentments or rehash your turbulent feelings. Make an effort to move your attention from the problem to the solution. A more positive train of thought will open more options to you.
9: Allies
Natural consequences need to happen; don’t try to block them.
The Tower in this position suggests that someone on your team has the power of Thor, the power to throw down disruptive bolts of creative chaos, liberate entangled energy and force new growth. This is not a force to be unleashed lightly, nor should you put yourself in the position of making judgment on other people’s lives. This card is principally about the cumulative result of inappropriate actions that eventually attracts an adjustment. Eventually correction becomes necessary and a sudden change brings the structure down. Cooperate with the inevitable.
10: Advice
There is an important place for rest and recuperation in any endeavor.
When the Nine of Wands is in this position, you have done everything you can to bring a situation to its best conclusion. The full range of possibilities has been exhausted and all the creativity, energy and determination that is available has been put to use. This is a great time to lay down your concerns and enjoy a rest. You can’t bring anything more to the mission if you don’t regenerate and restore the energy you have put into the cause. It is praiseworthy to give all you have for something or someone who means a lot to you, but masochism and martyrdom are ill advised. Take a break; no one can fault you for it now.
11: Long-Term Potential
Find the few things that really matter and passionately pursue them, excluding all distractions.
The Devil card in this position points to the great potential you have to develop a powerful magnetism to attract what you want. You have an opportunity to harness your innate passion and natural charisma to become a powerful influence in your environment. This will require self discipline — not only to stay in touch with the passion that drives you, but also to master it so it doesn’t race madly ahead or spiral downwards into addiction. Strive to become an authentic human being who is responsive to life’s creative potential. Anything less will be flat and uninteresting. Be patient; such development can’t happen overnight. But it is available to you and you will feel much happier when you have won your way to that freedom.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:54:41 PM
Question: Creating inner serenity and peace in your environment is not magic. I’ll never master this, but I can continue to seek truth, honor my strengths and accept my fallibility. I’m naked in God’s eyes. God sees my secret denials and loves me with the compassion of a parent anyway. Everybody does stupid stuff and courageous, loving stuff. I dropped my mask; I hope it’ll be easier for others to drop theirs.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
Consider carefully what consequences may result from joining forces.
The Five of Coins in this position indicates the attraction of opposites. The Five of Coins depicts lovers discovering each other, mirroring and matching, magnetized by each other’s qualities. Once the first flush of infatuation is past, however, the same energy of attraction that once felt so exciting may become a source of friction. The seeds of conflict are built into the fabric of the attraction. Even though the whole becomes more than the sum of its parts, it has been known to devour the individuals who comprise it.
This card suggests a relationship opportunity or offer. Examine what the outcome of joining forces would be. Ascertain as best you can if there is enough to keep you engaged, so that you don’t base a long term endeavor on a moment’s infatuation. Successful long term partnerships are business arrangements as well as love affairs.
2: Situation
Use the larger force of transformation active in this situation to bring about change and new directions for you, too.
When the Chariot is in this position, an electrifying force is driving you towards your personal victory. The wheels of the chariot symbolize both the wheels of time and the motion of the planets. Unstoppable change is sweeping through this situation. It’s an exciting time, though it can seem chaotic. Those who can’t move and grow with the times may feel overwhelmed by this driving force, but don’t let that happen to you. See if there is a way you can hitch a ride on this chariot and use it to help advance your goals and aspirations. There is no reason why you should let it go by without you.
3: Challenges
Wake up and take action; arouse others to foment change as well.
When the Four of Cups is in this position, you are challenged to awaken earlier than others from the collective trance and capture a glimpse of what is truly going on. So, shake off the slumber and get activated; be the harbinger of change. Help others come to attention as well. Of course, only those who have ears to hear and eyes to see will agree the time has come for change. Those few people who wake up early make all the difference in how the situation unfolds when it finally penetrates the collective consciousness. Decide to be ahead of the learning curve compared to those around you.
4: Foundation
Card: The Magician
Your talent for recombining things makes you an educational and enjoyable person to be around.
You have witnessed or directly enjoyed the fruits of creative, associative thinking. It has become more natural for you to question assumptions, to move the pieces around and see if they can form a different pattern. You like to experiment with what is around you to see what you can create. Your talent stands you in good stead. You can inspire others to loosen up, flow and explore more too. Keep up the good work.
5: Recent Past
You are receiving acknowledgment for the self cultivation you have done.
With the Star in this position, you are emerging from a period of deep inspiration. If you didn’t take notes or keep a journal, make a record now of as much of this illumination as you can remember. This card affirms your self discipline in the search for right livelihood and right placement in the world. You are rewarded for your trials and tribulations and for the work you have done to refine yourself. Take this as encouragement, and hold the experience in your memory.
6: Higher Power
Having accomplished your endeavor, you have earned your rest; take it wholeheartedly.
When the Ten of Cups comes up in this position, you can put down your burden; you have reached the Promised Land. Spread before you is the fulfillment of the prophesy, the rewards for your labors. This is the place where you can rest, be safe and be taken care of for a while. Celebrate and relax; you are no longer struggling with old limitations and obstacles. Celebrate the impressive advancement you have made. You can be confident that the benefits of this experience will last and not leave you. It’s like a momentary return to Eden, where life is simple, nourishing and joyful. Revel in it, relax and refresh yourself — soon enough the mundane realities will return. Let yourself enjoy this experience of joy fully.
7: Near Future
Your deliberate, focused efforts will launch a successful endeavor.
When the Seven of Swords falls in this position, you have an opportunity to see your dreams of achievement play out step by step according to grand plan. As you cause your intended goal to materialize, everyone around you will gain confidence that evolutionary change is possible. This is not just about successfully completing a challenge. You have disciplined your mind, and formed clear insight and attitudes that benefit the goal, without letting yourself be derailed by transient concerns. Continue to demonstrate the focus and directed will that serves as an exemplary role model for those around you.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
When you feel uncomfortable about showcasing your unique talents, fully experience the discomfort in order to break through the blockage.
When the Three of Coins falls in this position, it indicates that you may be hesitant or unwilling to showcase your talents and skills at this time. Perhaps the thought makes you feel particularly vulnerable. But you need to bring your talent out of the closet if you are to connect with colleagues and supporters who can appreciate and encourage your vision, talents, and skills. You need to stretch beyond your comfort zone to fully experience the discomfort you feel when you reveal your unique skills. Then you will be able to simply accept your uneasiness, which is the first step towards freedom. Breaking through this blockage will bring incredible rewards. You will jump with joy!
9: Allies
Identify supportive allies who understand you and can help you stay focused.
The Ace of Coins in this position suggests that your primary need is for initiative, energy, optimism and one or two supportive mentors who understand you and can help you rediscover your own power and stay focused. Look to someone who will support your ability to stay faithful to the needs of your enterprise, because focus is the one thing that matters most right now. Until you find this help, endurance and persistence are your main allies. The more time you can spend in their company, the easier your path will be.
10: Advice
Challenge the pessimism of others around you by evoking their higher nature.
The Five of Swords in this position advises you to prepare yourself for disappointment about how your fellow humans are setting their priorities. Don’t expect a level playing field. Assume that the lower end of human nature is eroding good will in the situation. Because of a strong cultural trend toward scarcity thinking, a lot of people are damaged by a “me first” outlook. If it means you have to thicken your skin, put on a little armor or carry your sword of truth closer, then do so, but try not to be too quick to anger or judgment. Try not to jump to conclusions. Just because others may have a pessimistic sense of the world, their reality doesn’t have to undermine yours, and you don’t have to struggle or compete with them. Your challenge now is to learn how to sidestep confrontation and evoke a more evolved response from people. At the very least, be assertive about setting your boundaries.
11: Long-Term Potential
Take yourself and your talent seriously and plan for long term success.
The Eight of Coins in this position indicates that you are a visionary and an inventor, a person who has the capacity to redefine his or her medium. Your talents and skills could be parlayed into a fortune. Your design ideas, your innovative vision and your combination of precision and elegance could inspire a whole school or stylistic movement. You are not just another artisan. Your talent is multidimensional and if you invest in it, will reward you handsomely over time. Take yourself seriously and position yourself for the long term. Make sure you are paid what you are worth and that your work is showcased where people with good taste can experience it.

Friday, October 07, 2005 at 9:58:21 PM
Question: I spent my life thinking if anybody knew how weak I really am, nobody could like me. Well, I realize people are going to choose to accept me or not and that my true friends know I do stupid stuff already, even as I’m hiding it from myself. Real friends will accept me. Those who don’t have compassion for me will find a reason not to accept me; they aren’t my friends to begin with. It’s just common sense, natural law.
Celtic Cross

1: Self
An uncommon individual has exceptional knowledge and deep understanding.
The Hierophant is someone who knows him or herself to be exceptional. Every circle includes the few who know and understand and the many who aspire to do so. This card acknowledges you as a person with inner knowledge above and beyond theory and scholarship, who is able to contact the spirit world on behalf of humanity. In ancient times shamans were the healers, astrologers and early fabricators of metals and medicines for tribal societies. Nowadays the Hierophant represents those who have specialized knowledge in their field. She or he speaks wisely from true and direct experience, and serves in a leadership role.
2: Situation
Security, wealth and power are paradoxically undermining their possessor.
When the Four of Coins is in this position, it may be that one who possesses power or resources of some sort lacks the maturity to manage the endowment. At other times, the problem is over-identification with the bounty which can lead to egoism, ostentation, trying to buy friends, or an unnecessary miserliness. At the center of the problem is the owner’s lack of a core sense of self, which would otherwise provide wisdom to know how to use this opportunity. If it’s not you, you could serve as an objective friend or a sounding board to help this person regain balance and natural proportions. If it is you, let this reading perform that corrective role.
3: Challenges
Open yourself only to those whom you know are committed to their principles.
The Two of Cups in this position presents an opportunity for you to reveal yourself at a deep level of trust and truth, but do so only with those who have earned your trust and have proven their loyalty. This is definitely not a time to forsake your boundaries and merge with someone, even if this is what your instincts and desires are pushing you toward. You may feel completely smitten and would like to be swept off, but don’t give yourself away! No relationship that is realistic will expect or demand one hundred percent surrender, and no healthy person would accept such an expectation in the name of love. It’s not required that you rescue anyone or be rescued, or that you risk everything for another. Give up dramatic agendas. It’s most important that you meet half way, with hearts open, and get to know each other better.
4: Foundation
Card: The Magician
Your talent for recombining things makes you an educational and enjoyable person to be around.
You have witnessed or directly enjoyed the fruits of creative, associative thinking. It has become more natural for you to question assumptions, to move the pieces around and see if they can form a different pattern. You like to experiment with what is around you to see what you can create. Your talent stands you in good stead. You can inspire others to loosen up, flow and explore more too. Keep up the good work.
5: Recent Past
Successful experiments with telling your truth have shown you a way to be heard.
With the Queen of Swords in this position, you have just experienced the freedom and power of being completely candid. Social rules don’t always allow that to happen. Because we are thoroughly programmed to be polite and tactful, most humans are inhibited by direct talk. The fact that you said your piece may have been a breakthrough for you. Continue to meditate on this new approach, then follow up on it. As you do so, notice how keenly the truth can illuminate the essence of the issues. You’ve been given an inspiring glimpse into still to be developed powers of communication. Cherish the opportunity to develop these powers in your current and future life.
6: Higher Power
Because of the high values you have stood for, your success is well deserved.
When the King of Coins comes up in this position, you are being acknowledged for a steadfast commitment to success. You deserve your success because you have followed through and taken responsibility for every step. The rewards you receive are well earned, no matter how generous they seem. Continue representing the loftiest values by how you deploy those rewards. Your higher nature recognizes the progress you’ve made. You are earning your stripes and leaving the world a better place than when you came in.
7: Near Future
You are worthy of the abundant recognition you receive.
With the Nine of Cups in this position, you are about to receive a warm welcome from people whom you respect and admire. This will not be faint praise; this is very specific acknowledgment — a blessing you will cherish. You stand to be elevated by people who want to further you, who see your talent and gifts, what is special about you. They want to open doors for you, as well as invite you into their lives. Recognize the situation when it happens and consciously relax into the safety it provides. Your dignity will remain intact because you have earned this positive reaffirmation. The more you learn to be comfortable with a flow of support and love, the better you will be at whatever else you try to achieve.
8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Be forward-looking; concentrate on being progressive and optimistic.
When the Ten of Coins falls in this position, you are tempted to use your power or clout punitively, taking advantage of your position in the hierarchy to discipline others on a lower rung. But this is not an effective way to expend your considerable energies. Try emphasizing the positive, encouraging and rewarding what is evolutionary, proactive and optimistic. By supporting what will work, you won’t have to waste energy penalizing what is negative — it will whither from lack of attention. You will actually create a larger sphere of influence that way and gain more control over the situation.
9: Allies
An ally’s validation of your growth helps you regain self esteem.
The Six of Cups in this position suggests that you have a friend or compatriot who has a good perspective on your long time development. She or he can help you see how far you have come, how truly proactive on your own behalf you now are. This is someone who knows your past or who has witnessed some of the powerful transformation that has allowed you to become who you are now. This person helps you put the proper perspective on your own memories and regain the self esteem you deserve from moving out of a place of helplessness and toward a place of self empowerment. Your ally points you toward that realization.
10: Advice
There is an important place for rest and recuperation in any endeavor.
When the Nine of Wands is in this position, you have done everything you can to bring a situation to its best conclusion. The full range of possibilities has been exhausted and all the creativity, energy and determination that is available has been put to use. This is a great time to lay down your concerns and enjoy a rest. You can’t bring anything more to the mission if you don’t regenerate and restore the energy you have put into the cause. It is praiseworthy to give all you have for something or someone who means a lot to you, but masochism and martyrdom are ill advised. Take a break; no one can fault you for it now.
11: Long-Term Potential
Don’t underestimate your capabilities or trivialize what you do.
The Three of Coins in this position indicates that over time you are going to build a body of valuable works and make quite a name for yourself. Don’t underestimate yourself or diminish the value of what you do. Give priority to nurturing and further developing your vision and skills. Only you can contribute your unique gifts, which are amazing and masterful. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Sabian Symbols ~ October's 2 Lunar Eclipses

Monday October 3 2005 ~ New Moon, Solar eclipse (a), 10°19 Libra, exact at 12:28

Sabian Symbol for Libra 10

"A Canoe Approaching Safety through Dangerous Waters"
There is a time of calm approaching.
The difficulties in your situation have been arduous,
but they’ve added to your experience to cope with any difficult times that are yet to come.
The calm is a time to review what has past. You’ve come through the most difficult straits.
Soon, you’ll realize that you’re on safe ground.
The calm after the storm. Navigating difficult straits. White water rafting.

Risky activities. Personal initiations.
The Caution: Failing to take advantage of the time to rest.

Taking foolhardy risks with the belief that all will be Okay.

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Monday October 17 2005 ~ Full Moon, Lunar eclipse (p), 24°13 Aries, exact at 14:14
*Moon at natal angle, exact at 12:39 [NL time]

Sabian Symbol for Aries 24
"An Open Window and a Net Curtain Blowing Into a Cornucopia"
Your mind is open to possibilities that are being ‘blown’ in from the realm of spirit.

There is an abundance coming that will be self-sustaining.

Look for out of the ordinary opportunities. Realizing that in one’s everyday life, one has it all.
Imagination. Keeping your options open. The promise of fruition.

The breath of life filling you with inspiration. Open windows and doors.
The Caution: Relying on your spiritual ideas to provide material sustenance, thinking that good luck will just ‘blow in’.
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Sabian Symbols - Sabian Symbols Story

My Examination of Concience ~ using I Ching

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:15 PM.
Present: 26 Containment of Potential
Question: examining my conscience
This points to the containment of great power - power that increases as it is wisely stewarded. Like a river which has been dammed, or a cooking pot with the lid on, holding and containing power produces enormous potential. During normal times, daily ritual and habit help keep life ordered and serene; but in times of great opportunity, the force of a powerful personality is required. Focused attention is required to channel this great potential and achieve supreme success.
With regard to what is on your mind, you have considerable reserves of energy and support to draw upon. This is the right time to nurture creativity by collecting and organizing your good ideas and plans. In this way, even great and difficult undertakings can be successful.
A hidden source of power for the great is the study of the past. The lives of wise and successful men and women are like treasures buried in the earth. Great good fortune comes to those who unearth these valuable treasures by applying the lessons of the ages to current events.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 4:
Early precautions taken to restrain a wild force prevent misfortune. Just as in ancient times a board was fastened to the forehead of young bulls to render their horns harmless, so it is smart to restrain reckless forces before they do great damage. When disruptive forces threaten, extraordinary precautions are necessary. Do not rule out the possibility that the disruptive force, in this instance, is inside you.
The second changing line is Line 6:
Supreme good fortune! Great and powerful forces, inhibited in the recent past by temporary restraints, are now building strength and momentum. Use your creative powers to advance strongly at the present time; ride with the current. Do not hesitate to accept a new level of responsibility. You have an opportunity now to exercise a great positive influence.
Future: 34 Great Vigor
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Congratulations! There is strength and vigor in this situation - like a ram who has knocked down a fence to free himself from captivity. This points to a time when a strong force comes into its own and achieves power.
When a leader finally comes into power, his or her personal strength usually has peaked. Great strength has been required in climbing to the mountaintop, but once at the summit, the support of others is needed to maintain position. A shift in attitude becomes necessary. Raw strength must be tempered by wisdom; to maintain power, the strong leader must learn to give it away, to share it with others. Only then will his position be secure, for he will not only be the possessor of power, but the source of it as well.
If you find yourself in a powerful position, it is especially important to act responsibly and react with care. Power must not be allowed to degenerate into raw force which rides roughshod over everything in its path. A strong sense of responsibility to the collective good is the key to the successful exercise of power. By following what we intuitively know to be for the greater good, we avoid reckless abuses of power which in the end undermine the source of our strength. Arrogance contains the seeds of its own undoing.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:18 PM.
Present: 47 Oppression
Question: ultimate test - level of peace attained with Pappa
The image of opression conjures up a dried up lake bed with nettlesome crows stalking the shoreline. Hard times shrivel our spirits, and give rise to a multitude of "crows" in the form of troublesome worries. Times of great loss or personal failure break weaker people; but the strong of heart can bend with fate. To endure hard times - or even grow and benefit from them - it is essential to tap that deepest stratum of personal identity, that which is deeper even than fate, and which is incorruptible by even the harshest realities. It is essential, in other words, to tap the wellspring of human endurance: hope.
In a sense, there is no such thing as failure. There is only sweet and sour reality, and more is learned from the sour, oftentimes, than from the sweet. For failure, hard as it may be to swallow, opens the blinds to the real world, and reawakens the clarity of vision known only to those who have risked, and tasted, disappointment.
When in the throes of hard times, it is essential to be resolute and strong on the inside while remaining quietly cheerful on the outside. Avoid too much talking - except to your closest friends. Your words will have little effect on all others, since your influence will be at a low ebb - and they will drain you of vital energy. Strong silence is the most skillful posture when facing the public during adversity; it shows that your inner core is strong enough to withstand the current troubles, and suggests that your recovery will be complete. At the same time, talking openly to those you trust is equally important, for in times of calamity, talking is part of healing.
Keep in mind that failure - the final taboo in modern society - is but one part of the inevitable cycle of life for those who dare to live fully and completely. Never to fail at all is to fail in the biggest way - avoiding risk altogether, one cannot help but fall far short of what might have been.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 1:
No matter how overwhelming your challenges may seem, gloom and melancholy will only make them worse. By working to overcome your problems inwardly, and committing to move forward without despair, progress becomes possible. Banish the phantoms of self-pity before moving to slay the dragons of ill-fortune.
The second changing line is Line 5:
When you find that your best ideas and best intentions are being stifled by spurious, red-tape emitting bureaucrats, your only course of action may be to suffer patiently, and consider your efforts a sacrifice to the gods of efficiency.
Future: 54 Careful Affection
Affection is the basis of all lasting relationships, but must be channeled properly in order to bring satisfaction and support the self-esteem of both parties. For example, a married person's lover would necessarily have conflicted feelings: affection coupled with insecurity. Relationships based mainly on personal attraction, especially those which are outside the mainstream, require special caution and tactful reserve.
If you assert yourself too much, or try to make yourself indispensable, you will only incur misfortune. It is never easier to make disastrous mistakes than when you venture outside the bounds of propriety. If you are in doubt as to whether you should follow your heart or your head, allow for some time to pass, and perhaps the answer will become clear. Initiating any action could bring misfortune. Do not attempt to be too creative or attract favorable attention at this time.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:22 PM.
Present: 15 Humility
Question: amount of wisdom learned from 7 years with partner diagnosed psychopath
Humility is often rewarded in human affairs, just as valleys are filled by the erosion of great mountains. It is the way of the world to fill the empty cup. Regardless of your position, humility is a positive and deceptively powerful attribute. If you are in a high position but are still humble, people will be drawn to you and the causes you espouse. If your position is lowly, humility will endear you to those of higher status. True humility is a virtue to which all should aspire.
The most successful people are those who know how to bring each situation into balance by reducing that which is too great, and adding to that which is too little. Such a person craves not power, but balanced and stable relationships. Humility is the virtue which allows you to perceive the balancing force in each situation; humble people are not prey to the many illusions which grow out of self-importance. If humility is not natural to your disposition, make a conscious effort to develop a strain of self-effacing humor.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 6:
When mistakes are made, and disagreement blows in as suddenly as a north wind, there is a great tendency to assign blame in all directions. The immodest immediately raise their shields, thereby obscuring the truth from their own eyes. The weak take offense, and shrink away in self-pity and doubt. But the sincere and humble see the situation as a challenge to be met head-on, first by examining themselves inwardly to identify their role in creating the current problems; and then by having the courage to act forcefully but fairly to rectify mistakes and clear the air.
Humility is the true mark of nobility, and always bodes good fortune.
Future: 52 Keeping Still
Regular periods of keeping still are an important aspect of personal development and forward motion. The most restful person may not be the one who sleeps twelve hours a day, but the one able to grab catnaps while cruising at 500 miles-per-hour at 35,000 ft. Learning to act when it is time to act, and to keep still when it is time to keep still, is the key to obtaining the peace of mind which helps one stay focused when clear focus is needed.
Consider the spine, which serves as a switchboard for all the nerves of the body which mediate movement. When the spine is kept flexible and healthy through proper rest and relaxation, active movement can always be undertaken without strain. When the spine is held erect in a balanced sitting posture, the inner balancing of meditation can take place.
Treat your innate spark of vitality as if it were a candle in the wind - protecting it as though it were your only light in a dark forest on a moonless night. Avoid external conditions which threaten to snuff out the flame, and be careful not to suffocate it with your own ambitions and worries.
Time out. Relax, take your shoes off, and sit a spell. Let go of thinking. Meditate.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:26 PM
Present: 34 Great Vigor
Question: saw Mamma as pitiful - cause for regret
Congratulations! There is strength and vigor in this situation - like a ram who has knocked down a fence to free himself from captivity. This points to a time when a strong force comes into its own and achieves power.
When a leader finally comes into power, his or her personal strength usually has peaked. Great strength has been required in climbing to the mountaintop, but once at the summit, the support of others is needed to maintain position. A shift in attitude becomes necessary. Raw strength must be tempered by wisdom; to maintain power, the strong leader must learn to give it away, to share it with others. Only then will his position be secure, for he will not only be the possessor of power, but the source of it as well.
If you find yourself in a powerful position, it is especially important to act responsibly and react with care. Power must not be allowed to degenerate into raw force which rides roughshod over everything in its path. A strong sense of responsibility to the collective good is the key to the successful exercise of power. By following what we intuitively know to be for the greater good, we avoid reckless abuses of power which in the end undermine the source of our strength. Arrogance contains the seeds of its own undoing.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 3: A ram crashing through a hedge gets his horns tangled up. He may be the strongest animal in the flock, but a proud, haughty ram only brings misfortune upon himself. Avoid empty displays of power or force.
A wise leader measures success in terms of finely-tuned performance, not raw power. Power is the fuel, but precision is the carburetor.
Future: 54 Careful Affection
Affection is the basis of all lasting relationships, but must be channeled properly in order to bring satisfaction and support the self-esteem of both parties. For example, a married person's lover would necessarily have conflicted feelings: affection coupled with insecurity. Relationships based mainly on personal attraction, especially those which are outside the mainstream, require special caution and tactful reserve.
If you assert yourself too much, or try to make yourself indispensable, you will only incur misfortune. It is never easier to make disastrous mistakes than when you venture outside the bounds of propriety. If you are in doubt as to whether you should follow your heart or your head, allow for some time to pass, and perhaps the answer will become clear. Initiating any action could bring misfortune. Do not attempt to be too creative or attract favorable attention at this time.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:31 PM
Present: 05 Patience
Question: only 1 trespass I cannot forgive myself for, yet given the same plight would do same act - dilemma
A fisherman can cast the line, but can only wait for the fish to bite. Your catch will come in its own time; you cannot make it come - neither by working nor by planning nor by wishing. You may need to provide nourishment for you and your loved ones; but only through patience can you become the bridge between the fickle fish and the eventual feast. Strength in a time of trial waits quietly, resolutely. Weakness grows agitated, and abandons the effort before the fish bite. Periods of waiting are most fruitful when used for quiet contemplation.
Proceed cautiously, but resolutely, with whatever you are doing. The situation calls for consistency and patience. Waiting is an essential skill; patience is a powerful force. Time is an ally of those with inner strength - the kind of strength which allows you to be uncompromisingly honest with yourself, while sticking to the path you have charted. If you persevere with a positive attitude, time weakens even the hardest obstacles. To rush anything, or impatiently force results, stimulates resistance and causes setbacks. At best, you achieve surface changes that may just as quickly be reversed. Steadfast waiting - holding to your integrity - leads to slow but permanent improvements. In the end, you accomplish something great. Practice patience.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1:
Troubling events are looming, causing apprehension. Do not react! Avoid premature action. Just keep your life in order. Do not try to alter the path which has been set for you at this time. You are heading in the right direction; do not become impatient or greedy. Even though a challenge may be impending, the skillful response is to carefully make preparations, gaining strength for future battles. Let go of anxious thinking. Simply remain open, alert, and prepared.
The second changing line is Line 2:
Strife can easily develop. You may have to tolerate gossip, but in the end you will come out very well, if you remain calm and magnanimous now. Things will resolve themselves. Think of small grains of sand, which accumulate over time to form embankments or dykes across wet areas. Sand is more fragmentary than stone but harder than soil, and can be used to alter the texture of both. Like sand you must be strong and accommodating even though others may abuse or blame you. Avoid being sucked into conflict; remain neutral.
The third changing line is Line 3:
You feel stuck, as in mud, and your enemies feel encouraged. You are in an exposed position. Be cautious and considerate in relationships and be on guard. Be alert to shifting alliances.
The fourth changing line is Line 5:
When the storm hits, it behooves one to enjoy a single glass of wine. In the midst of difficult situations, there often comes a temporary pause; use this interval to fortify your position, not by continuing to dwell on the swirl of events around you, but by taking a recreation break. Have fun, but with an eye to recharging your batteries, rather than further draining them.
If you are in a leadership position, it is essential to allow the people on your team time to enjoy life, and increase the pleasure of their work. All work and no play in the end defeats the purpose of the work, and weakens the commitments of others toward the goal. In personal matters, remember that everything cannot be done at once. If you do not take time for recreation and relaxation today, will tomorrow really be any better?
The fifth changing line is Line 6:
It seems as if you are falling into an abyss. This is a time of great difficulty. When all your plans are overturned, it's best to yield gracefully. Just remain cautious and alert; help may be arriving from some unknown corner. Keep an open mind and you will find your way out of current difficulties. You can learn the lessons in this situation. If a remedy does not soon present itself, remember, every trial you survive makes you stronger.
Future: 23 Disintegration
In every life, all is not what it seems. At this time, things are on the decline and reality seems like a hall of mirrors, or a house with a collapsing roof. Intrigues are multiplying like flies, and there are rumors of discontent. It is the time of illusion, deception, distrust and disintegration.
When you find yourself about to become trapped in situation that is falling apart, it is necessary to retrace your steps. Return to the familiar; take solace in what is firm and secure. Gather up your energy and do not confront the source of the problem directly. There is no blame in holding back; indeed, it is your responsibility to keep your strength intact for the period of resurrection, which follows the period of disintegration as surely as dawn follows the night.
Discretion is the better part of valor Ñ and good timing is important too. Learn to choose the proper moments for action, thereby avoiding futile effort. Be particularly attentive at such a time as this for changes that signal a time to retreat.
In the realm of personal relations, discovering illusion is always painful, and confusing. When in the midst of such a period, it is wise to avoid undertaking any bold new moves or competing with inferiors; it is especially important not to jump to conclusions too quickly.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:39 PM.
Present: 09 Small Influences
Question: My regretful act done as youth making adult choices without access to mentor - still blame
A gentle wind gathers the clouds, but still, no rain. Softer influences predominate as the power of the small accumulates. This is a time for smooth and friendly persuasion.
In the ebb and flow of events, there are always "low tides" - times when sweeping action is impossible or inappropriate, but when small matters can be attended to profitably, leading to bigger and better things later on. When the tide is rolling in, by all means, ride the wave; but when it is receding like it is now, focus on little things.
When the time is such that you cannot do much to affect large matters, persuasion and subtle influence can prepare the way for strength in the future. Use your intuition to chart your long-term course, but avoid bold actions for the moment - they are unlikely to work. This is an excellent time to refine existing abilities or develop new talents.
Be wary of others' intentions if they hold the upper hand in a situation. Examine their sources of power, so as to discover subtle influences you may be able to exert upon them.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:41 PM.
Present: 09 Small Influences
Question: anger, affronted re loved one who does not trust me with children
A gentle wind gathers the clouds, but still, no rain. Softer influences predominate as the power of the small accumulates. This is a time for smooth and friendly persuasion.
In the ebb and flow of events, there are always "low tides" - times when sweeping action is impossible or inappropriate, but when small matters can be attended to profitably, leading to bigger and better things later on. When the tide is rolling in, by all means, ride the wave; but when it is receding like it is now, focus on little things.
When the time is such that you cannot do much to affect large matters, persuasion and subtle influence can prepare the way for strength in the future. Use your intuition to chart your long-term course, but avoid bold actions for the moment - they are unlikely to work. This is an excellent time to refine existing abilities or develop new talents.
Be wary of others' intentions if they hold the upper hand in a situation. Examine their sources of power, so as to discover subtle influences you may be able to exert upon them.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1:
When a strong person encounters an obstacle in his or her path, the first inclination is to press forward, to remove it or overcome it by force. In present circumstances, however, do not let yourself be drawn into direct action or conflict. Instead, stand back and take some time to assess the situation, and consider all your options.
The second changing line is Line 3:
When a variety of distracting small problems arise, circumstances favor the weak. Just as one untimely flat tire can ruin an entire journey, so the small details of the current situation can mount up to create a huge problem. Beware of celebrating premature victories when small signs are pointing in the other direction.
The third changing line is Line 5:
In the best partnerships, each partner complements the other, and loyalty is the fuel which allows the partnership to shine. For the weaker partner, loyalty means devotion and service; for the stronger, trustworthiness is essential. A balanced partnership leads to great prosperity - and wealth won in partnership is appreciated and admired all the more because it is shared.
Future: 04 Youthful Folly
Be on guard for careless or rebellious attitudes characteristic of youthful inexperience. Just as a youth requires instruction, this is a good time to focus on learning your lessons from a patient teacher or life experience. Is there a circumstance in your life, which you have failed to comprehend completely, perhaps because you have failed to appreciate its inherent complexities? Be respectful of anything or anyone who has something to teach you right now.
In order to be ready for challenging times, let education be a continuing part of your life. Be continually developing the strong mind and will necessary to carry one through confusing times. The wise realize that experience, especially difficult experience, is a powerful teacher. But we cannot be forced to learn, even from experience. Be a good student, one who delights in learning, one who nourishes his or her expanding awareness.
Examine your attitude for factors which limit your openness. Observe how you deal with the mistakes of others. You must let people live their own lives and learn their own lessons. Offer others your wisdom or advice, but only if they are receptive. Otherwise, give up trying to convince them that you are right - that is only exhausting and counter-productive. If people are not receptive, let them proceed - even into difficulty or dangerous circumstances. It is the only way they can learn - and without learning, no one can achieve success. This does not mean that you should not care -- just that taking care of someone too much can be harmful. Live and let learn.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:49 PM
Present: 24 Returning
Question: held grudge when loved one said I am incapable of knowing children as I never had my own - have I forgiven?
There is a turning point which recharges you and eventually brings success. It is associated with a turning of darkness back towards the direction of the light, the winter solstice, the shortest day of the year, the day when darkness begins to decrease and the hours of daylight increase. It is the beginning of a turn-around; a time of letting go of the old and making way for the new; a time of new beginnings, and it starts with rest.
Don't move too fast. The new momentum is just beginning; the turn-around demands that your energy be recharged by adequate rest, so that your life-force will not be spent prematurely. This principle of hibernation, of allowing energy to renew itself and be strengthened by rest applies to many situations - recuperation after an illness, the slow return of trust after period of estrangement, the careful development of new relationships after a splitting apart of old ones.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 7:56 PM
Present: 45 Gathering Together
Question: long treatment by 2 doctors caused me permanent disability - no law-action taken but made escape
The power of gathering together is represented by a rally, where each individual's strength is magnified by the power of the community as a whole. History has shown that mass movements can bring about stable, ordered and durable conditions for the better. This reading may be pointing to an auspicious time for large undertakings. But the guiding force of a shared vision is essential to hold the forces of unity together, and keep them advancing toward a common goal.
Another image for this situation is that of a lake filling with water. Just as the fullness of the lake can bring good fortune to all in its sphere, it can also overflow, leading to calamity. Thus in a time of gathering together it is essential that precautions against unforeseen danger be considered along with efforts to advance along a clearly-charted course. Much of human misfortune comes from unexpected events for which we are ill prepared; when gathered together with others, we are both more powerful and, in some ways, more vulnerable.
Any time of unity is a time of potential greatness. But that greatness can be both positive and negative. Everything is magnified when masses of people unite for a single purpose. When many people unite behind a single goal or strong vision, it is wise to take personal precautions, and to protect your own reasonable self-interests, because these can easily be lost in the crowd.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 2: During times of popular unity, secret forces are often at work. These strong, magnetic forces are best understood by asking, what is it that is actually drawing people together? Before joining in, it is essential that you know the answer.
Yielding to magnetic forces of popular attraction, once they are understood and known to be benevolent, is often necessary and good; in such situations, the usual precautions and formalities associated with meeting new people and developing new relationships can be dispensed with.
Future: 47 Oppression
The image of opression conjures up a dried up lake bed with nettlesome crows stalking the shoreline. Hard times shrivel our spirits, and give rise to a multitude of "crows" in the form of troublesome worries. Times of great loss or personal failure break weaker people; but the strong of heart can bend with fate. To endure hard times - or even grow and benefit from them - it is essential to tap that deepest stratum of personal identity, that which is deeper even than fate, and which is incorruptible by even the harshest realities. It is essential, in other words, to tap the wellspring of human endurance: hope.
In a sense, there is no such thing as failure. There is only sweet and sour reality, and more is learned from the sour, oftentimes, than from the sweet. For failure, hard as it may be to swallow, opens the blinds to the real world, and reawakens the clarity of vision known only to those who have risked, and tasted, disappointment.
When in the throes of hard times, it is essential to be resolute and strong on the inside while remaining quietly cheerful on the outside. Avoid too much talking - except to your closest friends. Your words will have little effect on all others, since your influence will be at a low ebb - and they will drain you of vital energy. Strong silence is the most skillful posture when facing the public during adversity; it shows that your inner core is strong enough to withstand the current troubles, and suggests that your recovery will be complete. At the same time, talking openly to those you trust is equally important, for in times of calamity, talking is part of healing.
Keep in mind that failure - the final taboo in modern society - is but one part of the inevitable cycle of life for those who dare to live fully and completely. Never to fail at all is to fail in the biggest way - avoiding risk altogether, one cannot help but fall far short of what might have been.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:07 PM
Present: 28 Excessive Pressure
Question: single dangerous action by loved one to me - catalyst for mutual healing
Something is out of balance. Some pressure is causing an imbalance and needs correcting. But, if the dam is about to burst, moving out of the way is the first key to success.
When a person in a sagging mine shaft feels the earth begin to tremble, it is a time for quick, instinctive action and nimble footwork. At a time like this, only extraordinary measures can bring success. When the roof is collapsing, run first, choose your destination later.
Extraordinary times bring out the best and worst in people. Natural disasters bring with them stories of great heroism - but also looting and rioting. When great weight is on the world, powerful moments present opportunities to make great gains. Everything is in a state of flux. One can either move in the direction of positive change and improvement or towards stagnation.
This may be the moment you have been waiting for. Although the current challenge may seem to be more than you can handle, remember that a flood reaches its highwater mark for only a few brief moments, and then begins to subside. Action must be taken now to ensure opportunities for success later on. You will never discover the true extent of your own abilities unless you, at least once in your life, dive into a crisis with complete abandon, dedicating every ounce of your energy, every fiber of your being, to the cause at hand.
Dare to win.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 3: Plunging willfully ahead during risky times, against the advice of your friends and intimates, invites trouble. Action may be called for, but never obstinacy. The support of friends and allies is necessary for any large undertaking; their advice can only be ignored at your own peril.
The second changing line is Line 5: The person who aspires only to relationships with those of higher status, greater wealth, more power and so forth, creates an unstable situation in his or her life. The tree which sinks its roots deepest into the earth is able to stretch its limbs highest into the sky.
Future: 40 Deliverance
After a thunderstorm, or any period of extreme tension, a period of new clarity and fresh opportunity follows. The storm has the effect of clearing the air and suddenly reducing atmospheric tension. Deliverance is at hand. In the wake of a storm on land, deliverance appears in the form of new color and life, which bursts forth in all the fields and flowers. In the wake of a storm at sea, deliverance takes the form of land itself.
In the field of human relations, the rain of forgiveness washes the human landscape clean after a period of enmity and error. Great clarity of purpose and renewed vigor can follow the healing of old wounds. But care must be taken not to re-open these old wounds by moving too quickly. In the same way, it is important to return to normalcy first before moving ahead with new plans after periods of stress.
Following the resolution of a difficult situation, your first priority, should be to return to normal conditions as quickly as possible. Breathe a sigh of relief, but don't relax completely. It would be a mistake to re-awaken the sleeping dogs of the immediate past before the new situation has crystallized. Look ahead. Attend to any residual matters that need resolution, and do so as quickly as possible. Make a clean sweep of the past, move deliberately, and the future will bring good fortune.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:11 PM.
Present: 38 Diverging Interests
Question: turned years of rage onto loved one who accepted challenge - still regret
An image of estrangement is indicated here. When brothers and sisters marry, they grow apart, since their allegiances now lie with new families. Though they will remain close enough to successfully deal with problems and share minor interests, they will be unable to undertake any great projects together. Simply put, when people grow apart - even for the most natural of reasons - their points of view, values and interests diverge.
Divergent natures and interests do bring opposition into the world of human affairs. And when opposition drifts into alienation and enmity, no good results. But when opposition takes the form of healthy competition, or when it is simply part of the natural order of things and is recognized as such, good fortune is possible.
Even when diverging energies make a situation seem stagnant or futile, remember: there are always creative possibilities inherent in polarities. One is reminded of the interplay of opposites that is fundamental for the creation of life itself. But when opposition has its roots in issues of principle, hold to your integrity and individuality. Avoid becoming involved with vulgar or base people who do not share your values. With both people and companies, one measure of stature is the quality of the competition.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 4: If you find yourself in a group of people with whom you have little in common, a seed of inner opposition can grow into true isolation. In such circumstances, the ideal solution is to find a soul-mate, someone with whom you share deep interests, and whom you trust completely. Through the taking of a good friend or lover, inner opposition can be overcome.
Future: 41 Decrease
Increase and decrease are part of the natural cycle of life. As another good book puts it, "To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven." Like a reservoir that is being used to irrigate the fields, learning to accept a decrease in position or material possessions is part of preparing for increase in the future.
We may live in materialistic times, but there is no disgrace in material decrease, particularly if it represents an investment in future gain - even if that gain be in the form of learning or the development of personal character. Likewise, the inner strength that comes from bearing loss can be balanced by a corresponding increase in inner strength and insight. When letting go of material desires leads to a greater simplicity in daily life, good fortune often comes calling.
In nature, the lake evaporates to form the clouds that drop the rain which nurtures the surrounding forest. As the forest grows thick, more rain is captured for the lake. Similarly, an "evaporation" or decrease in one area of your life, may give rise to an eventual increase. A loss of responsibility at work can mean more free time; more free time may generate more career options. A decrease in material possessions can free the spirit and fill the soul.
Be mindful of the lesson of young lovers: even with a minimum of possessions, feelings of the heart can bring an unsurpassed richness to life. The smallest of actions, if sincere, have value. So remain confident, for a time of decrease may actually bode good fortune. Especially if you remain open to that possibility.
Let go of frustration, resistance and regret over whatever may be decreasing at this time. Accept the cycle.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:16 PM.
Present: 23 Disintegration
Question: sloppy emotional transformation work done with new friends - cause for shame
In every life, all is not what it seems. At this time, things are on the decline and reality seems like a hall of mirrors, or a house with a collapsing roof. Intrigues are multiplying like flies, and there are rumors of discontent. It is the time of illusion, deception, distrust and disintegration.
When you find yourself about to become trapped in situation that is falling apart, it is necessary to retrace your steps. Return to the familiar; take solace in what is firm and secure. Gather up your energy and do not confront the source of the problem directly. There is no blame in holding back; indeed, it is your responsibility to keep your strength intact for the period of resurrection, which follows the period of disintegration as surely as dawn follows the night.
Discretion is the better part of valor Ñ and good timing is important too. Learn to choose the proper moments for action, thereby avoiding futile effort. Be particularly attentive at such a time as this for changes that signal a time to retreat.
In the realm of personal relations, discovering illusion is always painful, and confusing. When in the midst of such a period, it is wise to avoid undertaking any bold new moves or competing with inferiors; it is especially important not to jump to conclusions too quickly.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 6: The period of disintegration comes to an end. The negative forces have spent themselves. Evil is not destructive of good alone - it also destroys itself. And when it dies, it nourishes the good seed that remains. There is a fresh, new, invigorating energy in the air. Use it!
Future: 02 The Receptive
Great receptivity attracts exceptional results. A natural responsiveness brings about success through support and perseverance, rather than through bold action. Thus, the wise person demonstrates strength like a powerful but gentle mare. This hexagram, consisting of all yin lines, represents a power of the feminine principle no longer honored in our modern world, but such receptivity is most auspicious.
The receptive force is sensual as well as powerful, and it can be missed by too much talk and planning. When spring comes, does the grass "plan" to grow? This is a time to concentrate on realities rather than potentials - with how to respond to a situation rather than how to direct it. The mature mare lets herself be guided by a higher power, and is skilled at graceful acceptance. In a strong spiritual way, her quiet contribution is most effective, and brings success.
Do not be too assertive at this time, for if you try to direct things, you are liable to become confused or alienated. Take your time. Draw strength from carefulness and you will be doubly fortunate. Focus more on feeling than on action. Be broad and deep in your attitudes so that you can accept everything that comes your way with grace and equanimity. Be receptive and spacious like the ocean; let the river of changing developments flow to you. Allow others to take the lead for now. Strive for a pure natural responsiveness that is based on inner strength rather than outer show.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:22 PM.
Present: 51 Shock
Question: spent a lifespan transforming damaged self - right path but fear no time to use acquired wisdom
One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpened, clearer vision. Recall a close brush with danger - a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents first arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock - the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, business failure and so on.
The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's inner strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to become immune to fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.
When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths, in order to face the world with courage. Courage often means daring to take the unexpected path - to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failure, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.
We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension which comes with unexpected success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with "true north", that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:27 PM.
Present: 16 Enthusiasm
Question: near death when child at hand of elder - soul stayed groundless, almost forever
Enormous creative energy is unleashed by enthusiasm. This energy is like powerful music which inspires great numbers of people, loosening old constraints and generating new opportunities. Indeed, the power of enthusiasm is best symbolized by music and dance, for it is guided more by the heart than the head. Thus, great good fortune can follow when the leader of an enthusiastic group is a person of strong character, one able to guide this positive force toward a favorable destination.
Enthusiasm within a large group generates a special kind of electricity. When a crowd is "charged," the singer scales new heights, and life becomes its own reward. For who is not in awe of thunder? And who would fail to fill his or her lungs in the aftermath of a cleansing rain?
Arouse the passionate support of others, while adjusting your ideas and plans to suit their needs. In this way you can fill your sails with the mighty wind of popular support.
To arouse others, re-double your own dedication, and dare to create an environment which is free of tension. Take joy in your work. Harness the power of song and dance.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 3:
"She who hesitates is lost." In this situation, hesitation brings regret. The right moment for seizing an opportunity or approaching a benefactor must be selected carefully, but when that time comes action should be taken immediately. Giving your allegiance to a worthy cause or leader may well be appropriate, if such a move would further your own interests.
Seize the day, or watch your chances disappear. Rather than looking to some outside force, do your best to advance yourself through well-timed personal effort.
The second changing line is Line 4:
Great works spring from those able to awaken enthusiasm in others through self-confidence and decisiveness. A person without doubts, and who is sincere, attracts others naturally. The power of such a person is enhanced through the sharing of power and responsibility with others. Thus others are willing to return the cooperation and become trustworthy allies and supporters.
Future: 15 Humility
This hexagram represents the quality of likely opportunities and challenges arising from changes that are in process now:
Humility is often rewarded in human affairs, just as valleys are filled by the erosion of great mountains. It is the way of the world to fill the empty cup. Regardless of your position, humility is a positive and deceptively powerful attribute. If you are in a high position but are still humble, people will be drawn to you and the causes you espouse. If your position is lowly, humility will endear you to those of higher status. True humility is a virtue to which all should aspire.
The most successful people are those who know how to bring each situation into balance by reducing that which is too great, and adding to that which is too little. Such a person craves not power, but balanced and stable relationships. Humility is the virtue which allows you to perceive the balancing force in each situation; humble people are not prey to the many illusions which grow out of self-importance. If humility is not natural to your disposition, make a conscious effort to develop a strain of self-effacing humor.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:30 PM.
Present: 32 Endurance
Question: skills in art, writing but passion for song - cause for embarrassment
Endurance is fostered when inner constancy is coupled with external flexibility. Long-distance runners must adapt readily to changing conditions, while maintaining an inner determination and strength of purpose. Two trees growing near each other adapt to enhance each other's survival. A strong image of durability is a stable marriage of intimate partners striking a dynamic balance between involvement in the outside world and nourishment in the home.
True endurance is not based on rigidity, for endurance implies movement, not immobilization. Only by adapting to change can we stay in the race; but only by deepening our sense of purpose can we develop the fortitude to win it.
Continuity is achieved through movement, not by keeping still. That which has ceased to grow is close to death. Stay active, but allow yourself time to stay in touch with your innermost thoughts and feelings.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 3: Moody inconsistency invariably brings misfortune. Inconsistency of purpose is usually caused by excessive concern for the affairs of the world. Cultivate the simple pleasures of life in the home, and even your work may improve.
Future: 40 Deliverance
After a thunderstorm, or any period of extreme tension, a period of new clarity and fresh opportunity follows. The storm has the effect of clearing the air and suddenly reducing atmospheric tension. Deliverance is at hand. In the wake of a storm on land, deliverance appears in the form of new color and life, which bursts forth in all the fields and flowers. In the wake of a storm at sea, deliverance takes the form of land itself.
In the field of human relations, the rain of forgiveness washes the human landscape clean after a period of enmity and error. Great clarity of purpose and renewed vigor can follow the healing of old wounds. But care must be taken not to re-open these old wounds by moving too quickly. In the same way, it is important to return to normalcy first before moving ahead with new plans after periods of stress.
Following the resolution of a difficult situation, your first priority, should be to return to normal conditions as quickly as possible. Breathe a sigh of relief, but don't relax completely. It would be a mistake to re-awaken the sleeping dogs of the immediate past before the new situation has crystallized. Look ahead. Attend to any residual matters that need resolution, and do so as quickly as possible. Make a clean sweep of the past, move deliberately, and the future will bring good fortune.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:40 PM
Present: 22 Grace and Beauty
Question: starved body when young, but now crippled with age - still bad attitude towards my troublesome body
A splashy sunset bathes the mountains in a soft radiance; the light of a full moon dances on the surface of a rippling river: Grace and beauty adorning the natural world. Grace is not an all-powerful force, nor is it the essential or fundamental thing. By itself, it is form without content. Grace is moonlight on water, not the sunlight at noon. Yet grace brings artistic expression into the world, and enhances the quality of our lives.
In the arts, grace arises out of adherence to form: the dancer becoming the form of the dance, the musician giving life to the form of a musical score, the painter becoming one with the brush and canvas. In human affairs, grace is also aligned with form - with mastery of aesthetic and cultural forms honed by time and honored by tradition. Through appreciation of graceful forms in human culture we apprehend the pure beauty of the ideal, of life raised above the mere struggle for survival.
Possession of grace, like the bearing of a beautiful gift to a wedding, can add stature to those in humble positions. Take care to lend grace and dignity to small matters, while giving the weight of deep and careful consideration to matters of greater consequence. Though it should not be confused with true substance, an artistic flair can take one far in this world.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 1: Resist the temptation to create false illusions of your position or stature. It is more graceful and dignified to simply wash your own car when picking up an honored guest than to rent a limousine.
Future: 52 Keeping Still
Regular periods of keeping still are an important aspect of personal development and forward motion. The most restful person may not be the one who sleeps twelve hours a day, but the one able to grab catnaps while cruising at 500 miles-per-hour at 35,000 ft. Learning to act when it is time to act, and to keep still when it is time to keep still, is the key to obtaining the peace of mind which helps one stay focused when clear focus is needed.
Consider the spine, which serves as a switchboard for all the nerves of the body which mediate movement. When the spine is kept flexible and healthy through proper rest and relaxation, active movement can always be undertaken without strain. When the spine is held erect in a balanced sitting posture, the inner balancing of meditation can take place.
Treat your innate spark of vitality as if it were a candle in the wind - protecting it as though it were your only light in a dark forest on a moonless night. Avoid external conditions which threaten to snuff out the flame, and be careful not to suffocate it with your own ambitions and worries.
Time out. Relax, take your shoes off, and sit a spell. Let go of thinking. Meditate.

Consultation on Thursday, October 06, 2005 at 8:45 PM.
Present: 60 Limits and Connections
Question: secret sense of superiority in spiritual attainment - hope only passing immaturity
Limits are necessary to give purpose and direction to life. Swimming in a sea of boundless opportunity would soon lead to exhaustion. Winging it alone in a sky of boundless opportunity would lead to being lost. In human affairs, the making of choices, and alliances, implies limitation, for in choosing one path another must be abandoned.
One key to a successful life is to select your limits consciously and carefully - to be discriminating in the setting of personal boundaries and knowing when to join in formation. Thrift, for example, often precedes prosperity; just as the letting go of selfish interests often leads to greater personal reward. Only by consciously accepting useful limits can one's energy be channeled to good purpose, and lead to lasting accomplishment.
Point yourself toward a middle way, the mean between discipline and freedom of spirit. Limits will come of their own accord; but to be able to consciously select your own affiliations in life - that's knowing how to fly! At the same time, do not go overboard on discipline. Even limitation must be limited, so that in attempting to bring order and direction into your life you do not choke off vital sources of enthusiasm and spontaneity.
Similarly, in groups and organizations, the rules and regulations should strike a balance between being too strict and too soft. If too strict, they build frustration among people, and ultimately become destructive. If too lenient, sloppiness becomes acceptable, and energy is soon dissipated. The best path is one which allows for the fulfillment of individual potential, while encouraging self-discipline and focus.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 3:
To live a life of extravagant luxury before having contributed to society; to act willfully and selfishly in violation of reasonable rules and customs; to defy social conventions for the sheer thrill of doing so - these are all excesses which can quickly lead to serious and unfavorable consequences. Learn to take initiative and pleasure inside the bounds of what is fair and proper.
The second changing line is Line 5:
Do not ask others to wear a yoke you yourself would be unwilling to carry. Impose no rules you yourself could not live by. This is especially true, if you are in a position of leadership. If you are able to impose limits on others which truly fit the circumstance, and do not overly limit their freedom, greater success is possible.
Future: 11 Harmony
Earth stands above heaven and heaven seems to be on earth. The gravity of matter merges with the upward radiation of the light to merge in a deep harmony. This juxtaposition denotes a time of peace and blessings for all living things. In the affairs of men, tranquility comes when the good, strong and powerful show favor to the lowly, and those of more modest means are well disposed towards those who are currently blessed. There is an end to all feuds. In such a state, energy is high, the way clear, and the prospects for great success outstanding.
A deep chaos abides in nature, but man, by carefully responding to the rhythms and cycles of the world around him, can find peace in the natural world. By planting the right crop in the right place in the right season, the farmer brings harmony to the natural world of plants, and prosperity to his family. Similarly, any business must adjust to the natural cycles of the season; only through flexibility and adjustment can order and growth be maintained. Peace produces a time of flowering and prosperity; the wise person channels this positive energy to all quarters, to each in proper proportion, just as a farmer waters his field. But be vigilant: otherwise, peaceful conditions can foster the growth of weeds as well as flowers.

Preparing Myself for Moral Inventory - using I Ching

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:16 PM
Present: 19 Approach of Spring
Question: since my amnesty letter?
Spring is approaching. Good times ahead seems inevitable; there is vitality in the air. This is a most auspicious time. Like a snake emerging from hibernation, negative forces are only just beginning to stir, and can be effectively controlled. This is a time of hopeful progress, and must be used to best advantage. When approaching good fortune, conscientious work pays great dividends. A clear road lies ahead.
Act now, for at some point this ripe opportunity for advancement will be reversed. No spring lasts forever. It's always wise to stay alert and note the changing signs of the times.
Spring is always the season of new relationships. In the bounty of good times, new bonds are formed effortlessly. Relationships born in spring can serve well to warm the following autumn and winter.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 2:
When you are offered a good opportunity, prospects for success are very favorable. This is a good time to take strong, valiant action. When a person possesses inner strength and self-confidence, the future need not be a concern.
The second changing line is Line 5:
The greatest leaders reveal their true power by attracting people of excellent ability, and by allowing these key associates the freedom to exercise their own judgment. The person able to give power to those who can effectively exercise it, gains much more power in return.

Future: 03 Difficulty at the Beginning
Difficulty at the beginning. The birth of anything - including any new venture or relationship - is an entry into the realm of the unknown. At the same time, new things seem to be rushing upon you, and confusion can easily take over. But chaos is a powerful force if you harness it properly. Just don't rush things. Do not let events overwhelm you. Stay calm and persevering, but do take the first step. And get whatever help you can.
Challenges lie ahead. Gain strength; find courage. Like a new born fawn, the opportunity for rapid development is real, but only by being determined can the fawn rise to its feet and survive to grow to full stature. Keep going despite difficulties and you will find the success you desire. Your primary challenge is maintaining personal clarity. Avoid lunging at solutions; wait until a good course of action becomes clear. Do not start a new venture before thinking it through. A careless step in the beginning can easily cause events to get out of control later. Enlist the aid of experienced people.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:18 PM
Present: 46 Pushing Upward
Question: mindset of music friend
Advancement is represented by the forces of growth in springtime, when new plant life pushes upward through the earth's crust. The emphasis is on upward motion, from obscurity to influence, with growth fostered by adaptability and the absence of opposition. Constant, flexible growth is the key attribute of a plant pushing upwards. This reading suggests a period of promotion and prosperity in your life.
A wise person, in harmony with fate, is sensitive but determined. Make a sincere effort to apply resolute effort against the forces of inertia, and good fortune will follow. By remaining tolerant and flexible, you will be able to retain the kind of conscious innocence which fuels growth and advancement. Will power and self-control are necessary to manage this growth properly, but an inner enthusiasm for life is what nurtures it.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 2:
You have limited resources, but if you are sincere your efforts will be appreciated. This particular line suggests that changes are developing which point to success and advancement growing out of inner strength of character, rather than material advantage.
Future: 15 Humility
Humility is often rewarded in human affairs, just as valleys are filled by the erosion of great mountains. It is the way of the world to fill the empty cup. Regardless of your position, humility is a positive and deceptively powerful attribute. If you are in a high position but are still humble, people will be drawn to you and the causes you espouse. If your position is lowly, humility will endear you to those of higher status. True humility is a virtue to which all should aspire.
The most successful people are those who know how to bring each situation into balance by reducing that which is too great, and adding to that which is too little. Such a person craves not power, but balanced and stable relationships. Humility is the virtue which allows you to perceive the balancing force in each situation; humble people are not prey to the many illusions which grow out of self-importance. If humility is not natural to your disposition, make a conscious effort to develop a strain of self-effacing humor.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:20 PM
Present: 01 Creative Power
Question: sent email and card to another friend
The air is ripe with imagination, inspiration and energy. The dragon is an ancient symbol of an electrically charged, dynamic, arousing force that bodes well for creative initiative. If your goals are in alignment with the greater good, your actions will meet with success, but this can only happen if you assert yourself in a positive way. This is a good time to exercise leadership, because you can be strong now. But be forewarned: success turns to failure when strength turns to arrogance.
Believe in your dreams and persevere, and everything around you will flourish. Call upon creative power and let it work through you. Stay focused on your goals; do not let yourself be distracted, or you may lose the power available to you now. And remember that when taking action, success requires good timing.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1:
There are hidden elements in this situation that you are not yet able to perceive. Hold your creative power in reserve temporarily, because the timing is not right for action. Trying to make progress now would be like trying to cook noodles in cold water. Wait until the water boils.
The second changing line is Line 2:
Events are moving in the right direction. You have entered the arena and are being noticed, but the game has not begun. Take a wider perspective, and the best strategy will become clear. You are not yet in position to make great changes, but aligning yourself with a strong ally would help lead to a breakthrough.
The third changing line is Line 6:
Is it possible that your ambition exceeds your creative power? If so, there may be cause for remorse. Avoid arrogance, for isolating yourself will only lead to sorrow. Now is not the time to engage in conflicts or criticize others. Relax and recharge your creativity.
Future: 31 Mutual Attraction
The attraction of opposites is a powerful and fundamental force. The image of this reading is that of the attraction between a young man and a young woman in the courtship stage. In response to the magnetic attraction between them, the masculine principle (the creative, outgoing) seizes the initiative and submits to the feminine (the receptive, sensitive). When the assertive is able to defer to the receptive, and when the receptive accepts responsibility and exercises quiet leadership, an exciting and profitable union is the result. This brings good fortune, for all success depends upon the effects of mutual attraction.
Consistency is important in matters of mutual attraction, for this is what separates courtship from seduction.
If you are by nature an instigator, it is good to take the initiative. But you must remain sensitive, and highly principled, and avoid the temptation to be manipulative. Let the power of mutual attraction pull you along. If you are the receptive one, keep your mind innocent and free of pride, so that you may remain open to good advice or helpful assistance. When your influence arises from innocence, a powerful magnetic force is at work for you.
Remaining open to the forces of attraction brings good fortune. Closing yourself to them heralds the death of the soul. Learn to yield to the natural tugs and pulls of the heart.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:22 PM
Present: 10 Treading Carefully
Question: sent email to an elder
People of ability find their way, and make progress even in difficult circumstances. Consider your steps carefully when you are surrounded by powerful forces. Weak and strong forces (or people) can co-exist when the weaker element does not impose upon the stronger, when the weaker maintains good humor and avoids taking bold action. When treading among sleeping tigers - or slippery stones - step gingerly; and don't stumble.
In the company of strong, brash people, rushing wildly ahead brings misfortune. Now is not a good time for taking the initiative; rather, try getting by with a little grace and good humor. In the court of a powerful king, the jester often has more power than the prince.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 2:
Beyond the silence of failure lies the stillness of wisdom. Withdrawing from the bustle of events and eliminating unnecessary desires brings clarity of purpose. Life becomes a smooth road when you understand that happiness comes less from having what you want, than from wanting what you have.
The second changing line is Line 5:
Walking among tigers is dangerous. Resolute conduct in the face of danger, and a clear-eyed assessment of the situation, are the only means of successful resolution.
The third changing line is Line 6:
Your work has reached a stage of completion, and it's time to count your winnings. Only by assessing the results of your past efforts, can you know what to expect in the future. The farmer who harvests healthy crops in the fall can safely predict a prosperous winter.
Future: 51 Shock
One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpened, clearer vision. Recall a close brush with danger - a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents first arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock - the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, business failure and so on.
The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's inner strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to become immune to fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.
When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths, in order to face the world with courage. Courage often means daring to take the unexpected path - to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failure, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.
We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension which comes with unexpected success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with "true north", that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:24 PM
Present: 35 Easy Progress
Question: sent email to possible mentor
The general situation is one of easy, natural progress. What has been weak is steadily ascending, and by gaining a prominent position, becomes more powerful. The image is the light of the rising sun, which at first appears dimly through the mists. But this weak light later radiates with powerful clarity once the sun has reached a high position in the sky.
Progress is made when those in subordinate positions make peace with those above, and in so doing create a natural means for their talents and abilities to become prominent. It is by recognizing and riding with the natural course of events- by hitching our wagon to the rising sun, as it were - that we advance our position and earn respect.
Don't forget, that goodness in human nature is like the dim but beautiful early morning light. It can easily be obscured - by greed, hatred and other forms of self-absorption - just as the morning light can be swallowed by fog. Be reminded that progress is achieved most effortlessly when right action is taken without concern for immediate reward, and when the path of the weaker aligns with that which is strong.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 2:
A lack of progress is often caused by a lack of contact with the right people. Though this can be disheartening, progress will cease altogether if you push too hard with people who have not yet developed strong trust in you. By persevering in your efforts now, important people will notice and help you along, but only in due time. Avoid becoming too frustrated because of a lack of immediate progress.
The second changing line is Line 6:
When strong, energetic action is required to achieve progress, make certain that your ducks are in a row before you begin. Be particularly careful to avoid overly energetic initiatives to those with whom you do not enjoy a close relationship. If a bridge can't handle the weight, don't use it.
Future: 40 Deliverance
After a thunderstorm, or any period of extreme tension, a period of new clarity and fresh opportunity follows. The storm has the effect of clearing the air and suddenly reducing atmospheric tension. Deliverance is at hand. In the wake of a storm on land, deliverance appears in the form of new color and life, which bursts forth in all the fields and flowers. In the wake of a storm at sea, deliverance takes the form of land itself.
In the field of human relations, the rain of forgiveness washes the human landscape clean after a period of enmity and error. Great clarity of purpose and renewed vigor can follow the healing of old wounds. But care must be taken not to re-open these old wounds by moving too quickly. In the same way, it is important to return to normalcy first before moving ahead with new plans after periods of stress.
Following the resolution of a difficult situation, your first priority, should be to return to normal conditions as quickly as possible. Breathe a sigh of relief, but don't relax completely. It would be a mistake to re-awaken the sleeping dogs of the immediate past before the new situation has crystallized. Look ahead. Attend to any residual matters that need resolution, and do so as quickly as possible. Make a clean sweep of the past, move deliberately, and the future will bring good fortune.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:27 PM
Present: 50 The Cauldron
Question: Shadow looks like he's having a meltdown
The cauldron symbolizes nourishment and rejuvenation. Sooner or later, good comes to those who do good; joy comes to those who bring humor to others; opportunity comes to those who persist in their dreams. Rejuvenation is a returning to innate desires - and a re-charging of batteries through the fulfillment of these wishes. This reading suggests nourishment and transformation for people of goodwill. Great good fortune and success are indicated.
Healthy, regular sustenance is important, as symbolized by the cooking pot, which provides nourishment to all. When the cycle of humanity reaches its apex, each person's sustenance comes in the form of his or her deepest needs and desires.
Rejuvenation simply means that men and women of talent and insight are being properly nourished and valued. When society is functioning properly, such people are supported, and encouraged to contribute to their best abilities. A fresh approach to old habits is indicated in a period of rejuvenation. Look for ways of putting new life in old forms; for only when great vitality is present, can breakthroughs be achieved.
There are two changing lines. Either one or the other or some combination of both of them will be relevant.
The first changing line is Line 2:
You are confident, and may well be able to secure some measure of prosperity in the near future. You may experience some envy and mistrust from others in the process, but that is their problem. This is your moment, the time for you to achieve something. There is no real danger. Limit your attention to the challenges - and opportunities - in front of you right now.
The second changing line is Line 6:
Wisdom is transmitted from the sage to the worthy disciple. Remain open to wisdom; it is as real as the wind, and its sources just about as predictable.
Future: 62 Attention to Detail
Ambitious undertakings are not in order now, but attention to small matters brings progress. Such is the case of a person whose resources are meager, but who, through modesty and perseverance, rises to accomplish great things.
The key to success when the small potential dominates the large scene is to avoid pretentious ambitions and grandiose goals. The power of the small is served by slow and steady advancement, and succeeds through an honest awareness of its own limitations, without reservation.
Modesty stemming from recognizing your limitations is a fine quality, but it can be seen as weakness if it is not accompanied by conscientiousness. It is very important, therefore, to understand the demands of your situation, and not to expect success in big things right now. The wise person recognizes the nature of the time. So, know your own role, carefully attend to details and act with humility, and you can achieve success even with few resources.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:29 PM
Present: 49 Revolution
Question: Smokey's healing progress
According to Chinese symbolism, the juxtaposed elements of this hexagram are fire under water. Fire evaporates water, and water puts out fire. Change often causes conflict; conflict brings about change. This hexagram refers to that time in the cycle of human affairs when things need stirring up, and when the hint of dramatic change is in the air.
In order to succeed, revolutions must be in alignment with certain immutable laws. They must begin at the right moment, gather support from a broad-base of people, be guided by sincere and capable leaders and - most important of all - must address a real need. The strength of the forces of change will always be in proportion to the urgency of the need being championed. This is true whether the revolution is in government, in business, in education or in one's personal affairs.
Revolutionary change points to a time when chaos arises from order. It is important to realize that not all order is good, not all chaos bad. Chaos, in fact, is an integral part of the way of things - as any parent (and modern science) will confirm. Have the courage to radically change and renew the way you present yourself. In this way, you can summon chaos to your cause, and you will unleash a new power on your behalf. If engaging in a negotiation, change the rules; if composing a piece of music, add the unexpected; if courting a lover, dare to be unconventional.
In periods of drought, even wild storms are preferable to yet another sunny day.
You cast several changing lines, which indicates a number of changing possibilities in the situation.
The first changing line is Line 1:
At the outset of a period of great change, there is no need to hurry. You can wait to act. Events are just taking shape - you can never know precisely what form will solidify in the end. In the great revolutions of history, the first wave of leaders are usually killed; it is the second wave of leaders who endure.
The second changing line is Line 3:
Initiating action at the present time might well bring negative results. When change becomes necessary, it would be unskillful to proceed with haste and ruthlessness, which could be courting disaster. The other error lies in excessive hesitation and conservatism, which is also not advisable. Not every demand for change in the existing order should be heeded. On the other hand, repeated and well-founded complaints should not fail to get a hearing. Examine every situation thoroughly. Do not be led astray.
The third changing line is Line 5:
Fortune favors the bold, and the stout of heart. Go ahead and make the necessary changes; you know what to do. Don't stand on ceremony, don't consult the tea leaves, don't call home for advice: Just do it!
Future: 16 Enthusiasm
Enormous creative energy is unleashed by enthusiasm. This energy is like powerful music which inspires great numbers of people, loosening old constraints and generating new opportunities. Indeed, the power of enthusiasm is best symbolized by music and dance, for it is guided more by the heart than the head. Thus, great good fortune can follow when the leader of an enthusiastic group is a person of strong character, one able to guide this positive force toward a favorable destination.
Enthusiasm within a large group generates a special kind of electricity. When a crowd is "charged," the singer scales new heights, and life becomes its own reward. For who is not in awe of thunder? And who would fail to fill his or her lungs in the aftermath of a cleansing rain?
Arouse the passionate support of others, while adjusting your ideas and plans to suit their needs. In this way you can fill your sails with the mighty wind of popular support.
To arouse others, re-double your own dedication, and dare to create an environment which is free of tension. Take joy in your work. Harness the power of song and dance.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:37 PM
Present: 04 Youthful Folly
Question: planned to do AA step 4, the moral inventory as rite of reconciliation and model rite for example
Be on guard for careless or rebellious attitudes characteristic of youthful inexperience. Just as a youth requires instruction, this is a good time to focus on learning your lessons from a patient teacher or life experience. Is there a circumstance in your life, which you have failed to comprehend completely, perhaps because you have failed to appreciate its inherent complexities? Be respectful of anything or anyone who has something to teach you right now.
In order to be ready for challenging times, let education be a continuing part of your life. Be continually developing the strong mind and will necessary to carry one through confusing times. The wise realize that experience, especially difficult experience, is a powerful teacher. But we cannot be forced to learn, even from experience. Be a good student, one who delights in learning, one who nourishes his or her expanding awareness.
Examine your attitude for factors which limit your openness. Observe how you deal with the mistakes of others. You must let people live their own lives and learn their own lessons. Offer others your wisdom or advice, but only if they are receptive. Otherwise, give up trying to convince them that you are right - that is only exhausting and counter-productive. If people are not receptive, let them proceed - even into difficulty or dangerous circumstances. It is the only way they can learn - and without learning, no one can achieve success. This does not mean that you should not care -- just that taking care of someone too much can be harmful. Live and let learn.
The most specific advice with regard to your question is contained in changing line 6:
Punishment or rebukes may be necessary, but take care that the punishment fit the "crime." While it's true that Fate evens the score with those who spurn natural laws, persons in authority offend the same natural laws if they let a crime go unpunished. Be firm, but remember that the goal of all truly effective punishment is equilibrium, not revenge.
Future: 07 Organized Discipline
The most successful general is not the one that triumphs on the battlefield, but the one able, through strength of discipline and inner power, to triumph without spilling blood. Likewise, in any large organization the key virtues are discipline and conscientiousness. The most effective platoon marches with a single purpose - a dedication to a lofty common goal which is held dear by all. Otherwise, even with an excess of external discipline, unpopular wars are seldom winnable.
Let power be held in check by the acceptance of a common discipline, and submission to a higher authority for the common good. When life is in balance, evil impulses are checked by human decency; parents die before their children; leaders lead and followers follow. If you hold or aspire to a position of leadership, remember that the true leader captures the hearts of the people, and articulates a clear, simple vision which binds them together.
In the realm of government, the relationship between the army and state is critical. Only when the state is economically prosperous can the army be strong. Only when the army is disciplined can the state be protected from disruptive outside forces. For this balance to be preserved, government must be steady, and mild toward its own people. When balancing strong complimentary forces, modesty and generosity at the center can be a magnetic force which keeps the relationships intact. Solidarity among all elements is essential for success at this time.

Consultation on Wednesday, October 05, 2005 at 10:39 PM
Present: 41 Decrease
Question: my reconciliation blog will then be completed - advise for wisest use?
Increase and decrease are part of the natural cycle of life. As another good book puts it, "To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven." Like a reservoir that is being used to irrigate the fields, learning to accept a decrease in position or material possessions is part of preparing for increase in the future.
We may live in materialistic times, but there is no disgrace in material decrease, particularly if it represents an investment in future gain - even if that gain be in the form of learning or the development of personal character. Likewise, the inner strength that comes from bearing loss can be balanced by a corresponding increase in inner strength and insight. When letting go of material desires leads to a greater simplicity in daily life, good fortune often comes calling.
In nature, the lake evaporates to form the clouds that drop the rain which nurtures the surrounding forest. As the forest grows thick, more rain is captured for the lake. Similarly, an "evaporation" or decrease in one area of your life, may give rise to an eventual increase. A loss of responsibility at work can mean more free time; more free time may generate more career options. A decrease in material possessions can free the spirit and fill the soul.
Be mindful of the lesson of young lovers: even with a minimum of possessions, feelings of the heart can bring an unsurpassed richness to life. The smallest of actions, if sincere, have value. So remain confident, for a time of decrease may actually bode good fortune. Especially if you remain open to that possibility.
Let go of frustration, resistance and regret over whatever may